First Entry

Oct 23, 2009

So I've been told to write, both by members and my therapist. I had my surgery 3 weeks ago and am have lost 21 lbs. This last week I have only lost 1 so I have hit my first plateau. Not excited about that. I have been able to pull a pair of size 24 jeans from the garage and fit into them. The rest of my clothes are now sorted into piles by sizes and once I hit 18 I will need to go shopping. About my recovery. My surgery went textbook and I had the surgery on a Friday and was released from the hospital on Sunday. The drainage tube came out about 10 days later and I have to say that it hurt me. All I can think about is food. I want everything from hot wings and nachos to steak and baked potatoes. I am struggling with wanting to eat out of boredom and loneliness. I have had some trouble with throwing up or having to purge myself after I eat somethings. I have tried oatmeal, scrambled eggs, and mashed potatoes and think at this time my body is not ready for it. I have some good support on Fort Lewis and have reevaluated my time line and am giving myself more time to start eating things. I am ready to chew something or even eat a soup without having to strain all the good stuff out. At this time I wonder if it would have been better to just be fat and try to diet harder but I know that I have already seen that path and that is why I chose the surgery and I know that this feeling will pass. I'm scared that with my only losing 1 lb this week that I am not going to lose anymore and wonder if I am doing everything right. I wonder too about my going to the bathroom, I only urinate about 2-3 times a day, first in the morning then about mid afternoon then before I go to bed. I feel like I am drinking all the time though. I don't know. This is my first blog entry so hopefully they will get better.,

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