Marcia B.
4.5 Months Out..
Nov 18, 2011
I can honestly look back to my first 2 weeks post-op and say those were the absolute worst of this journey so far. Not even the hair loss that has started compares with the shocking realization that I had no control over my food and my food had total control over me, needless to say this made the first 2 weeks of my post-op pretty depressing and sad. I did however move beyond those feelings and I can say that food doesn't control me any longer.
I feel SO MUCH better than I have in 20+ yrs of fighting my weight and would I be happy to stay at my current weight right now for my size... No but you know what my BP is normal, and I have no sleep apnea and I can run up and down stairs without dying, and I can still eat in moderation. I do like finding decent food to eat in my portions out in a restaurant it is like a scavenger hunt now lol. But I can also enjoy some sweets and carbs but I do make better choices and when I fail by eating junk - I don't beat myself up because I am in control now - I just log it and be accountable for eating it and then make better choices from that moment forward.
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I feel SO MUCH better than I have in 20+ yrs of fighting my weight and would I be happy to stay at my current weight right now for my size... No but you know what my BP is normal, and I have no sleep apnea and I can run up and down stairs without dying, and I can still eat in moderation. I do like finding decent food to eat in my portions out in a restaurant it is like a scavenger hunt now lol. But I can also enjoy some sweets and carbs but I do make better choices and when I fail by eating junk - I don't beat myself up because I am in control now - I just log it and be accountable for eating it and then make better choices from that moment forward.
4 weeks...Yay made it a month.
Aug 12, 2011
I am happier now than I was in the first couple weeks. I'm not losing super fast but I am happy that I am now 40 lbs lighter than I was a year ago. I am also happy that food is not controlling my eating, I am. And for me that is the best feeling.
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8 Days Post-Op...
Jul 21, 2011
Boy oh boy have I felt like I'm on a roller coaster. I do ok during the day but when it's night and I have time for my body to think of EVERYTHING bad or missing junk food it just tears me up. Today I feel better and I get to start pureed food :) Yay something other than SOUP!!! lol I believe I am now lactose intolerant and I am hoping lactaid works it's magic. I also believe I have a little acid reflux... I feel a lump in my throat occasionally, but hoping prevacid is the remedy. Other than that I am either eating just enough or not enough depending lol I don't really know what a full feeling is, and I don't know if I have hunger pains... but I do know that I haven't gotten sick so that is just fine with me.
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Today is the 12th - tomorrow is the day!
Jul 11, 2011
I'm scared. I trust in my surgeon and I trust my support group telling me that this is a good idea and will help me so much. And I trust my therapist in her saying the same thing as everyone else, but I'm really scared. I messed up a couple times on my pre-op liquid diet and now it is like I feel that maybe I sabotaged myself out of fear. It's a reoccurring theme of my life. I did see my therapist and she helped me feel like I didn't sabotage myself and that I will be fine and not to let the fear take over in doing what I know is right. But can anyone ever really make someone feel better when the fear you have is the fear of the unknown.. the fear of what if? I have never had this surgery so you go by what the people who have gone before you their information. It all is so reassuring and I just need to pay attention to that and make my mind/feelings stop controlling my choices. I did find out something interesting through this process, the liquid diet brought out the controlling and addict side and my therapist says I am a food addict. I thought there was a possibility but as humans we can rationalize everything. But when I didn't have that food for comfort I can honestly say I about lost it. I am thankful to God that I have the therapist and husband I do and that I was given this websites address by my nutritionist because I don't think I would have made it this far without them all. Now I need to just make it through it and out the other side.
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8 Days to new lease on life...
Jul 05, 2011
Eight Days till my surgery.. tomorrow is pre-op day and then Friday is first day of my liquid diet. In my mind so far the liquid diet is what makes me really nervous I read NO food and think how am I going to make it through those 5 days. But I HAVE to. I also cannot wrap my mind around after surgery and when I am healed how much my eating will change. Especially since I have been with this stomach for a long time now hahahaa and always being hungry I thought there was something wrong with me. So all I can think of is how things are going to change, and I can't wait... nervous, and happy all at the same time.
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Surgery
07/13/2011
Surgery Date
Jun 04, 2011
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