macismom
Once an addict....
Apr 23, 2009
I weighed in at 135.8lbs. this morning. That's up from the 131.2lbs. that I weighed last Friday. So in less than a week I've gained almost 5lbs. I'm terrified. It's all I've thought about this morning. Isn't that insane! I weighed 246lbs less than a year ago, but I'm beating myself up about this? Yeah I am, because... 1. I don't know how to deal with the guilt food still inflicts on my life 2. I feel that any gain in weight is a slippery slope 3. I've been out of control with what I'm eating. See, I don't really dump on sugar, unless it's a lot, and so I'm pushing my limits daily. I'm also feeling healthy again, after first having my gallbladder out, then dealing with a crazy bought of the weirdest most painful and itchy hives ever, for almost two weeks. So I feel good enough to eat, so eat I have. I'm actually afraid because I feel like I can eat way more than I should. I've also been snacking way too much. SO this is my way of be accountable. I need prayers. I need to give this to God and rely on HIS strength to break these habits. I'm a food addict and like any addict I need to acknowledge that and seek help.....
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Presque Isle, ME
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26.6
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Surgery
05/09/2008
Surgery Date
Nov 07, 2007
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