lifes changes.....

Jul 06, 2009

Hi everyone,
I guess this is a woe is me post it is July and my little Madison will be turning 4 on Saturday the 11th and I feel like I am doing it alone.  I am doing all the yard clean up, all of the B-day shopping working 50 + hours per week taking care of the kids when I am not working I missed some appointments to my support groups which I vowed I never would, I found myself falling off track, and I get nothing but bitching from Scott.  I am unable to get to the gym because my car is out of commission. So I am walking but it isnt enough, I am at a stall.   People told me that relationships change and people change but I dont think I have changed,  my relationship with Scott is falling apart but it isnt over this whole weightloss surgery. It is about money  & the 4 kids and past issues that keep getting brought up.  Is life ever fair, just when I was taking 2 steps forward to make myself healthier and happier my whole life falls apart around me.  I took 5 steps back and not feeling happy and I should be feeling on top of the world with 100 pounds gone forever, but I am not !!!  I am getting comments from him that all I am doing is thinking about myself and I dont see it.  I always do for everyone else before me if I was thinking of just myself I wouldnt be walking to the grocery store or skipping my support groups or walking to and from work when I have to.  I am tired all of the time and I am trying to get an appointment for labs to make sure everything is ok I fall asleep early and I get woken up because he wants to go get a coffee or get something so that cause a fight I am up at 3:45 in the morning to go to work yes I get tired at 9:00 at night and I think he says I am thinking of myself because I want to go to bed at 10:00 and my kids are not the best sleepers so sometimes 2 of them are awake and he will tell me I am not spending time with them!!! GRRRRRRRR I get so mad am I in the wrong please tell me if I am being selfish I am not a selfish person and I will never be one nplease dont judge me just tell me if you think I am in the wrong !!!

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haverhill, MA
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12/02/2008
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Oct 20, 2008
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