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Wow! Things have been going fast! I spent June in New Mexico on a mission trip to a Navajo reservation. After I got back I went to the doctor & learned I was down 60 pounds!  I don't have a scale at home, so it's always a surprise when I go visit the doctor.   It has been very trying though! There are so many things I want to eat, but can't! But I am learning to adjust to the amounts I can tolerate.  I was told the first year is the hardest, I now understand why!!  I have been going through a kind of depression....I sometimes miss eating. Is that normal? I found out that my Mom has cancer. Eating was my coping mechanism before, so I have had to develop other ways to deal with my emotions, rather tham stuffing down food. It's a long, hard road, but I am determined to make it !  

Wow! I can't believe it's been a month already! So much has happened. First, the surgery!! My biggest fear going into surgery was going to sleep & not waking up! In 2000, I had gallbladder surgery & the nurses had trouble getting me breating again on my own. So, I was really scared, but my anesthesiologist was wonderful! In fact, his was the first face I saw when I woke up in recovery. He stayed with me until I was breathing comfortably on my own, which was almost an hour! He never once acted like I was a nuisance, for that I will be eternally grateful! Second, I was fired from my job for having the surgery. Now I am struggling financially, but I would have done the surgery no matter what!! I am off all diabetes medications & am only taking 1 BP medicine & 1 triglyercide medicine. My dr. says in a few months I may not even need those. I am averaging a weight loss of about 5-6 pounds a week. Today I put on a pair of pants that I haven't been able to wear in nearly 2 years!! That was uplifting. I have gotten a few messages & I want to thank everyone that has dropped a line to me! I couldn't have kept my spirits up without the support I have been getting from my on-line buddies!! I did have to stay in the hospital for 6 days, which is longer than most. I have an autoimmune disorder (like lupus) which caused lesions in my abdomen. These spots bled after surgery & my hematocrit kept dropping, so I had to be given 4 units of blood over the course of 3 days. But since leaving the hospital, I have been fine! I am walking on the tread-mill at least 4 days a week for an hour. I am trying to build up to an hour a day, but years of sitting on my behind takes a bit of effort to overcome! I am now on the "full liquids" diet. Which means I can have cream soups & milk. I am taking my protein supplements too! If anyone knows where I can get a liquid protein to add to soups, please let me know!!

This has been a long & difficult road to get to the point of 4 days before GB surgery. I (like everyone on this site) have tried every diet known to man, taken upteen diet pills, all of which where failures. I even took Topamax, which help me to lose weight, but also caused me to have hallucinations. This is difficult because my parents are not supportive of my decision to have WLS. My mom has even said that I am "attempting suicide" by going through with the surgery. I have 3 sisters & only 2 of them support me in this effort. They are my cheer-leaders!! I can not understand how my parents can't see that my weight IS killing me. I have diabetes, HBP, hypo-thyroid, poly-cyctic ovarian syndrome, fibromyalgia, autoimmune liver disease, fatty liver, sleep apenea & more!  At the age of 40, I have made the decision that I want to "live" the rest of my life on this earth, not merely exist. I have been fat my entire life. Always treated like a second-class human, but after my birthday, it was like an epiphany!! That I can change the course of my life, the tools are within reach, so I am taking the plunge!! I am in the midst of my liquid diet & in approx. 4 days time, I will be undergoing Gastric Bypass. So, I am begging for everyone to please send your support my way....I NEED ALL THE HELP I CAN GET!!