malarkey
Update on the pre-journey
Jul 08, 2014
I met with my surgeon, nutritionist and psychologist on Thursday, June 26th. I had several vials of labs drawn, I had an EKG and a chest X ray. My BMI was 41. I weighed in at 267.8 pounds. BP was 119/80. Pulse was 70. Pulse Ox - 97.
Yesterday I had my EGD and Versed and Fentanyl really make for an enjoyable endoscopy!
I've been on a 1500 calorie a day diet. Having to force myself to eat small meals or snacks every few hours. Keeping up with my diet on MyFitnessPal.
Nutritionist wants me walking 3 days a week for at least an hour, this gives me some good time with my dog in our quiet southern neighborhood.
This morning I woke at 6 am to get my walk in because the humidity here is unbearable and even at 6 am the humidity was bad but the sun had no involvement in heating me up.
Son has been really distant from me for the last year. Last night I asked him via Google Chat, "What do I need to do for you to love me." Knowing full and well I can't make him love me, but I wanted to know what was up with him (or me in his eyes).
Here is what he wrote:
"Well i do love you its just... no offence but sometimes when I'm at school people look at you strangly they think your kinda overweight and embarrasing for me no offence" First time I've been told this by my own child. Needless to say it motivated me to get my butt out of bed this morning before I got to work so I could get my walk in. Had to attend my uncle's funeral. People kept telling me I was pretty which to my negative psyche and low self-esteem says: You're fat and I can't find a nice thing to say about you, "You're pretty." Mental Tuesday. What can I say.
