nearing my 1st rebirthday!!!

Jan 05, 2009

January 5, 2009

Hello to all of you,

New Year's Eve sent me for a trip down memory lane.  12/31/07 I weighed 355 lbs.  This New Year's Eve was a little different for me.  This week leading to my rebirthday, has been exciting.  I have read old post.  I still get the same emotional energy each time I read my blogs. 

In 2 days it will be my one year anniversary of the best thing that I ever did in my life.  My my my, its been a very busy year!!  As of today I have lost 166 pounds.   CAN YOU BELIEVE IT????  I can fit in a size 12 blue jeans (relaxed fit) or a 14 any style.  I wear large and XL shirts depending on the way its made.  I wear medium pajama pants and robe.  Life is surely getting better. 

Everyone notices me.  For the first time in my life, I get sooooooo much attention.  I get so much attention that I get tired of talking about my self.  The thing that gets under my skin most is when someone says to my wonderful husband, "Pete she's gonna leave you when she hits her goal weight."  I have to say that I did not need to lose weight to leave him.  I am with my husband because I love him.  I wish that everyone would stop saying silly things like that . 

Pete'o watches my every move.  You should see him.  You can look, but you best not touch!!

I am glad that I have kept a diary of my weight loss adventure!  I am very glad that I kept a picture diary of  me.  I can turn the pages and watch the weight disappear.  I feel that I am immune to the pictures in that book.  I look at those.  That is who I was and who I have become.  The other day I had some old disposable camera's processed.  There was a picture of me and my sister in law, on my husband's 40th birthday.  That picture saddened me.  I became very tearful showing my husband that picture.  His question was why are you so emotional?  You look at old pictures of you all the time.    My answer was simple.  I am immune to that book.  That book is my progress.  When I see a picture of myself, out of my element so to speak, I become disgusted!  After knowing how good life is now, I think, HOW DID I EVER ALLOW MYSELF TO GET THAT WAY? 

I thought that I was the only one to feel like that.  My cousin who had his RNY March 2008 was at my house.  His sister showed him an 8x10 of them two together.  In the picture he was 400+ lbs.  He said "I wish I could burn every picture of me when I looked like that.  It makes me want to puke!!!"........................................I knew what he was talking about.


Onward to life styles.  I do most everything I am suppose to do. 

Do's:  eat protein first
            take vitamins
            exercise
           
Don't:  I quit drinking protein
            I don't drink decaf coffee (I rather have full flavor)
            I haven't attempted drinking alcohol
           


I think that for the most part I follow the rules set forth by my surgeon. 

I am going to continue to get healthy in 2009.  I will continue at the gym.  I will lose my last 45 lbs.  I will advance towards plastics in 2010.  Tomorrow I am going for a tattoo removal consultation.  When I am sexy and wearing revealing shirts, I do not want these two tattoo's sticking out.  I guess I have out grew the tattoo's on  a personal level.  On my 32 birthday, I am going to a dermatologist to have every mole, skin tag and blemish looked at.  The melonoma scare I had last month about did me in.  I wil strive everyday to work on me:  as person, a nurse, a wife, a daughter, and a sister.  I want to be some one that is looked up to. 

The biggest change in my education is that I am officially registed in the graduate program at McKendree University, to obtain my MSN.  The changes I have made in my life are positive.  I pray they keep coming.

In this closing I want to say once again how grateful I am for my tool.  I am thankful that I had this surgery, I am thankful that I have a wonderful husband at my side, I am thankful for my supportive family,  and I am thankful for my 166 POUND WEIGHT LOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


highest weight....................355
weight now...........................189

largest clothing size...........5x shirts................................NOW..............L or XL
                                    ............32 W pants..................................................12-14

before bra size.......................48DDD........................................................38DD


Take care till next time,

Mary

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