marianne9915
getting back on track
Dec 26, 2006
my journey
Dec 26, 2006
Hi my name is marianne, I am happily married for one and a half years I am 41 years old I am 5 foot 10 inches and I weigh 289. I have 2 children from a previous marriage my daughter is 25 and my son is 22 years old. I have been thinking about having wls for awhile now, and I have just decided to really check into it. I went to the first seminar in rochester ny, I learned alot there. My husband is not too happy that I am thinking about this, He loves me very much, just doesn't understand the way it is for me. I have been overweight most of my life. I got married at an early age, had kids early in life. I just want to be healthy again.
September 1 2006
Well I have been to the nutrition seminar and learned that I would have to go to 2 nutritional meetings and 1 phyc evail. Well I have been to the phyc evail at Dr O'Malleys office and we just talked about what the surgery ment for me and what I expected out of this. It lasted about 1/2 hour. I went to one of the nut appts so far and that is going good, lost 3 pounds, I know that is not much but it is gone.
October 20 2006
Well I have been doing pretty good on my weight I have lost a total of 15 pounds. Yeh. My nutritionist will be happy and I need to loose weight so I can have surgery, well that is what the dr requires. My husband and I are going on a cruise for 11days to the carribean I can't wait. I have to go see the nut again on Nov 10th the day after we get back. so I hope at that time everything will be done and I can schedule an appt with the surgon.
November 25, 2006
Well I went on my cruise and had a wonderful time, I have been doing so good on my eating that I lost 4 pounds on the cruise. I went to my last nutrition appt the day after I got back from the cruise, and well I have lost a total of 32 pounds. YEA!! well that leads me to some bad news. I only had 110 pounds to lose. (only) well now I don't qualify for the surgery. I was heart broken. I wanted to be a loser like everyone else.. Well I lost 32 pounds so I guess I am a loser. I have learned alot from everyone on OH and I am trying to add these lessons to my new outlook on life. It is hard but I am trying to eat like I had the surgery, I know that sounds dumb, but is working and once you let go of the sugar and carbs it is really not that hard to resist. (I don't know where that came from) I have come to terms that I am not going to try and gain the weight back to have surgery, so I am just trying to eat to live and not the other way around.I am hoping with the support of all my family and friends that I can get through this. PS my husband knew that I was upset and he said that he didn't want me to have surgery because he was afraid that something would go wrong. He says that he would love me at 1000 pounds, but he would be there to support me and now tells me everyday what a good job I am doing and that he is so impressed. well I guess we are all happy now.
DECEMBER 26,2006
well everything is going good I have lost 41 pounds, I had a great christmas, my family is well. What more could I ask for. My goal weight loss is 180 so I have 69 more pounds to loose. I have been trying really hard to stay away from sweets and high carbs. Sometimes it is hard and I say why am I working so hard, but then the next day when I weigh myself and I have lost or am the same I see why. I don't want the old habbits to come in to play, you know the ones when you don't see the scale move down you give it up. well I am in controll now. (that sounded good anyways ha ha) I am not exercising so my next goal is to exercise, but you know it is so hard to start.
FEBRUARY 3,2007
I haven't updated in awhile so I will let you know what is going on. I have lost 50 pounds to date and feeling pretty good. I don't really notice the loss, but others do. Somedays it is very hard to continue to eat healthy, but I am continuing that is the good thing. I have met some wonderful people here on oh and I know that is one part of why I am doing well the other is I have god in my life. My husband is out of work because of a back injury, but he is doing farely well. Not too much pain. My children are doing well. I have a great life right now.
March 13 ,2007
ok well I have been eating all the wrong stuff, It was so easy to fall off course I haven't gained any weight but I have not lost any either. Today is Monday march 13th and I am going to get back on track. I ate one piece of cake about a month ago and it sent me on a spiral course of eating all the junk I could find. Well that is it. I have done so well and I want to make it to my goal of 180lbs I am at 240 right now. Wow I can't believe that all this time it has been ME that is the person that sabatiages me. I can do this and I have been doing this and all of a sudden I can't stand the fact that I am losing weight, I am happy and feeling good about myself so lets through a wrench in the mix. Well it didn't work I am better than that. I am back on track and feeling good about myself. I have to thank all of my OH friends for helping me find myself and to know that I am worth it.
June 21,2007
Today is the first day of spring, woo hoo I have not been sticking to a healthy diet and today I am going to try again. I have a niece that is 13 and weighs 290 pounds wow, I told her that if I could lose weight then she could so we are going to try to help each other out. I really feel so bad that she had to even spend one day of her life in that body, don't get me wrong she is a wonderful girl everyone knows that that is not how we want to spend our years here on earth not to mention as a teenager. Well I am hoping to show her that eating right and exercising can change who you are for a lifetime may help her self esteem and with that I can get back on track and lose this 60 more pounds that I would like to get rid of
