Malibufox
Two Days Until I Start My New Life!
Oct 10, 2009
Well...so it begins:) The nerves are really getting to me! I thought I would be alright...I'm totally freaking out. I have waves of calm followed by complete hysteria. Of course, I'm not showing it to anyone! I have been squeezing my daughter lifeless...she's like, "MOMMY!!! LET ME GO!" I can't help it. I keep thinking the worst. What if this is the only time I have left with her? What's going to happen to her if I do leave? Craziness. I know that I'm in top shape for this surgery. Virgin DS, no serious co-morbidities, I'm young, I don't smoke, rarely drink. I guess it's the fear of the unknown. The fear of the change. The fear of losing life. But you know what? I know that this is going to GIVE me life!!! I have been overweight most of my life and know how it limits me. Granted, I'm not extremely obese...but there are limitations just the same. I can't wait to come through this surgery and live WITH my daughter. Take her to the cave tours, go to amusement parks, go swimming because I'm comfortable enough to wear a bathing suit. I am doing this so that we will both have a life that is fulfilling. So, as I sit here and snuggle with my baby girl, I have faith in my heart that God will protect me and keep his Angels encamped around about me. I am ready...ready for the Big Show Baby!!!SEE YOU ON THE DARKSIDE!!!
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About Me
Bowling Green, KY
Location
Surgery
10/13/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 01, 2008
Member Since
Before & After
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Me and my little princess
243 lbslbs
120 lbslbs
