3 months... ponderificating

Oct 24, 2014

I have no idea what I weigh right now. Haven't gotten on the scale in over a week.  Something over 40 lbs down. 

Sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I wonder who the person is looking back at me.  Is that really me? Wow. Imagine what I'm going to look like when I lose another 60!

Other times, I look at myself and wonder if the surgery is even working at all.   I hate the words "Stinkin thinkin" so I say "Fat Head".  For 52 years I've conditioned myself to be fat. I don't know what it feels like to be thin. I've been there a time or two, for short periods of time, but not long enough to OWN it. Make it mine. Wallow in it and be happy.

I am having a couple of issues I need to see the doctor about. Seems like I'm having an awful lot of heartburn lately. Also, this lump on my left abdomen is just weird. Worst at night when I'm laying in bed. I can really feel it. Bigger than my hand. I fear adhesions.  Dr is getting approval from my insurance to do a CT Scan to check it out.

The support group leader had a great idea last night.  She suggested I take a face photo every week. Print them out on regular paper, and make a book out of them. Where I might not see the physical loss each week, flipping through the book (like old style comic books) will show the weightloss as its happening.  I'm definitely going to give that a go.

If I could figure out how to post a few photos on this site I would.  Everything I try to upload is kicked back for being the wrong size and I don't have a photo editor here.  Ah well.

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10 weeks out...

Oct 10, 2014

10 weeks out and really need to talk to someone.  I haven't gotten on the scale in over a week.  Is it weird that I feel like I may have gained?  I feel like I'm eating too much.  Just this week determined that I'm now lactose intolerant.  I experimented for two days and ate no dairy.  Then ate some organic yogurt and BOOM(not literally thank dog) almost instant bloating.  This makes me terribly sad. I feel like my options are so limited now that losing dairy, and it's accompanying protein, is just too much.  

I see the nurse next Thursday for my first check up since the surgery.  So many questions to ask.  I really need to write them all down.

What is 'normal' weight loss for (by then) 11 weeks out?

When, if ever, can I have coffee again?

Is it normal that I can eat a cup of some foods at this time? Most of the time it's less, but some foods a cup is no problem.

Is a plateau possible this early on?

Will a massive protein load help me start losing again?

Should I get on the scale more often?  ( I haven't because I fear not seeing the numbers go down)

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