macismom
Almost 10 years
Jan 15, 2018
Monday, January 15, 2018
I sit here at home in my pajamas at 10:15 after working the weekend and I am rather discouraged. I have gained a bunch of weight over the holidays and once again starting a new diet. I hate this so much, but I have no choice. It's a cycle I've been on my whole life and having surgery has only helped keep it from going completely out of control.
I lost my Mom last year and it has wrecked me. During her brief and horrible illness I lost a bunch of weight. At the lowest I weighed 146. Not a great way to lose it.
I since have taken a "YOLO" approach to life and have eaten and DRANK way too much. I weigh 180lbs. W.T.F! OK cue the pity party. I'm in a rut.
So today, I pick my fat ads up and start over again.
May 9th, will be my 10 year surgiversary. I'd like to weigh 140 on that day. I'd like to prove to myself that I can regain control. I'd like to feel confident and sexy.
Here.we.go
