Trauma Queen
1/29/07
Jan 29, 2007
I am below 200 in wonderland at 197!!!!!
This is a HUGE milestone for me, as I have not seen the 100's since I got pregnant with my twins 23 years ago!! I have always fought my weight, but was never really "overweight" per say, just had two very obsessed parents that were VERY athletic and into the latest diet craze and working out. No one in my family is heavy, so I was sort of the black sheep.
I love my new life, it is amazing and so full of promise..I want very much to succeed at plastic surgery and heal well.
Hello ONEDERLAND!!!
May I NEVER see the 200's as long as I may live.
1/18/06
Jan 18, 2007
12/18/06
Dec 18, 2006
Today is a bittersweet day. It is my fathers 71st birthday, and the 2 year anniversery of his death. It is also the 17 month postop mark for me. I wish he could have been here to see my weight loss, I think he would be proud. His dying wish was for me to have this surgery, I think he knew I would not live if I didn't have WLS.
I am holding at 210 pounds for a weight loss of -215 pounds. I actually have lost more than i weigh. I find this truly amazing. I have been stalled at 210 for a few weeks but I am also on my period and I usually play back and forth with 3 or so pounds until its over.
Met someone new..it's a farily new thing right now, not sure where it will go, so far it is pretty intense.
Next month, I will meet with Dr. Brient for the last time, he only follows us for 18 months, then we see our primary after that from then on. I will miss my angel who saved my life. I hope and pray the cancer on his face does not spread.
11/18/06
Nov 30, 2006
I am now 16 months post op :)
My weight loss is amazing and I am constantly amazed at how I've changed so dramatically.
The skin is so very bad. There is nothing I can do at all for it until I am down to 200 or less. I am at 217 now.
Life is moving fast and I do find myself depressed very bad around my period.
My living arrangment is a bit better. It is not as bad as I anticapated here where I live. I keep to myself and don't bother anyone.
I miss my boyfriend tho :( I have seen him a couple of times since I've moved here.
I am meeting new people and practicing my new found life.
10/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
My 15 month postop anniversery is bittersweet. I have lost 200 pounds now making my weight 225 pounds. When I have lost 25 more pounds, I will have lost more than I weigh. It is amazing.
I moved into a 1 bedroom apt. My son is staying with me for now until he joins the navy. I'm not sure when that will happen. Had a tense couple of weeks homeless. Stayed with my other son one week, the other week I lived out of a hotel. It was hard.
I do not like where I live. I feel I've made a huge mistake..but It's what it is..this is where I chose to come and live. I miss my boyfriend alot. I talk to him but its not the same.
I came down here to go to school and be near my grandaughter Alaina. So far I havent made alot of progress on school.
I'm down so to speak. I am thrilled with the weight loss its all I've expected and more. Its funny the more you weigh, the smaller your outside world is..the less you weigh the bigger the world gets. I feel so much more free. I no longer care if people stare, and they don't stare at me anymore. If they do look im sure its for a whole different reason than being 425 pounds. I am beginning to feel normal..whatever normal is. I am finding other ways to deal with things. On occation I will eat somthing I know I will dump on. I do it anyway knowing I will be sick, and I am. I regret it. I still eat compulsivly on occation. I get ill and it makes me remember I have a tool and it only works if I work it.
Weight loss is alot harder now..I beg you new post ops do not put off excersising it is a must! I have not been dilligent in excersising and I believe had I been better, I would have lost more by now. Or had less of a excess skin issue. I dont know but the skin is unbelievable. There is NO way around plastics.
I won't be eligable for plastics until january. I hope to be 25 pounds less by then.
9/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
I am 14 months postop today. My weight is 238 and my BMI is 40.9 I am right on the cusp of breaking the Morbid obese BMI and this alone is cause for celebration. Today I went into a store and tried on a 1x and it fit. I could wear some 20 skirts and one skirt that was a 22 fit. I most probably would have gotten into a 18-20 had it not been for the excess skin.
I am upset today because my move to jacksonville is not going well. In a nutshell, I may be homeless for a few weeks and staying with my son. I hate to do this as I have a cat and so does he and both cats will fight. I hate living like this, I am sooooooo close to getting back to school to be a paramedic and I have so many hoops to go through. I am no longer satisfied sitting around on my butt all day, I simply Cannot do it any longer. Im worried that I won't have a place to live for a few weeks. I'm worried that I have to stay with my son, I love him, I love my 4 month old grandbaby, but I don't want to LIVE with them. :(
The only thing I can count on, is my weight loss and my cat.
I lost 11 pounds from last month to this month. I was hoping it would be more.
8/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
I am 13 months post op today :)
My weight is 249 pounds, I have 99 pounds more to go until I get to goal of 150. I know I can do it.
I am moving to Jacksonville probably about the middle to end of september so that I can start school there to work towards being a paramedic. I am excited and also I want to spend more time with my grandaughter Alaina :) She is precious to me and I wish I could see her ever day.
I wish very much to find a man that can love me for who I am an not because of what I "do". I want to focus on my studies right now, and not get caught up in romance. LOL this time last year, romance was the LAST thing on my mind.
I have a really bad amount of skin and I look bigger than I am because of it. I need to determine what I want to do first in the plastics dept. I really want my boobs done..but I may just wait.
I need so much, I really really need a belt lipectomy. The skin on my pubic mound is so bad I have to lift it to pee.
I have 5 more months to go before I can be considered for plastics.
I cant wait.
7/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
I am officially now, one year out from surgery :D It has been a wild year.
My grandaughter Alaina was born, Ive lost 164 pounds making my weight 261 pounds :D
I have 111 more pounds to go to get to my goal weight of 150.
Life is good now. I no longer wish to die and I am excited about my life and the changes that I have to make.
I am going to be moving to Jacksonville florida to be closer to Alaina and also to FCCJ where I will got to school to become a paramedic.
I am very excited about life changes..I just pray that my loved ones stay safe and the life changes are nothing but positive.
I wake up each morning with a great attitude and with hope..I consider that a miracle in itself :)
6/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
Well here I am...11 months postop :)
I canot believe it has almost been a whole year since surgery.
Life is going full speed ahead. I am having major issues with my left knee, the ortho says I have a ACL tear and also a miniscus tear or somthing. It will require surgery. I tried to get him to consent to doing the surgery while im having my breast reduction, but he said thats way to much at once.
Heck, people do total body lifts all at one time.
I am at 274 according to the orthopedic doc's scale. He wants me to loose MORE weight for surgery. :/ I swear to the good Lord above, it seems no matter how much I loose, I am still way to FAT!!!!!!!!!
I am frustrated today.
Fathers day, my father isnt here and I miss him so much :(
I have a very blessed life, I must remember that I have two great kids, a beautiful healthy grandbaby and I am healthy and did great postop.
I have a ungodly amount of skin. The more I loose, the less I like the way I look :(
When will I be happy? When will I understand how far I've come?
My bf is still in my life..we've been together 2 months now.
I still don't forsee it going beyond what it is, but hes a nice distraction (wink wink)
I wish I could have this blasted residual skin/fat taken off NOW. I swear I look at the knives in my kitchen and a small flash of a idea goes in my head..lol j/k folks dont get upset.
I am working on trying hard to be greatful of each pound I loose.
I pray to God that I will continue to be blessed and to be more greatful.
Next month I hope to be at 265. Thats 9 pounds. I can do it :D
5/18/06
Nov 04, 2006
I am 10 months postop today and I weigh in at 285. I cannot believe how much I have lost, this truly is amazing.
I have a beautiful granddaughter who is the light of my life, she is precious beyond words. I just cannot describe the feeling all of this has impacted on me. For any preops reading this, just know this journey starts out being 100% physical but ends up being 90%mental. Its a wild ride and I love it baby!
I have a boyfriend now. He is a simple man who enjoys staying home as he has a young son and is a single father. I care deeply for him but I am not "in love" with him. I don't forsee this going any where beyond sex lol. I am just practicing with him :P and that is ok.
I cannot believe in two months I will be one year postop. I wanted to be down to around -200 pounds by then as I started out so heavy. I of course do NOT forsee that happening.
I am -140 pounds and the best I can hope for is -160 by my 1 year anniversery.
It has been a very easy 10 months, and I thank God for that. I had a very good outcome with RNY and I would do it over again in a heartbeat.
I am greatful for every single pound lost, and I hope someday to get to goal of 140. But if I dont, I will be happy with what my body decides it should be.
