Magnolia
Today is Friday, December, 30th, 2005:
Hello, I suppose this is where I tell you that I am happily married with 7 children etc, etc. Truth is.......... I'm not. I am a late 20's single girl who has always held onto the secret wishes of getting the "wake upcall," or the "straight-up fed-up-of-being-overweight syndrome," or that special something that just "clicked" in my head, or EVEN BETTER one day I'D be the one FINALLY.. MY TURN to be on the $1.99 weightloss magazine in the supermarket checkout lane sticking my new size 6 body into my old size 28 stretch pants fairytale.. I'D show THEM!!! Well........ it just never happened to me. I didn't want to be gung ho exercising my brains out on a Friday night while all of my single friends went on dates with hot guys and I was making love to a whole bag of Reeses' Peanut Butter cups. Somehow I twisted my justification because I was never teased except once in highschool about my large weight. I had and (and still do-) have a GREAT personality. My silliness and ability to make people laugh and entertain took the consious thoughts about me being overweight lightly. Friends always said... But, really.. you carry it so well and you have such a beautiful face, beautiful dark features, and your hair.. etc. etc. SO.. that's enough for me in my early years to be satisfied with my looks. But here I am NOW. Not married, only have been on a few "real" dates, no boyfriend, my Mom asked me if I was lesbian like 8 years ago (I'm not), and I had too much pride to tell ANYONE that the real reason I don't pursue or hadn't pursued any guys in the last 10 years is because of my weight. Simple. Can I get a holla from my girls? For real. That's it. I have a wide circle of friends, I can be an overachiever when I want, I can hold a job, I can socialize and relate to any age level. I can laugh with or at those who are laughing and cry with those who are crying. I am a compassionate gal! Hence our American society's expectations for me to live up to Paris Hilton, getting this surgery is now a matter of health issues for me, and along the way a seed got planted inside that makes me want to look the best God wants me to represent him which led me to a BURNING desire to LOOK and feel GREAT. Had it not been for so many lovely and bright OH members to go before me and set good health examples, share intimate pictures and stories, I would not be here today! Thank you all! Here is where I am right now. I have consulted with my surgeon twice and now I need to compile my 12 month history and submit my psychological evaluation which will be complete January 10th, 2006. God brought my dearest lifelong friend Lori back into my life after a year of slipping out of touch (life happens when you're not looking and eating candy bars ya know?) - and SHE had the lap gastric bypass in July of 2005 has lost 105 pounds so far and LOOKS FABULOUS! I thought she was pretty before but WOAH, what a lucky man Shawn, her boyfriend is to have her. He's been there for her through thick and now...thin. Pun intended. She's always been beautiful on the inside and NOW even more beautiful on the outside!
