L. TP
5 months post op!
Nov 03, 2008
I am calling the 4th month a total disaster ha ha. I was terrible about working out, choices and everything. Luckily I did not gain any weight. Now, I just need to get back on track. I think I can do it!
I leave for jamaica for my 4 year anniversary over thanksgiving. Shopping for cute sundresses has been so fun even though I have not yet bought one. I am going to wear a strapless sundress if it kills me. AND AND AND I get to fly and fit! I am so jazzed.
I love my surgery...I am just scared I am going to screw up and stretch my pouch and be fat again in 5 years. Lots of anxiety around that.
My hair is falling out like no ones busness. I have lost probably 79% of my hair. Apparently this can go for another 2 months. If it does, I literally wont have any hair left. I went to my hair stylist that I have always loved and have been going to for 5 years. She has been very sensative about my hair issues. However, her assistant started making fun of me and showing everyone in the salon my clumps of hair and saying all sorts of horrible things about it. Even though it was not my stylist, my stylist did nothing and said nothing. So, I have decided not to return but now I have to find someone else and in the midst of this hair trama.
Well other than that, I can't complain. Some anxieties over failure and stretching the ole pouch out and my hair but I have no regrets.
2 month post op!
Aug 07, 2008
Protein is a struggle. I do great then I don't and I go back and forth. I get very good excersize and eat very well. I cannot tolerate meat which makes me so sad. I crave all sorts of yummy chicken dishes and no matter what I can't do any meat. In despiration I have tried them all in countless circumstances and preparations. I dump everytime.
So, I will go in tomorrow to do my blood tests and find out more on Tuesday. I hope to be at 185 by the end of August but that is pretty ambitious.
One Month Post Op!
Jul 04, 2008
Well it’s been one hell of a month, both good and bad. I can't believe it’s already been a month. I am not up to par on vitamins, protein, food intake or water but I am pretty close. I was walking 2 miles everyday but my husband brought home bronchitis from work and I have been very sick for almost 2 weeks. I have also platued. I think this is because I have not been able to get my protein in and exercise while sick.
Water is going down great now. I am so relieved about that. I have thrown up everyday. I can't do chicken or turkey unless it’s a deli sliced. Anything other than that, no matter how moist or saucy, I will throw it up. I have taken two bits of ground beef and had absolutely no problem. I am still struggling with eating to fast or too much. I pay the price, let me tell you.
Overall, if it were not for the bronchitis I think I would feel great. I am down exactly 40 pounds, even with a stall. I can't complain. I think weight loss will slow way down in the upcoming months but that’s okay too.
Buyers Remorse OH NO!
Jun 22, 2008
So I went and had my second live xray done...you know the one you have to drink the horrible barium!? This last time I kept gaging so bad it brought me to tears in the xray room. He said I have slight narrowing but its likely swelling. I have yet to hear anything from my doctors office however.
I am really struggling with eating any meat whatsoever. I throw up every time. Its awful. They say that means I am either eating to big of pieces or to fast. At this point, I have tried so damn hard on both I can honestly say...no matter what anyone tells me..I disagree. Having no meat at this point has made it next to impossible to get even 20 grams of protein in. Overall, I am having a very hard time emotionally with this. Its making me not want to have food at all, which is also scary. I barely even have a 1/4 cup of food a day! The reprecusions of eating more simply is not worth it. Telling my doctors office isn't helpful either. They lecture me, make me feel very defensive and tell me everything is my fault. I am wondering if this will ever get better. I guess they call this..."the buyers remorse" stage.
One week Post Op! Me?
Jun 10, 2008
I am having a very hard time drinking water. I love water, but now it hurts my belly to drink it. I have tried all sorts of temperatures but still, no luck. Food, well thats another story. I see the pizza commercials and think how I would love to have that but when I go down to eat anything I have no desire to eat anything. Not one thing. Even if that pizza was in front of me, I really think I would not want to really eat that either. I think it will pass though.
The Weight Breakdown:
261 the week of surgery
253 the day of surgery
239 one week post op! OMG, is right!
Feeling better each day and may even try to do a movie tonight!
Tomorrow is surgery day!
Jun 02, 2008
I took the magnesium citrate at 1pm. It nearly made me gag. It surprisingly was better than I anticipated though. Its now 5:30 and I have only had 1 bowel movement which is probably to much information ha ha. I am a bit concerned though. I have a 90 minutes massage tonight at 8:30...lets cross our fingers that I have everything out before then ha ha.
Am I nervous...a bit. More nervous about post op than the surgery itself. I think I will sleep just fine tonight. It still doesn't feel real...
I feel very blessed to have this chance. I will see you all on the flip side~!
One Month from Today and Turning 30 all in the same week!
May 02, 2008
My fears are not the surgery, which it always has been. Now I find my fears mostly being the first 3 months post op. I am also very uncomfortable with this whole catheter issue I have been told I must have ha ha. I wonder if the doctor takes bribes...
Two Months from Today!
Apr 03, 2008
Does the last two months go fast? Does Post Op go fast or does everyday feel like an eternity because you don't feel so great???
Denied.....APPROVED?
Mar 20, 2008
The doctor called the insurance on my behalf and the hospital made every attempt to correct the situation and fight on my behalf. When all efforts were exhausted they said I stood absolutely no chance. I contacted two attorneys. They said my initial request letter and paperwork was literally so good, they do not know how they or anyone they know could top it. These were 2 of the toughest insurance lawyers in the state.
I gave up. I got very depressed and just gave up. I could not emotionally handle another blow like the first so I felt not trying again was the more healthy thing to do. It would have been one thing If I had not had a surgery and done all my pre op testing, pre op classes and everything but unfortunately, I had!
Something hit me 24 hours before my appeal cut off date. I remember it being very late, probably close to 3am. I had been thinking about it for hours. I had to appeal. I had literally nothing to add but I had to appeal. I had no additional testing, no additional doctor letters, nothing compelling whatsoever. So, I decided I would put no effort into it and just write a letter. Again, the more effort the more let down I felt I would endour. So, I wrote a letter. Thats it. I have a very tough insurance, the hospital and even doctor spoke to the TOP person at my insurance, which by the way, she knew so whats left? Well, three days later I got the call, approved! I didn't believe it. I made the hospital call and double check. Literally. I even triple checked. Needless to say, buckets of tears came flowing.
So, thats my crazy story. The miracle surgery. It can happen. I can't even tell you how many people I talked to sicker and heavier than me who have my insurance (exact) and got denied multiple times, even taking them to court and loosing. I don't know why they approved me but I will NEVER complain about the process. I remember sitting in support group the day I found out I got denied and hearing everyone complain about how they hate drinking broth. I stood up and said, be thankful because there are so many people like me who can't get the surgery and would LOVE to be in their position.
So, I am very glad I went through all I went through. I think it happened for a reason, many. Here is where it will all really begin...
P.S. I had to call my insurance FOUR times before they would finally say they covered the insurance! If you call and they say they don't, keep calling!