
MacArthurBug
battle!
May 08, 2008
Yaaaaaa!
Apr 20, 2008
But today I'm sitting at 151. That's darn close! OMG. I may actually meet my goal weight. I'm freaking shocked! Especially since this week I havn't been especially good. I had cheesecake.. three times! Bad Amber!! BUT it was for my birthday (Then there was some still there..)
I'm getting back on track this week, if I'm going to get to goal. I'm still losing so, that's good. I always seem to gain a little right befpre I start losing again for some reason. I also seem to struggle through about a week of "picky pouch" before I start slowly cycling down too. It hasn't been as often lately (And I'm glad for it), I'm really quite happy right here, I could totally stay this way, but I'd be even happier to meet my goal and for the first time since I was, like, 15, have a "normal" BMI. I look awesome, I feel awesome.. and I know that's what's important (the feeling awesome that is).
WELP..
I go now. I had an awesome Birthday, my huby dressed up to compliment me. And I got a new titanium ring that actually fits! And.. WEll It was just awesome! TA now! :)
I'm getting old :P
Apr 15, 2008
My mom forgot how old I was turning. I'm starting to wonder if she's got pre-alstimers. That'd suck. My weight has been a little fluctuating. Most times I'm 153ish but I'ts gone up (never down below) one or two pounds only to go back.
I'm pretty content here. I feel like even if I don't ever get "below goal" I'm doing great. My body feels healthy. I'm trying new ways to snack smart, and not succeding terribly well. I'm gonna try protien pretzals, since pretzals and popcorn are my indulgences right now.
TA!
So close I can taste it.
Mar 24, 2008
This surgery has absolutly changed my life. I know I'm still dealing with a lot of left over emotional luggage, the kind of crap that confined me to the heavy layered shell I wrapped myself in to be ignored. I'm still a little ashamed of how I look with my clothing off (Like a sharpei.. eew) but- I'm getting there. I'm working on acceptance at a level I've never looked at before. Not just of myself either, but of EVERYTHING. I may not agree with everything going on in the world. I may not agree with everyone. However, I no longer need to hide from it all. It's time to get out there and live my life. :)
The FLU diet
Mar 11, 2008
Then the accursed thing hit me. Three freaking days of not being hungry, of severe diareah, no vomiting but I could barely bring myself to get down a protien shake or one protien bar . I managed hydration JUST fine. I was so thirsty. Now it's finally worn off, I can eat "normal" since Sunday. And I'm glad to be back on my feet.
Well I checked the scale this morning and 153. 153!! Dude. Ok, I know I'm going to re-gain some weight, especially since I'm betting my poor body is in starvation mode and is going to grab onto calories. But! If I can manage only to re-gain 2-3 pounds I'm THISMUCH closer to my goal.
I wouldn't do it again for the world. BUT I'm considering doing that silly 5 day pouch test in a few weeks just to see if I can make my body accept THIS weight as it's new norm.
begin: Rant.
Feb 05, 2008
Another flat plateu
Jan 26, 2008
Yup. This is it, unless I shove myself, push myself make myself cry, this feels like it. I am currently sitting very near my consistant healthy weight of my teenage years. I look and feel pretty great. I'm consulting doctors (trough tri-care) to see if I qualify for any covered plastics. I'm also consulting a plastic surgen in my area (Taki) to see what it'd cost to do out of pocket. There's so much I'd like done. Compared to what I could afford to have done. I'd love a circumfrontial (sp?) lower body lift, thigh lift, upper body lift, arm skin removal thing, and breast lift/reconstruction. I'd prefer to leave out any imlants, I just don't feel comfortable with the idea of them unless they're REALLY nessesary.
From the resurch I've done there's a small thin chance tri-care will cover the pannectomy (tummy tuck type) surgery and VERY very possibly the breast lift if I prove these things are giving me back pain.
I almost wish extreme makeover were accepting applications. Of course I doubt they'd even take me.. after all I'm nothing "spectacular" like their last few freak show type cases.
I guess... wish me luck. I'll post more pictures soon.
163
Nov 19, 2007
2 pounds. Who'd have thought I'd be giddy over 2 pounds. But it's moving. Via my husbands advice I've also decided to start (gulp) jogging. I'm gonna start easy wit walking fast and work UP to jogging, but it's probably the only way I'm going to really get this weight off. My dizzys have been happening less. I'm drinking propel water every day, taking my vitamins and eating fish protein. I don't like fish!!! But, anything to get healthier.
I'm finally really starting to HEAR, not just be told and ignore but HEAR the comments on how much better I look. Apparently one of my husbands co-workers thought he'd gotten a "new girl" because I looked so different. When he found out it was the same, but skinnier lady he was flummoxed and told my hubby to tell me I looked quote "a-freaking-mazing".
I REALLY want to get a panniectomy. I think getting the excess skin trimmed off my tummy will allow me to see myself better. I still look in the mirror and see that huge flap of ugliness hanging around my waist. It's nasty and it makes getting dressed annoying.
I don't know. I know I look sooo much better. I also FEEL so much better. But - I'm still the same me inside. The inner me hasn't changed and there are times I wonder what all the hoopla is about. I was ALWAYS this amazing. It takes getting skinny for people to notice?
The plan
Nov 09, 2007
My goal is close. I think I might do a mad dash for the finish. It's time to kick things up a notch.
In quite a bit of honesty here: things have been pretty easy for me up to now. a little diet adjustment here. A little added in exercise there. Some very uncomfortable experiments being the only real problems. But it's time to buckle up and get on board 'cause I'm going whole hog.
My weight goal is right around the corner. a tantalizing 15 pounds away. I REALLY want to be there. I haven't weighed 150 pounds since I was 16. Which is like a million years in me time. Heck the last time I weighed 165 (my current weight) was when I was 17, so yea.
I'm going to actually make a plan. Instead of my usual "roll with it" attitude I'm going to actually make a few more dietary adjustments. These are generally the easiest, since food and I are at an agreement. The hard part is upping the exercise. I KNOW if I want to shed more poundage and get into a better state of health I'll have to kick up my exercise.
I'm an exercise disgrace. Sure, I walk. I work off the majority of my calories cleaning house. Occasionally I get crazy and play with my exercise ball. But, not enough.
so the plan!
I've been making lists a lot. TO keep me up with my housework. To keep me in line. so! I'm adding mandatory exercise time into my to-do lists. I'll have to set myself a reward (like clothing shopping, wic I've been avoiding) for finishing a months worth of finished list. EVEN if I don't loose. I know, even if te weight refuses to move that I NEED to be exercising more. I also think that if I do I'll shed these last few pounds. Wish me luck.
Not the heart
Nov 09, 2007