3 months... ponderificating

Oct 24, 2014

I have no idea what I weigh right now. Haven't gotten on the scale in over a week.  Something over 40 lbs down. 

Sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I wonder who the person is looking back at me.  Is that really me? Wow. Imagine what I'm going to look like when I lose another 60!

Other times, I look at myself and wonder if the surgery is even working at all.   I hate the words "Stinkin thinkin" so I say "Fat Head".  For 52 years I've conditioned myself to be fat. I don't know what it feels like to be thin. I've been there a time or two, for short periods of time, but not long enough to OWN it. Make it mine. Wallow in it and be happy.

I am having a couple of issues I need to see the doctor about. Seems like I'm having an awful lot of heartburn lately. Also, this lump on my left abdomen is just weird. Worst at night when I'm laying in bed. I can really feel it. Bigger than my hand. I fear adhesions.  Dr is getting approval from my insurance to do a CT Scan to check it out.

The support group leader had a great idea last night.  She suggested I take a face photo every week. Print them out on regular paper, and make a book out of them. Where I might not see the physical loss each week, flipping through the book (like old style comic books) will show the weightloss as its happening.  I'm definitely going to give that a go.

If I could figure out how to post a few photos on this site I would.  Everything I try to upload is kicked back for being the wrong size and I don't have a photo editor here.  Ah well.

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