Life is very active now. I have my beautiful 9 1/2 month son, Nathan to take care of. This surgery has helped me with my ablility to get pregnant. Dr's said I never would be able to have children. I am still maintaining my weight at around 155lbs-160lbs. I am happier with my outer apperance and state of health all around. Here are some recent pictures.

At my brother's Wedding 7-11-09









Taken from my phone in August




Hanging out with Marty (George) in the Liverpool Legends show. I went to Branson, MO to visit my brothers in September, 2009.



Being goofy with my brothers and Lana, my brother's wife.





Taken in Late September. Hanging out with my bro Daniel



Me and my son - October 2009



Tori and I at a show in Branson.





Hanging with McKenna Medley and Bill Medley after seeing their show.



Nathan's first haircut October 9, 2009



Penguins ROCK!


Me and my son.

Taken at 30 weeks:

Well, I am now 30 weeks preggo and hardly eating at all. I'm lucky if I get in two meals a day, and usually I gotta try to eat each one of 'em about 3-4 seperate times........ it's becoming a real pain in the @$$

So I'm going back to Dr. K. to see if this is normal. Plus I'm going back because my ob/gyn hasn't a clue what to do with me. They've given me a GTT twice, which has made me dump - heart palpatations, sweaty, clammy, feeling sick, clogged hearing. I gotta find out what's right for me before they kill me. LOL.

I'm a waddling penguin but the weight is all in the belly.





Til the next update,

 

~M
 

I went to the picnic, but almost didn't go due to my current situation. I was not ready to let everyone know I was pregnant and felt pretty bad. I had my friends Dana and Mike meet me there. There was a lot of great food and I had fun catching up with old friends. The only thing lacking was our doctor did not show. I wondered why since he had been to all of the others. It just didn't seem right. Maybe he is trying not to get too personal with patients anymore. Anyway, I didn't feel the love. In fact, alot of people were talking about it. Anne was missing too and I wanted to say hello.

My Godson, Damian. I bought him that bib.... dad is proud. LOL!



This is Mark. Mr. "Hot Dog"

Current mood: stressed

I went to the Dr for a CPE and addressed the 9 lb. weight gain I had at my recent post-op appt with Dr Korman. He pressed on my tummy and told me he was concerned. He felt a mass. He ordered an abdominal ultrasound and a pelvic, since I had always suffered with cystic ovaries and had periods rarely. I have gone years without them since I was 12. They disappeared when I was about 19-20, with exception of one or two in a blue moon, and a couple of bouts with excessive bleeding - which had to be stopped by D&C. I had been told by several doctors I would never have kids. I had tried while I was married for two years. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome with Insulin Resistance (that I had to take metformin and birth control for). PCOS is how I became obese. I also have had hypothyroidism since I was 18 years old. To read more on it, I have posted info at the bottom of the page.  

I went to have the abdominal u/s done. The techs acted weird and pressed alot of buttons. They were measuring. Not good. The screen was turned away from me. Then, after it was over they asked if I wanted to do my pelvic the same day and cancel the later appt. I had. I agreed and went to drink my 32 oz of water and waited for an hour. This one went longer. I assumed they were measuring my cysts. I had seen my ovaries before on ultrasound. They had previously contained so many cysts that they looked like grapes.

They could not tell me anything. They can get sued, so they turned the screen so I could look for myself... something they weren't really "supposed" to do. But I could figure it out on my own. I almost died.

I'm pregnant. Not early, not three months. Try five. The report for 7/30 said 18 weeks 2 days, approx. due date December 29th. I had my quickening later that evening - the tech messed with my tummy that day so that may be why. Lol, could you imagine having the quickening BEFORE getting the ultrasounds?! That would have scared me to death. They won't do another ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby because I just had one done, which made me upset. At the moment there is no "medical need".

I had no symptoms, no morning sickness, no additional weight gain really... I worked it off going to the gym 4x's a week. I weigh the same or less as I did in March because I lost a few pounds and have cracked down on the diet I was supposed to be following. No junk. I knew my tummy was getting bigger, but I thought I had a hernia or gaining weight in my stomach again. I had dizziness when I stood up too quickly. I thought it was lack of discipline and consistency in taking my vitamin supplements. I guess the weight gain is justified now.

I won't lie, I did consider my options before I knew how far I was along. Anyone would.

...But I'm keeping my baby. I have prayed for someone to come into my life to love me unconditionally and to love unconditionally. And it isn't through a man, or a husband, or a relationship.

I was dumb in being inconsistent with the patch throughout the time I got pregnant, finished a whole pack of birth control in June to bring on a period like I was told to do, and even took a pregnancy test in March-April that came back negative.

 

Most people are unaware of the complications of PCOS, unfortunately, even the doctors. I am considered a "high risk pregnancy", simply because no one has a clue on what to give me in the way of vitamins due to the malabsorption the gastric bypass causes, and because of past maternal history of gestational diabetes (I was given a 1 hr. GTT), but NOT because of PCOS. The doctor "claimed" it went away when I lost the weight. That is NOT TRUE. There is NO CURE for PCOS. If that was true I would have had 2 1/2 years of normal periods instead of 4 months of normal periods. And PCOS is a main reason for "high risk" about 45% of pregnant women have miscarriages with PCOS.

 

 

PCOS

How common is PCOS?

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome affects an estimated 5-10 percent of women of childbearing age and it is a leading cause of infertility. It is the most common endocrinopathy among reproductive age women. As many as 30 percent of women have some characteristics of the syndrome.

What are the symptoms of PCOS?

Women with PCOS may have some of the following symptoms:

• Amenorrhea (no menstrual period), infrequent menses, and/or oligomenorrhea (irregular bleeding) — Cycles are often greater than six weeks in length, with eight or fewer periods in a year. Irregular bleeding may include lengthy bleeding episodes, scant or heavy periods, or frequent spotting.
  
• Oligo or anovulation (infrequent or absent ovulation) — While women with PCOS produce follicles — which are fluid-filled sacs on the ovary that contain an egg — the follicles often do not mature and release as needed for ovulation. It is these immature follicles that create the cysts.
  
• Hyperandrogenism — Increased serum levels of male hormones. Specifically, testosterone, androstenedione, and dehydroepiandrosterone sulfate (DHEAS).
  
• Infertility — Infertility is the inability to get pregnant within six to 12 months of unprotected intercourse, depending on age. With PCOS, infertility is usually due to ovulatory dysfunction.
  
• Cystic ovaries — Classic PCOS ovaries have a "string of pearls" or "pearl necklace" appearance with many cysts (fluid-filled sacs). It is difficult to diagnose PCOS without the presence of some cysts or ovarian enlargement, but sometimes more subtle alterations may not have been recorded, or are not recognized as abnormal, by the ultrasonographer.
  
• Enlarged ovaries — Polycystic ovaries are usually 1.5 to 3 times larger than normal.
  
• Chronic pelvic pain — The exact cause of this pain isn't known, but it may be due to enlarged ovaries leading to pelvic crowding. It is considered chronic when it has been noted for greater than six months.
  
• Obesity or weight gain — Commonly a woman with PCOS will have what is called an apple figure where excess weight is concentrated heavily in the abdomen, similar to the way men often gain weight, with comparatively narrower arms and legs. The hip:waist ratio is smaller than on a pear-shaped woman — meaning there is less difference between hip and waist measurements. It should be noted that most, but not all, women with PCOS are overweight.
  
• Insulin resistance, hyperinsulinemia, and diabetes — Insulin resistance is a condition where the body's use of insulin is inefficient. It is usually accompanied by compensatory hyperinsulinemia — an over-production of insulin. Both conditions often occur with normal glucose levels, and may be a precursor to diabetes, in which glucose intolerance is further decreased and blood glucose levels may also be elevated.
  
• Dyslipidemia (lipid abnormalities) — Some women with PCOS have elevated LDL and reduced HDL cholesterol levels, as well as high triglycerides.
  
• Hypertension (high blood pressure) — Blood pressure readings over 140/90.
  
• Hirsutism (excess hair) — Excess hair growth such as on the face, chest, abdomen, thumbs, or toes.
  
• Alopecia (male-pattern baldness or thinning hair) — The balding is more common on the top of the head than at the temples.
  
• Acne/Oily Skin/Seborrhea — Oil production is stimulated by overproduction of androgens. Seborrhea is dandruff — flaking skin on the scalp caused by excess oil.
  
• Acanthosis nigricans (dark patches of skin, tan to dark brown/black) — Most commonly on the back of the neck, but also but also in skin creases under arms, breasts, and between thighs, occasionally on the hands, elbows and knees. The darkened skin is usually velvety or rough to the touch.
  
• Acrochordons (skin tags) — Tiny flaps (tags) of skin that usually cause no symptoms unless irritated by rubbing.

 

Is PCOS a Syndrome or a Disease?

PCOS is generally considered a syndrome rather than a disease (though it is sometimes called Polycystic Ovary Disease) because it manifests itself through a group of signs and symptoms that can occur in any combination, rather than having one known cause or presentation.

Are there are other names for PCOS?

Other names for Polycystic Ovary Syndrome are Stein-Leventhal Syndrome, hyperandrogenic chronic anovulation, functional ovarian hyperandrogenism, and Polycystic Ovary Disease.

What causes PCOS?

The exact cause of PCOS is unknown. There are studies being conducted to see if there may be a genetic link — that PCOS is passed along in families. Just as one might have a genetic predisposition to diabetes, one might also have a disposition to PCOS.

The above analogy to diabetes seems appropriate as many current studies into PCOS are focusing on the body's ability to process insulin. A growing collection of data suggests that elevated insulin levels are unhealthy and contribute to increased androgen production, worsening PCOS symptoms from cosmetic issues to infertility, and eventually increasing the risk of certain cancers, diabetes and heart disease.

It is also possible that PCOS may be caused or worsened by valproate, a medication used to treat seizures, but it is hard to say if it is the epilepsy per se or the agent used to treat it that brings about the PCOS symptoms in some women. The condition may be improved by switching to another medication.

Is there a cure for PCOS?

No, it is a condition that is managed, rather than cured. Treatment of the symptoms of PCOS can help reduce risks of future health problems.

What kind of doctor can diagnose and treat PCOS?

Any type of doctor familiar with PCOS might make the diagnosis, but the disorder is complicated and may be best treated by a specialist. Those having difficulty getting pregnant should see a reproductive endocrinologist, while long-term management by an endocrinologist should be considered. A general practitioner or an OBGYN may treat some women with the syndrome, but someone who specializes in endocrine disorders may be more familiar with treatment options and recent studies on PCOS. A list of fertility specialists is available on INCIID and PCOSupport.org has a list of doctors familiar with PCOS.

Are PCOS and hypothyroid related?

No. It may be that PCOS and thyroid disease are both common, so will sometimes be seen in the same patient.

A good number of PCOS patients have under-active thyroid glands. Since many of the symptoms are the same, evaluation of the thyroid gland with a blood test for thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) should be a part of the evaluation for PCOS. The TSH is almost always the only test needed to evaluate thyroid function.

Likewise, PCOS should be evaluated in the patient with under-active thyroid gland.

What are the long-term health risks associated with PCOS?

PCOS is associated with increased risk for endometrial hyperplasia, endometrial cancer, insulin resistance, type II diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and heart disease.

What is the connection between insulin resistance and PCOS?

At least 30 percent of women with PCOS are insulin resistant, although some investigators claim a much stronger association exists. Hyperinsulinemia produces hyperandrogenism by stimulating ovarian androgen production and by reducing serum sex-hormone binding globulin (SHBG). This can heighten PCOS symptoms. Reducing insulin resistance through the use of insulin-sensitizing medications can restore ovulatory function in many women with PCOS. It appears that even some patients who do not test as being insulin resistant may benefit from these medications.

Do all women with PCOS suffer from infertility?

The answer to this depends on the criteria used to diagnose PCOS. If a main criterion is anovulation, then by definition women with PCOS would have fertility problems. It is possible to have the appearance of polycystic ovaries and be fertile, but having the syndrome usually does impact fertility adversely.

Will losing weight jumpstart fertility in overweight patients with PCOS?

It may, but it doesn't always. There are lean women with PCOS. Weight loss may help reduce insulin resistance, resulting in spontaneous or improved ovulation. Quick weight loss may cause more harm than good, so slow weight loss is best. Losing 10 percent of one's body weight should be enough to show some improvement in symptoms.

Is the miscarriage rate higher in women with PCOS?

There does appear to be a higher miscarriage rate in women with PCOS, but the exact reason is still under investigation. According to some studies, the risk of miscarriage in women with PCOS is 45 percent or more. One possibility is that early loss is associated with elevated levels of luteinizing hormone — and women with PCOS often have elevated LH levels — but the reason why it relates to miscarriage is not understood. Another possibility is that elevated levels of insulin or glucose may impede implantation or cause problems with the embryonic development. There is a clear association between uncontrolled blood sugar and pregnancy loss, but the issue of insulin resistance and elevated insulin levels is relatively new and in need of further study. There is a possibility that insulin resistance reduces egg quality. That leads to another possibility — that late ovulation (after cycle day 16) may be associated with poor follicle development and decreased egg quality.

Does having PCOS make pregnancy high risk?

The answer to this may depend a little on the definition of high risk. Most PCOS patients can see a regular OBGYN, or perinatologist. Anyone who is severely insulin resistant, diabetic, or has high blood pressure may need to see a high-risk OBGYN. This is an issue to be decided by doctor and patient together.

Does a pregnant woman with PCOS require special monitoring?

Some special monitoring may make sense — such as earlier gestational diabetes screening or home glucose monitoring. Beyond that it depends on the PCOS symptoms experienced by the patient before pregnancy. Anyone taking medication may require additional monitoring. Many of the issues one needs to watch for are included in routine pregnancy care. For example, a woman with borderline hypertension before is more likely to have increased blood pressure in pregnancy, but most doctors check all patients for blood pressure issues.

Is someone with PCOS more likely to have gestational diabetes?

Many women with PCOS are insulin resistant, and pregnancy tends to be a time of increased glucose intolerance as well. When one combines the two, there is an increased incidence of gestational diabetes.

What is gestational diabetes and how is it diagnosed?

Gestational diabetes occurs when a woman has impaired glucose/carbohydrate tolerance during pregnancy (usually temporarily, or a temporary worsening). The main concerns are having the baby get too much sugar since the mother is not processing it herself — leading to a large baby, but perhaps with immature lungs, and some birthing difficulties — and the ketone byproduct that may be produced when the body turns to other sources, such as fat-stores, for energy.

It is usually diagnosed based on a reading of 200 mg/dl or higher on a 1-hour oral glucose challenge test where 50 grams of sugar are consumed, or based on having two parameters out of normal range on a 3-hour GTT after consuming 100 grams of glucose.

Will pregnancy cure PCOS?

There is no cure for PCOS, but some women do have a normalization of cycles after a pregnancy. Those who had fertility problems may find it easier to get pregnant again.

What treatments for PCOS symptoms are available?

There are many medications that can be used to control PCOS symptoms, and some may be used in combination with each other. Among the most common is the birth control pill, discussed directly below. Other anti-androgens such as spironolactone (Aldactone), Flutamide, cyproterone acetate, and Finasteride may be used to help control cosmetic issues. Corticosteroids are sometimes used as well, though their side effects may be intolerable. Women who are not seeking pregnancy can also make use of a wide variety of blood pressure and cholesterol lowering medications, in addition to insulin-sensitizing medications. The best course of action depends on individual needs.

Will removing my ovaries cure my PCOS?

At present, there is no cure for PCOS. The endocrine upset characterized by polycystic ovaries does not go away just because the ovaries are removed. Attention must be focused on why the ovary acted that way, and what signals called it to make 30 pellet-sized follicles at the same instant? It is possible that it might lessen symptoms, but it is a rather extreme approach that will not prove to be a cure.

Does PCOS get worse over time?

It is possible that PCOS will worsen during the prime reproductive years, ages 20-40, especially with weight gain. A healthy lifestyle is probably the best defense. It seems as women approach menopause that the severity of PCOS improves, as judged by hormonal parameters.

Does PCOS cause obesity, or does obesity cause PCOS?

In some ways, this question is akin to asking, "Which came first, the chicken or the egg?" since it isn't completely understood, but it appears more likely that PCOS comes first. Symptoms of PCOS may be lessened by weight loss, or increased by weight gain, but the syndrome is not caused by weight or body mass. There are lean women with PCOS. The insulin resistance that is common to PCOS may play a role in weight gain and the difficulty in losing any extra weight.

How can women with PCOS lose weight?

Usually the key to weight loss with PCOS is improving glucose metabolism and reducing insulin resistance. This may be achieved by reducing carbohydrate intake and increasing exercise level, as well as through the use of insulin-sensitizing medications. Metformin has a stronger link to weight loss than the glitazones (Avandia, Actos). It is preferable to alter eating habits without reducing caloric intake below 1800-2000 calories for long-term results.

Are depression and anxiety common in women with PCOS?

This is an area where more research is needed. It does appear that many women with PCOS suffer some physical or psychological manifestations of depression. There is some medical literature suggesting a link between diabetes and depression, and perhaps that might be extended to early stages of insulin resistance. It may be that the hormone imbalances, including hyperinsulinemia and hyperandrogenism, create a physical source for depression. Medications that help restore proper hormone ratios or antidepressants may help reduce depression and anxiety attacks.

Another possible source of depression is the effect that PCOS symptoms may have on self-esteem. Skin, hair, and weight can each cause discomfort in one's appearance that damage confidence. Infertility may also lead to frustrations with one's body and the feeling it can't do anything right, or perhaps a notion that one is being punished for some past action. Miscarriages are common in women with PCOS, and the grief associated with this type of loss can be far-reaching.

Anyone who feels she is showing signs of depression should consult her doctor as well as consider seeking emotional support. Be sure to find a doctor who is willing to listen to concerns and not dismiss this potential side effect of PCOS.

INCIID has a bulletin board for this called the PCOS Café ..: index.html pcoscafe forums www.inciid.org http:>where women with PCOS can connect, discuss issues, and support each other. Also consider checking PCOSupport.

The bird may love the fish...
Current mood: bullied

You know, I am in another dark place of my life. Just losing hope. Besides the point that I may be once again using food for comfort, this is a more personal entry so if you are not into that, then stop reading.

 I just don't know what life is for if you cannot share it with someone. I seem to share it alone.

The very few I've been interested in are not interested in me, for reasons that are unknown to me, and then again.. some that I do know of that are perhaps beyond my control. Does he even like me? Does he think I'm beautiful inside and out? I'll never know how one truly feels, or if they are even attracted.. especially if they aren't ^supposed to be or allowed to be. It gets me down. It makes me doubt myself.

I am just sick. Very sick of chasing what I cannot have and struggling and striving for things that will never seem to be for me. Am I ever going to get anything I wish, dream, and hope for? Only one thing has come true. Only one thing... and that was to be somewhat healthy and normal again through WLS. When will I get to know that feeling of wanting and be rewarded by having it returned to me?

You know, I have had a few guys have crushes on me that I don't feel the same way about. I understand how it hurts to have those feelings rejected... so I remain friends with them and try not to hurt them in any way or reject them. I try not to hurt their ego. I know. I've had my ego and "barely there" newly-found confidence shattered. But, I guess I asked for it.

Am I going to fall into the same catagory as my 8 aunties? My mom is the only one still married. I try to be optimistic. I try telling myself all the BS of I should be happy for myself... life isn't based on having someone but being happy within yourself. Blah, blah, blah. But Jesus. What IS the point?!?!

What is the point?

... if your just alone.



A poem I love:

The bird may love the fish,
But where do they live?
Love is not all about having a lot of things in common
Or being physically together.
We may have a totally different point of view with our love ones.
Their principles might be against ours.
But should we drag them to the same ship?
Or leave ours and go to theirs?
Remember, the bird will drown in the water...
And the fish will be out of breath outside the water.
Let the bird soar in the sky freely,
And the fish swim in the pond merrily
For only they know to whom their hearts belong to.

I haven’t updated this in a long time......

I went back to my doc in late February for my 2 year post-op. It was a shitty day because I felt aweful and bloated as hell. I weighed 162 on the scale. I was ten pounds up from my last weigh-in 6 months prior. I told him that I was eating more each meal. It was to be expected so I shouldn’t be disappointed he said. Instead of a yogurt for breakfast, I’m eating a bowl of cream of wheat. Instead of just a packet of tuna for lunch, I eat a salad and tuna. I eat more for dinner too. I sometimes get the urge to snack, but as long as I am filling up with good caloric intake, proteins and such instead of cookies, junk food, etc... he said I should be ok. He is proud of me. I doubt I will ever get back down to my 149lbs that I weighed on my scale, but since my weigh-in, I do weigh 156lbs on my scale. It’s about health and not about what the scale says. That has to be kept in mind.

I started a new job at Valley Presbyterian Hospital. I am a central supply clerk. I am also taking phlebotomy classes in August! Here are some updated pics:

Taken 2/29/08 at my 2 year follow-up with Dr. Korman. 162lbs. and stablized for good!

Me and Little Leo. I was being suave... aka a dumbass...

Oh God, if only I looked like Stephanie!

Me and My Brother, Daniel

Me and my friend Britt in mid February:

St Patty’s Day/Night:

Manning the Dean Z table at the Echoplex in January:

Taken 4/3/08:

 

It's been 1 year and 8 months since my surgery. My life has sure changed. It's had it's ups and downs. No matter how many times I get knocked down I still get up and keep going. Success comes in cans... failure comes in can'ts. I try to remember that phrase when life deals me a poor hand.

Recently I have modeled a few shirts by an inspiring fashion designer that reconstructs band tees. She can make you anything you want.. you name it. She is oober talented. If you want any shirts made, email me and I will send you the info. Here are the pictures:

Moving Units Promo:

 

 

 

Killers Promo:

 

 

 

Also, here are some pics from my hard work of becoming a Medical Assistant....

In Halloween Scrubs:

 


At the Senior Expo taken from my cell phone:

 


I'm home from work and already on myspace?!?

 

8/26/07

Yesterday was the 2nd Annual Bariatric Picnic at Centinela Freeman in Inglewood. Yes, bariatric patients can have a picnic... LOL! After being delayed in traffic on the wonderful 405 fwy, we arrived around noon. One hour late, but still with plenty of time to talk and meet people, play games, and win prizes. Dr. Korman had chefs cooking for us! We had a choice of hamburgers, (with buns and toppings that were low fat such as mayo) chicken, BBQ beans, fruit, water and lays chips. I ate my hamburger with no bun. I still can't stomach breads that well. Everyone got to meet both of my parents. I saw Leo there, sexy looking Mark, Wendy B from obesityhelp.com, and so many more!

The kids got to play water balloon games and some of the adults joined in. We all tried to hit Dr. K with them and he got soaked. I missed when I threw mine. Almost caught him though. He told me, "You can't catch me". I told him I bet I could. He forgets I can run just as fast now. Boy, he is quick though. He is a small and short guy, but don't let his looks fool you! He plays hockey all the time at Leo's rink.

The raffle started. I didn't win anything but they were giving cool gifts away like 1 night stays at hotels and such. It was a poor sound system they were using. I let the Dr and Bridgette listen to me singing on my iPod and told them if they ever needed a sound system, we would let them borrow ours. He told me he had heard my album and he would take me up on the offer. To be honest with you, till that day I had never thought he had listened to my album. I had given him a CD, but I had thought he was too busy to listen to it.

Anyway, I have video of me and my mom doing some crazy stuff, there was this beautiful tree there and we climbed up into the middle of it. We swung on the hoops in the playground as well. It was so fun.

Before leaving I took pictures with Mark, Leo, Bridgette and Dr. K. I then took pictures for Leo with Dr. K and Bridgette. Leo had told me that Dr. K was on TV also earlier in the week. I missed it :( We talked about the next support group and he said he would see me there. The next one is about plastic surgery. I am very interested in it and I am sure I will have plenty of questions. He has been to all the support groups that I have attended, except one! That is surprising since Stephanie told me he usually attends one out of every three.

Anyway, here are some pics of the picnic. Enjoy! PS: If anyone else has any other pictures, please share them with me!

Me and Dr. K 

Dr. Korman and my good friend Leo.

Bridgette and Leo. (Dr. Korman was handed balloons by some guy who thought he was a little kid! LOL!)

RN Bridgette posing with me...

Dr. K and post-bariatric patients.

Me and Dr. K (he is getting soaked with water balloons!)

The prettiest tree in the world...

Raffle (no, I didn't win anything)

My sexy myspace buddy, Mark!!!

Leo and I posing for a pic...

My mom and Dad and I...

My sexy buddy Mark.. Hey! Don't touch my man!

8/8/07

Yesterday I went back to Dr K's for my one and a half year anniversary. I got my measurements taken and I lost quite a few inches! I got a picture taken too, and then it was time for the scale. I lost three pounds to my surprise. I was sure I would weigh in at least five pounds heavier. Since I have been dedicated to the gym I had gained on the scale. I assumed it was muscle... at least that is what I was hoping. So I went from 154 lbs. to 151 lbs. The girl who weighed me mentioned the scrapbook and how all the pre-op patients see it before surgery! I was proud of that.

Bridgette came in and talked with me. I had asked her what her secret was to losing so much weight. I noticed she had lost quite a bit recently. She looked wonderful but she looked sad. She told me that her husband and her got divorced. It stressed her out. I sure know how that is, so I felt very bad for her. She said it was for the best. Her husband was a lawyer and was always away from home. The kids were used to it and they had grown apart. It was a mutual thing and they are still friends. He gave her no problem on child support and as a matter of fact is agreeing to pay her more than she had asked. She went over my caloric intake, water amounts - which I do excellent on now thanks to crystal light green tea packets (they are heavenly!), and vitamin supplements.

Dr. Korman took the longest time he has ever taken to come to my room but it was well worth it. I was the last appointment before lunch time. By the time he came in, I was laying down on the table! LOL! He mentioned that when I went to the support group a few weeks ago, he was sorry he didn't get the chance to say hello. He had waved to me immediately when he saw me, but was in a conversation with the speaker of our group. I told him I was sad that I didn't get a chance that day to chat. We went over labs and my bone density scan. It was all normal. My good cholesterol was more than double the normal number. He said he favors that number to be high because it shows I have a strong heart. So I have a very healthy cardiovascular system.

He said I was at over 85% loss of excess weight and down a whopping 113 lbs. since consultation! And he said 'As you know that is way above average.' I had told him about my dedication to the gym and about the scale going up. He said I was right. He flipped through my chart and found out I had gained 10 lbs. of muscle mass since the last visits. He said he would rather have the scale go up if it was a gain in muscle mass. He asked me how my job was going. He is happy I am working back office for a doctor. I told him that it was a lot of work though... that I am running after the Dr. and he is very fast-paced, plus grumpy at times. At least I am getting my exercise!

I still addressed the hair thing and the tiredness. He doesn't think it is anything to worry about. He told me how he had met Leo (my friend who also had the surgery). He met him because he plays hockey at the rink Leo works at. How perfect is this man? He plays hockey!!! GO KINGS! :) I told him to invite me and teach me how to play. We said our goodbyes, took a picture and said we would see each other at the support group and again on the 25th for the family reunion. He wants to see me in 6 months in February for my 2 year anniversary and told me to keep up the excellent work! Here's the pic...  

My co-worker Paul let me borrow his camera so we recorded some funny video! Check it out!

McDonalds... Wait...No....

I've Got Juggs!

 

 

Before:

I lost 20 pounds by myself before surgery......  

3/01/06

Well, I am back from my surgery after 4 days in the hospital and I feel great! I have to go back there for a post op visit on Wednesday. Dr. Korman was so unbelievably sweet! He came to see me every morning just to say hi and rub my hand and ask how I was and how I was doing.. In the end when I was released from the hospital, he came in and shook my hand and I felt he wanted to hug me. My mom saw that and asked him for a big hug and then I got a big hug of my own from him and told him that I loved him!!! HAHAHA! He said he will be pleased to see my future "progress" and he can't wait. He is a very young-looking and handsome guy. You can't EVEN tell from pix online - they do him NO justice, but if you got a chance to talk to him in person.. you sure would know. He came in looking good in his armani suit.

Well eating is way different..... my tummy rumbles like thunder all the time. LOL! I can only eat broth, skim milk, protein drinks and jello for the first week. I must take vitamin suppliments, calcium, and iron, along with my current thyroid medication every day and B-12 3x's a week. I can eat and drink very little, but I am never hungry. Eating is more like taking medication. No desire to, but you know you HAVE to. I also have to drink 8 8oz glasses of water a day and walk every 2 hours.... use a breathing machine to expand and keep my lungs open.... 10 x's every hour. For the most part I am doing quite well on all of that, except the water. It's hard for people with a regular stomach to drink 8 glasses of water. My stomach is the size of a thumb!

There was really no pain after surgery or in recovery. Radio personality Bill Handel said it is the most excruciating pain he has ever felt, but I felt NOTHING! You are hooked up to a morphine pump where you can press a button every 10-15mins and it will deliver it straight to your IV. You get blood thinner shots in your stomach every day so to prevent you from getting blood clots, and you must wear tight-fitting stockings for a week, also for that reason. The worst part of it all was cleaning youself out with the prep (like a colonoscopy). I had to take, not one... but TWO preps! Nothing happened after like 6 hours!! It is vile, but I did it like a shot. Drank it down and chased it with water.... as much as possible. Blah!

You also have to get pain med shots after they take away your morphine. Usually in your IV, but my right arm swelled, so they took out my IV after two days and put a new one in my left arm. Then that clogged, so I just took my shot in my arm muscle.... it burns but it isn't that bad. You have a drain in you too to collect the draining blood from your stomach... it gets taken out, which is kinda bad, but not really. Also you have a catheter for a while (to collect pee lol). I have a total of six little holes with steri-strips on them. They had staples holding them together for a few days (they got taken out - didn't hurt). That's all the scarring I have!

All in all I am very excited about my future. It can't come quick enough! I am already almost down to my wedding weight! I am so happy! Thanks to all of my friends and family who supported me and called me/visited me in the hospital. Thank you mom for staying with me, Thank you all for your flowers and gifts. I will never forget it! Love you!!!!

This is Bill Handel's before and after:

Dr. Korman:

       

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Drawn by Justin.

In the waiting room with all the others who had surgery with me the same day........

This doctor saved my life! 
  

 

 
3/08/06 - I weighed in today at a loss of 12 lbs. since I came out of the hospital. Out of the girls, I lost the most! Yah! Just the idea of losing 12 lbs. in a week is insane, but I am so damn happy!!!!  

In the past 5 months I have went from a whopping 267lbs. to 232lbs.!!!! I can't believe the progress that I've made, and can't imagine what I will look like in even a month from now! 

Dr. Korman was joking with me today and was saying he remembered I had a navel piercing and pondered his first incision for a while. My piercing just happened to be right where he would usually make the first incision, but he went higher to save my piercing. Thanks doc! He took off the steri-strips today and there is NO scarring. It seriously looks like a cat scratch! I was so surprised, because I have had other surgery that has left some bad scars.     

I am on soft mushy foods now. I was scared to eat today, Afraid something would go wrong, like food getting stuck or not agreeing with me,,, and puking, but I had yogurt when I got home. Now, I am eating a half a cup of lima beans as we speak... yeah I know, but I like lima beans!

I thank my friends and family - especially my mom, who just happens to be my best friend. Love you all with all my heart!

3/12/06 - Here's a picture of me fitting into a pair of jeans I bought ages ago. They used to be so tight I couldn't get them over my thighs!

I LOVE it!!!

3/17/06 - Weighing in at 221!!!! 11 more pounds. My weight plateaued there for a while. As you introduce solid food, you take in more calories so your body stops losing for a bit. Makes sense when you've been on liquids for a while.

To all the people who doubted me, or picked on me weight wise because they had nothing else they could find to make fun of me for - f %^&you! Who has 3 legs and 3 chins now? I'm determined and I WILL win. You will end up in a sea of regret... I will have the last laugh.   NOTHING will stand in my way.

 

03/20/06 - I feel great! Those jeans I tried on that I told you about are now loose. I can pull them off without undoing the buttons or anything! Wow, I'm gonna really need to go shopping soon! 

03/26/06 - Well, a little set-back. Today was the first time I experienced "dumping" (later on I realized this was not dumping) and it's not fun. I had my usual tuna and mixed in a little chopped onion and some mustard. This time I was able to add fat free mayo... and bam. Sick as hell. It took about two bites for me to run to the bathroom and chuck it up. Chucking it up is fine, not like regular throwing up. It isn't the same.... no acid and it basically tastes the same going down and coming up (hahaha I'm sure you just LOVE me sharing this). It's the shortness of breath and a gas-filled upset stomach that scared the crap out of me. For literally about a half an hour I was completely uncomfortable and had trouble breathing. All that could relieve it was burping... or trying to. It was pretty frightening. I guess my body has found it's first rejection : fat-free mayonaise!

Other than that bad news, my mom MADE me go and buy new pants because the ones I never used to fit into started to look like Mc Hammer's. I am down approx. 4 dress sizes. I go back to Dr. Korman's on the 31st!

3/29/06 - Ok, this sucks.... 'cause I nearly dumped at lunch and DID dump at dinner..... sucks, sucks, sucks. But I am fine now. I am still not a skinny binny, but I weigh 218lbs. I love it and I feel really great! I now weigh LESS than what I did at my wedding! HAHAHAHA! Can't wait to go and buy a new outfit for this weekend! I am going clubbing and to The Strokes concert. It's gonna be freaking awesome. I went down to the Valencia mall today and picked up some great looking kicks - airwalks (fell in love with them).  I was running in the rain and having fun! It was a good day.

3/31/06 - Well today was my one month follow up. 22 1/2 lbs! In a month!!!! Wow! I was so happy! I have lost over 42 lbs. total... and I keep getting smaller and smaller. 

4/01/06 - Oh man, we saw the Strokes last night and it was SO AWESOME! I loved it. I start work Monday :( Bummer. But back to the Strokes... We all had hardly no voices this morning! I went and had my hair cut. I am a new person starting over a new life and loving every second of it! Time to BANG tonight!!!!

Wrecked after club bang!

Another one.......

4/03/06 - Today I went back to work. Everyone was commenting on how good I looked and how it was great to have me back. They were amazed at the change! Even the guys commented...... which made me very happy LOL! So we'll see... I am down to (my scale seems off from doctor Korman's by 5 lbs.) 215

4/04/06 - Oh, I forgot to mention...... that feeling sick and puking thing is NOT dumping. It is just an intolerance to the food, or so they tell me. Dumping is a hypoglycemic effect where you get clammy and feel dizzy and get heart palpitations. So, none of that yet!

Dr. Korman came into his office with his armani suit on again, then put on his white jacket.  He told me that the flowers I sent the office were beautiful and he was so amazed at how grateful I am about all of this. He asked me if I noticed the difference and I answered yes and no. I can feel it in my stomach by touch.... but if I look in the mirror I can't see it much or see it in my face (everyone mentions my face). I told him I could tell by pictures. Documenting the loss with pictures has really helped. I would suggest it for everyone because it really helps you see the true difference in yourself. After we talked for a long time, he asked me to take a picture with him. He said that every time I come in that will be what we will do. I was astounded by the amount of time he spent with me! He is a great doc!

I am amazed and ecstatic about all of this. I have a whole new outlook on life where nothing can bring me down. I feel like I am on top of the world and I can conquer anything!!!   

 
04/10/06

I started up Tae bo cardio.... it kicks my @$$, but I do a 45 min. workout every day. I know the tae bo is working because my face is as red as a firehidrant after I am done. My new jeans I got were pretty tight, but now they fit pretty good. 

My mom bought me a beautiful emerald ring for my birthday and gave it to me early. I was so surprised and relieved. I don't wear any of my old jewelry anymore because it's all from my ex-husband... Anyways, I am a size 7 now, so I don't even have to get it sized!  I am getting pretty shaped and toned now. I can really feel the difference. Everyone who hasn't seen me in a while is so surprised and really notices it!

 
This ring now fits on my middle finger!

4/11/06 Ok, the scale says 211 now. Awesome!!! K, quick update. Gotta go!  Oh, but first, some crazy pix...

04/16/06

Well, it's Easter. I am now down to 209. 10 pounds to go and I will have acheived my short-term goal. Yay me!

They say that a lot of bypass patients go through depression. I am going through one lately. I don't really quite know what is making me so unhappy. I know that I hardly ate anything since yesterday... and hardly drank any water. That will kill me if I keep doing that. Literally. I am just not hungry. I just want to sleep or sit and not move. I haven't even been taking vitamins on schedule. Not sure what battle within myself I have to overcome this time. I'm just really, really sad. 

04/20/06 Well it's 13 days 'till my birthday and I wanna make plans. Hmmm. Well, I'm outta my funk...... everything is going well in love and life! I'm back on top baby! My size 18's are way loose.... I bought a couple of tops that were 16/18 and they are pratically already too big. I thought they would be WAY small. I feel so much better and I've taken WAY more pictures... here are some. 

Not a stick, but looking pretty good....

*Kiss* Love you all!

I'll make you regret every moment alone..........

 

04/29/06

Weight 205. I now fit into my moving units XL tee. Actually I put it on and it hangs down pretty low. Maybe I better buy a large! LOL!

 

People come and people go, the ones that stay by your side are the one's that truely matter.

05/02/06

I'm so happy with my weight it's not even funny! I love myself and I'm only getting smaller by the day. And it's JUST begun! It takes years to reach your maintanence weight. I'm gonna look great!

   

05/09/06

It's been great losing and losing! I had a cashier tell me I don't even look like I am 200 lbs. I am so happy. My family and close friends have been my support. I am loving it! I go back for a follow up soon.  I couldn't be happier. I have a new life and a new start! I look and feel great!

05/14/06

Ok, anyway, I went to the mall yesterday and got some great stuff with the gift cards I got for my birthday. I got a cute xl skull sweater, a new belt buckle that says "u suck", & a cute xl tee that says "support local music - sleep with a musician" <--- hahaha. Problem though - I have outshrunk my belt! I need a new one because when I put on the new belt buckle, it went waaaay past the belt holes into the studs... so there goes that.

Tonight I did some tae bo and then went to see Carlos's comedy show in Rosamond. It was pretty fun. I wore the new pink skull sweater. I love that sweater... I guess that will be my new favorite "shirt"! 

I was actually thinking of not posting some new pics for a long time so you can really see the difference, but I cannot seem to hold out long enough. So here are some.....

Before:

After:

 

Not bad for wearing a thick hoodie, eh?

                                           

5/20/06

My Killers shirt came in the mail! I am sooo happy! You have NO idea how long I have waited to wear a shirt that says "The Killers". They are like my favorite band. Seriously. So of course, I had to take a few pics in it. Not much... but just to brag....

                                                

The Dada and I...

5/21/06 OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got on the scale and I am 198lbs.!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS! I DID IT!!!!!!!!! I reached my goal! I am sooooo happy right now!

To all my friends and Family: Thanks for the comments on my blog and my page. I appreciate it so very, very much. I am lucky to have lots of support from all of you and I value you all so much! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!  

5/28/06

Ok. I went shopping and guess what? I fit into a size 14-16 shirt and a size 16 pants!!! The pants are a little tight like the 18's were but I am sure they will fit very comfortably soon. I am so excited at the progress I have made! I notice that I can actually walk into a room and people will be looking at me, and not in a bad way. It's super cool! I went to an 80's party last night and I actually felt non-outcasted. That's a good thing! Well, I weigh 195lbs. now. So very cool!! I will go see my Dr on the 1st. His scale is 5 lbs. off from mine. I sure do hope when I go to see him that I weigh under 200 on his scale!

06/01/06

Well today was my 3 month follow-up. Everyone was so surprised to see me! Bridgette (the main RN) talked to me for a long time. She said that she was amazed and I was doing an outstanding job. She also said that nobody usually tops the weight loss from the visit before hand... I did. I lost 22 lbs. last visit. This visit I have lost 24 lbs. I weighed 199 lbs. on the scale! I so deperately wanted to be under 200 when I weighed in, and I did it. She said that they had expected me to lose around 100 lbs. in a year. I am already half way in 3 months and have lost 42 percent of my excess weight - total!!!

Dr. Korman came in and was also very happy in my progress. He is the one who told me about losing 42 percent of my weight already. He upped my iron, B-12, multi-vitamin and calcium. I had addressed issues of my fatigue, hair loss, and dry skin. Bloodwork came back that I was low in B1 and on the low-normal in iron. Of course both the nurse and doc addressed getting in more water... ugh. The paperwork asked me how much I was getting in and I put "2 16oz bottles - yes I know I suck at this...". The doc laughed at that.

Both the nurse and Dr. Korman said I was well ahead of my game, I am exceeding their expectations, and to keep up the good work. He also said that I "really look beautiful"... whoooooohooooooo!!!!   

Tae bo has really paid off and I recommend it to anyone who can keep up the pace. Doctor Korman took a pic with me and said he wanted to get them up on his web site. I do have a few pics on his site. Here are some pics we shot. The one of Korman was shot today, the other last week when I got the new outfit. I am (of course - it's already happening) going to be slowing down in the weight loss as I approach normal weight, so I probably won't update this as much... (relief for my friends I am sure... hahaha).

Overall, I am happy and excited at what I have accomplished. This has not been an easy road for me in my life at this point, (all close friends know what recent pain and trauma I have been through). But, I am determined to make it a positive moment. Thank you all for sticking by me & being there for me.

Size 16!!!! 

The most talented doc in the world! He changed my life...

6/24/06

Well I am 190, and I am losing slower, but I am so happy. I am getting B-12 shots now in my bum bum.. haha! So I don't have to take any B-12 pills. Here are some new pix...

7/27/06

I am now 179lbs! The B-12 shots helped for two weeks but then I was back to being tired again. Now I am to go back every two weeks to get one. I actually got up at 5:30am. Unheard of for me! My divorce was finalized on 7/15/06! YAY! Have the copy of the paperwork from the courts. YAY! PARTY TIME! I am now going to the suntan booth to get un-honkied! I even went to see Justin & Sarah's pastor for councelling about the divorce... and now am planning to have a first and second tattoo!!!! Oh and I start school for Medical Assisting on the 31st. Life is good. Movin' on - don't look back!

8/13/06 Weigh in at 174. :) I am posting a brand new pic taken last night before I went to club bang! I love that club... I just like to go and dance and get my exercise!

8/21/06

Ok... so I got on the scale today and I weigh 170. That means I am only 3 pounds from losing 100 lbs. total since my initial consultation with Dr. Korman!!! I am very very happy!

9/2/06 My hair was thinning as to be expected. So I cut it in layers and shorter to hide that fact. :) I kinda like the cut. I can wear my hair shorter now that my face is not so wide. For some reason a bob has always looked pretty cool on me. By the way have I mentioned that I love Johnny Depp? LOL!

9/7/06

Today I went back to Dr. Korman's office for my 6 month follow up. On my scale I weigh 166 lbs... down 101lbs. from initial consultation. On Dr. Korman's scale I weigh 170 lbs. I have lost 73 lbs. from the date of the surgery. (I lost 20 on my own before surgery). Dr. Korman told me that I have lost two-thirds of my excess body weight. Usually, a common bypass patient will lose this much and stop losing after that point. It usually takes the common bypass patient a year to lose two-thirds of their excess weight. It has only been six months for me and I am obviously going to continue to lose. He said he was very proud of me! I was excited to hear that I was doing so well.

I did address that I have been so very tired. I have suffered from extreme exhaustion since the surgery. When I was obese I was actually more energetic! He went over labs and this time found a huge iron deficiency. I was told to double my iron intake and it should increase my energy. I also have to get tested for an increase in thyroid medication. I also addressed the hair thinning and hair loss. Dr. Korman said it was normal at around this time after the surgery and that all of these symptoms should dramatically improve by the next time that I see him, which is in three months.

Freeman memorial hospital will no longer have an emergency facility, only urgent care. Bariatric surgery can be life-threatening. Since bariatric patients need emergency facilities and staff on hand, Dr. Korman's office will be moving to Marina Del Ray. Here are a couple of shots from today's visit...

RN Bridgett...

Dr. Korman (traditional photo)...

Amazing...

11/3/06

Ok I got sickie-pooh over the last couple days....  After the halloween party the next day, I woke up and ate a bowl of fruit for breakfast. It was kind of hard fruit, but I ate it anyway. Bad mistake. At lunch I ate a bit of chicken and felt an intense stomach ache come on. I wasn't feeling good at all. Everyone around me has the tummy flu, so I thought maybe I was getting it... but wouldn't I be throwing up? At both ends? LOL! Ok, well I haven't had THOSE symptoms...

So I called Dr.. Korman's office and told the RN that I had a deep pain, (gastrodynia) felt like a deep bruise mid-gastro area, 3 inches superior to the navel (Medical terminology has paid off!). It also felt like (the only way I can describe it) plurisy, because it hurt when I breathed! She booked me for the next morning right away. I couldn't walk that straight... I definitely couldn't sleep straight. Curled in a ball was the only comfortable position. All I could think of is maybe those strawberries were too hard that I ate, and maybe it was blocked in my tummy! But, that proved wrong... just me being a worry-wart!

I saw Dr. Korman. He thinks it is a very atypical area of pain for gallbladder stones... but didn't rule them out, as well as didn't rule out a mild stomach flu. He scheduled me for lab work and an ultrasound first thing Monday morning. Orders are n.p.o. after midnight. (Nothing by mouth). Dr.'s are geniuses. They can tell from bloodwork if your blood cells are elevated and if your body is fighting off something, and can read from an ultrasound if there is anything wrong ie: blockage, leaking, stones, etc... and I trust him 100%!!!

Crap... I don't want gallbladder stones!!! I definitely don't want more surgery to remove my gallbladder... so pray for me!

PS: I weighed in at his office at 163lbs. At home 159lbs.! YAY!!!!

Some info:

Gallstones

More than one-third of gastric bypass patients will get gallstones. These are clumps of cholesterol and other matter that form in the gallbladder.

During quick or large weight loss, your risk of getting gallstones goes up. You might feel a steady, severe pain on the right side of your stomach going to your back. This pain will start after eating a meal. You might also feel bloated or nauseated and vomit. If these symptoms continue, call your gastric bypass surgeon.

12/5/06

Today was my 9 month follow up at Dr. Korman's office! I am 155 lbs. on my scale, and on Dr. Korman's scale I weigh 158 lbs.  I dressed up a bit this time. I actually wore a skirt, which I used to dispise...

So the doc came in (wonderfully dreamy as always). He told me I looked fantastic and congratulated me! I have lost over 83% of my excess body weight and all in record time - above average. I am down a whopping 108 lbs. since consultation. He told me that the ultrasound came back normal and everything looks fine. Thank GOD! No gallbladder surgery for me! YAY!!!

So my next visit will be the 27th of Feb. This is my one year anniversary date. It will be at the new offices in Marina Del Ray located near the Daniel Freeman Memorial Hospital over there. He did say that if I had any further pain or any questions, if something arises, don't hesitate to come back and see him or call him.

A kinda recent one of me. My dog Sugar-booger is staring up at me!

1/02/07

Well it's the start of a new year and it's only one month and 25 days away from hitting my one year anniversary mark of my surgery. I am announcing today that I have hit my long term goal of 150lbs.  I am so happy! I am in an 11 juniors size. Medium tops. YAY!!! People have told me how amazing it has been to see me become so tiny. I have had people coming up to me telling me I look about 115lbs. THANK YOU! HAHAHA! I would love to be, but actually I feel this is a good weight for me.

I hope that I have inspired many people. Overweight people, as well as obese people, write to me all the time and ask me for my advice. I am glad that I have helped make a difference and spread some awareness and light on the subject of being overweight, as well as medical causes of obesity, and the way obese people are treated in our society.

I am ashamed to say it, but I was at a time and a place in my life where I didn't care whether or not if I lived or if I died. Shameful as that is, it is a part of who I am. Because I was in that state of mind, I really didn't care to consider the risks of this surgery, only the benefits of this surgery. I figured if I didn't come out of it alive, it didn't really matter. With out this surgery, I really feel I would have become suicidal. I was well on my way. Now my whole entire life has turned around! I have the greatest friends, family, and loved ones by my side. Thank you so much! And ironically, I have that one "bad time" in my life to thank for it all! Funny how things turn out... isn't it?

1/30/07

I thought I would do an update before I go back for my one year anniversary. I am now 145lbs. I am still in school and I am in size small medical scrubs. YAY! This surgery has been THE BEST THING that has ever happened for me. The worst part about it was I was losing my hair for a while, but it has just started to grow back. What a small price to pay. For losing about 122 lbs. I don't consider myself to have very much loose skin at all, thank goodness! There is a tiny bit around the tops of my arms and the worst is my stomach... which isn't bad by far. You pretty much can tell from my new pictures. Nothing to sweat about at all. My legs look great. I can always get a tummy tuck. I don't even know if it is enough skin to warrant getting one. The great thing about it is even though the surgery wasn't covered, I believe my new insurance covers the removal. There have been some key people in my life I would like to give a shout out to that have been there to support me. (In random order).....

My mom and dad - You are the only rock I need and I love you both oh so very much. Summer & Will - I love you guys!  Becky - You are my homegirl! I love your crazy ass! I can tell you anything. Dana & Mike - I hope your little bundle of joy grows up to be just as loving as you both are. 

2/27/07 ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY POST OP!

Today is my one year anniversary! I weight 153 on Dr. K's scale and have lost 83% of my excess body weight - well above the norm of 70%!!! I am hoping to join the gym for my birthday gift and maybe I can start toning up.

I walked into Dr. K's office and everyone was so happy to see me. I was given a little survey to take. One of the questions asked "Would you say you are more confident in your relationships now?" My answer was, 'Yeah if I had a relationship, but I am still waiting for a clone of Dr. K - haha :)' He said "Omg you're making me blush!", and he hugged me.

Another question asked about complaints. I put that my chief complaint was 'My hair. I feel like Britney Spears'. The doc and nurse laughed at that. He said that was 'cute'. He promises it will grow back. He said he knew it's been frustrating and a pest to deal with. When you go through something traumatic like this, your body goes into a state of shock. Your hair shocks out so much it falls out, thins out, or dies... but it DOES come back. Now that I am pretty much stabilizing in my weight I should see it return really soon here.

I was kinda sad because I didn't know if I would have any more follow-ups with him anymore. I thought it was goodbye for good. He told me that he would prefer it be follow ups for a lifetime, "Or until you get tired of me", he said. He scheduled me a follow up in August - 6 months from now. He also said that my progress sure made him look good. I told him about the many letters I get from people asking about the surgery and the recommendations I have given. Then he asked me to be a part of his upcoming seminar with KFI talk show personality - Bill Handell!!!! I am so excited! He told me it is in April and will be held in Anaheim.

We talked about plastic surgery after the gastric bypass. He said he would recommend some doctors who have experience with post-gastric bypass patients. I want to try the gym first. I am hoping I can do it by myself. Here are some pics of the day. 

We said our goodbyes until the seminar & next appointment time. I went into the lobby and saw a lady and a guy sitting there. The lady asked me, "Did you have surgery?" When I told her that I did and today marks one year, she was so surprised to know that I had it done. The guy sitting next to her said he had just had his and he has already lost 90 pounds. He said he felt like a teenager again. They talked with me and asked me questions. I showed them my driver's license picture and they couldn't believe it. I liked answering all their questions. I liked being there for them. The lady said she was scared. I told her my motto on the surgery:

Will you live in fear and ask what could have been? Or take a chance to experience what could possibly be the BEST thing that has ever happened to you in your life?"

The poster girl for bariatric surgery! (my nails are so cool! I have black and pink blended tips).

Close up......

I love this final one........

4/28/07

Today I attended the seminar for gastric bypass and lap band surgery by Dr. Korman. KFI Radio talk show personality was also there to speak about his surgery he had 3 years ago. It was nice to talk to the people who are considering having the surgery and answering there questions and concerns. I met a bunch of nice people. I also brought along a scrapbook I had made to show them before and after shots and to read through about my past experiences. 

It was a big convention hall and there was a huge spread of healthy foods out for everyone to enjoy. Veggies and fruits! Dr, Korman saw me from the stage and waved at me. Then Bill Handel spoke about his surgery. He was so funny. I wish I could have gotten the whole thing on video. My dad is a big fan of him. They wouldn't allow me to bring a video camera :( Dr. Korman's presentation was very interesting. I found out some facts that I didn't even know about the surgery... and this is something I have studied for a while now.

In the middle of it all, he introducted his past patients sitting in the audience, and I raised my hand so everyone could see me when he called my name. He told them to talk to us about any questions they had.

After all was finished, people came up to me to ask me questions. I liked helping out. One lady said she had seen my profile on here and complimented me and called me gorgeous! That was so nice. I am not used to those compliments yet. I was flattered and felt good that someone has seen my profile, read my story and was inspired. I couldn't believe it. I then went up to Bill Handel and told him that my dad listens to his show every day and he is a big fan! I asked to get a picture with him. He was such a nice guy and joked around with me. 

After that, I saw Dr. K and my mom got a picture of us. I presented the scrapbook to him. I hope he reads it thoroughly. I sure did work hard on it! The lady ( I'm freaking HORRIBLE with names btw...) who had complimented me prior was talking with Dr K. told the doc she has seen my profile on here and that I was "gorgeous". The doc said, "Besides gorgeous, she is just an amazing person" I was touched. Here are some pics.

A pic with Bill Handel....

Dr. Korman holding my book.... 

 

05/12/07

I joined the gym and have been working out. I fluctuate between 150lbs-155lbs on my scale. The lowest I have ever gotten on my scale was 145lbs, but this is a good weight. I am a size 8/10. I am maintaining and feel great! I plan on going to the support group next Saturday. Dr. K will be there. It is a support group for both post-op patients and the beginner support group starts after the 10:00 group.

6/3/07

Well I attended the support group. Dr. K was not there but Bridgette was there. It was good to see her and everyone else. I ran into my old surgery buddy Stephanie! She had surgery the same day I did. I didn't even recognize her.. she looks wonderful! After the support group, I met up with my best friend Dana and got to see her baby for the first time. I miss her alot.

I graduated my Medical Assistant Front Office class with top honors on the 30th. I got four certificates. One for passing the class, one for the highest score on the final, one for a GPA of 102%, and another for outstanding attendance. I am hoping to quit Walmart and start as a full-time student soon as well as an externship for a local doctor.

I recently went to Magic Mountain with my friend Vince. It was very cool and we took a video on tatsu. I will post the link. I saw Pirates of the Carribbean 3 on opening day. It was a really good movie and I was excited to see it. I recommend the trilogy to everyone! They are talking about making a fourth movie. I celebrated my best friend's fiance's 37th birthday last night. It was a blast. We went to a cool restaurant and then to "Howl at the Moon" down at City Walk. Then we went to a club and danced. I got some good pictures and I may post them up. I celebrate my 30th birthday on June 9th. My mom was in the hospital on May 4th, the actual date of my 30th birthday, so she is throwing me a late birthday party. I can't wait! Anyway, that is what I have been doing with my life thus far.

Me & Stephanie...

My Best friend Dana and her son Damian.

Me holding the baby...

My score sheet....

Off to see Pirates...

Link for Magic Mountain video.

Marie on tatsu 

6/18/07

On 6/16 Saturday I attended the support group. I got to meet Mark finally! He is so cool and he looks fantastic!

I wasn't expecting any of the key "team" to be there, so when I saw Bridgette I was surprised. When I saw Dr. K walk in my jaw hit the floor! He came in wearing blue jeans dressed very casually. I had written him a letter and told him I was gonna be attending the next support group and that I hope he could be there.

I gave him some pics of us at the seminar. He told Bridgette he was gonna use them for the next newsletter. That would be so awesome! He told me he got my letter, asked how my mom was, and I told him about her being in the hospital. He told me to give her "my love". He asked what else I had been up to, and I mentioned my medical certifications. He said, "We made you beautiful and a genius too!" Awww. Thanks, oh perfect doc o' mine. I gave him a hug before I left.

I reminded him that if he ever needed a biller......