Where has the time gone
Jan 05, 2009I never thought that I would have gotten so far away from writing on this site. I guess when our forum started thinning out I just gave up on coming here and I was also pretty disgusted with my eating habits. My life has pretty much been in a shambles the last 2 years and I am trying to get myself back on track. Soda is the only thing that I drink again and nothing else. I was making sure I at least had some milk, but I even gave up on that. On January 2 I gave up soda, and I think I would be doing OK if it weren't for the headaches. I have had a few sips of soda here and there, but nothing like I was drinking. I do have to force the water down, but I know I am still not getting enough of that. I was going to try the 5 day pouch test, but I figured I should wait until I get over the soda hangover.
At this point I have gained about 30 pounds since 12/07. I am 5'10 and got down to about 134 which was a little too thin for me. I was very happy at 145. But I got there and just kept going. I am miserable. I know at 165 I am by no means huge, but I feel like I have majorly let myself down. My husband got mad at me the other day because someone told me how thin I am and I tried to explain to him how mad it makes me when people say that, because I am by no means skinny either.
I am trying to get on the elliptical 2x a day again and with no soda I am hoping it will make a little difference. However, I got on the scales today and have gained 2 more pounds. Hopefully I am going to get my butt in gear, because I am so scared that I am going to be fat again!!!!
Aug 22, 2005
Before & After
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Day of Surgery-9/13/05