Apr 28, 2014
I've got one week left before my surgery day. I have a horrible cold, but I'm glad I have it now so I have time to recover before surgery. I'm down almost 10lbs from highest weight, my starting weight which is nice. My husband sees it, I still don't yet. This is going to be a journey. I'm still not sure what I'm going to discover on it. My main motivation for pursuing surgery was when I resigned myself over to an insulin pump for diabetes. Don't get me wrong I love the technology itself, I don't love that I need it because my weight is out of control. My father has stints in his coronary arteries and now in his legs and if ever there was any wavering, when the leg stints went in, there was no more. My husband endured so much in his fight with cancer and I'm so thankful to God that he has beaten it. He deserves to have me around as long as possible. My children also deserve a better, healthier mom. They deserve a mom/wife whose attitude isn't dictated by blood sugar and out-of-whack hormone issues; whose day doesn't revolve around whether or not I can get in a nap; whose life has a healthier respect for self and a less self-involved. I know for a while that it will be about me a little more than usual, but then as surgery heals and I start spending my energy in the right directions, my family will get so much more of me and I'm so happy for that!