Melissa N.

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I had my sugery.  What has happened in those six months?

1.  I am no long on diabetic medication.  I am considered controled.
2. I have lost 119lbs since surgery and 159lbs since July 07 when I started my 6 month pre-op diet.
3.  I have gone from busting out of a 32 jeans to buy a size 20 jeans today!!  My goal is size 14 or 16.
4.  I am 6 lbs over the weight I was when I got married.
5. I rode a rollecoaster.
6. I can wear my seatbelt comfortablly.
7. My stomach doesn't touch the wheel anymore.
8. I can sit comfortably at the movies.
9. I can kneel down and my knees don't kill me.
10. I can buy a bra off the self now!!
11. I can buy clothes of the rack!!
12. I like taking pictures now!!
13. My kids are healther and love to be healthy!!
14. I can do work around the house without being tired.
15. i went down a size in shoes.
16. I am not afraid to brake any chair I sit in.
17. i can do housework and not get tired.
18. i can keep up with the kids.
19. I feel beautiful!!
20. The fun I have discovered with husband....

Boy, has this been a journey so far. Being the weight I was before surgery, before my journey, knowing in my life I have conquered so much and have some far. Growing up, I was going to be the problem child. No one thought I would accomplish anything is life. Expectations for me, there were none. I didn't think so either. At age 18 before I meet my husband, I didn't see my future, it was dark. Was it him who changed me? No, it was me. At age 21 I went through a very traumatic event in my life that caused me to look at myself. I have spoken about this before. That was my turning point. It took a couple of years, additional kid later, facing death in its face that things started rolling into motion. By age 26, and 3 years of hard work, I graduated with my BBA. First person in the family with a college education. In that two years I have worked hard in my career and almost doubled my salary in that time period. I am half way through my MBA with a 3.83 GPA. I have overcame so much and pushed through to take control of my life while battling ADD every day and bouts of depression. I will not be held down.

I never wanted this surgery, I wanted to accomplish this by myself. Finally in one of my therapy session, I cam to the realization I needed help. Just assistance, and this is what it is, assistance. I still have to work my butt off. I will concur my weight and my health and this tool will only help me. That is how I started seeing RNY.

So now that I am 6 weeks out. What have I seen. No diabetic meds. Down a shoe size. clothes fitting me better. Clothes that didn't fit before now are. I actually LOVE the GYM when I used to loathe it. I feel wonderful going. I was looking in the mirror at my kangaroo pouch and was wishing it was going away faster. Alas, it is not. But then turned to the side in the mirror, My back is almost flat!!! As I come to those stalls or down periods, I reflect back to how far I have come in this past 6 week. I look at my list at motivation and remind myself, why I did this and where I want to be.

I think though, the biggest change and the one that brings tears in my eyes is seeing how this effects my family. My Sweet Justice, I worried about her weight and compulsive eating. I have work hard with her to help teach her healthy eating. I was not the best role model. Now my daughter comes to me with food still on her plate, like she did last night. Mom this is so good, but I am full now and I do not want to eat until my stomach hurts. (used to be an everyday occurrence) Of course my Princess Amirah has always been aboard and I have little problems with her, but still educate. My hard headed Saji, still needs work, he like carrots though!! YEAH!!! But my husband. The man who I feared him reaching the age of 30 because of his high BP and Cholesterol would leave me in death has changed. He is eating veggies and fish!!! I have noticed he is getting the smaller plates and eating smaller portions. Yesterday he ate off of Saji Truck plate!!

I still have challenges, such as fighting my snacking desires. But I know it will be a triumphant accomplishment one day. And each I try harder and harder.

I LOVE me. I love me from the inside out. I embrace who I am, both emotionally and physically.

I have a date!!  June 17th.  I even think this was my middle child's due date.  I am so excited! 

All they need is a letter for nutional consult.  I was dx diabetic back in Feb. so I have actually seen a nutritionist twice already in 4 appointment program.  Whew.  So once I can get them to write me a letter, whcih the Dietician said she would if I needed one, then they can send it off.  Hopefully I can get this done by tomorrow.

I called the Doctors about my submitted request,  The insurance company has received it.  But they need additional clinicals.  What ever that could mean??  They don't know yet and told me they would call me tomorrow with the information.  I hate this.  But none the less need to stay positive.

OK, so BCBSIL has still not received my paper work into the system yet. It was submitted back on March 4th.  This is so frustrating.  I talked with my Dr office and they want to wait a couple more days before resubmitting.  I am going to call them on Monday and tell them to resubmit.  By that time it would have been two week almost.  Hopefully they will listen to me and resubmit with the new fax number and all information on it.