2 months out...

Nov 30, 2009

I think I'm at a bad place in my life right now.  I have gone through alot since my surgery.  I was very sick and in and out of the hospital.  Its been a long road to feeling better, but I feel like I'll never be back to myself.  I haven't lost much weight since surgery.  Only like 70lbs total and that's including the 30lbs I lost before.  I know I had to focus on feeling better before I could start losing weight.  Its been like 2 weeks that I haven't lost a pound.  I'm not sure if that's normal or not.  I have a really tough time with getting in the protein. I try not to tell people when I'm not feeling well. Because the answer always is to put on a heating pad. or that its just pains that go along with the surgery. 

 The doctors don't really prepare you for how lonely this process really is.  I feel like no one understands including my surgeons.   During all this you  find out who are your real friends and who aren't.    Its hard not to be sad most of the time.  Don't get me wrong I'm very grateful for losing the weight that I have so far.   I just need support and its not there.  I know that each persons experience and process is different and that no two patients are alike. I'm physically and emotionally drained.  I don't want to end up regretting this decision.  Ultimately I just want to be healthy and happy. 

2 Comments