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Well, I figured it was time for an update...so here goes:

I'm almost 24 weeks pregnant!! I can't believe it at times, it seems so surreal. We found out that we're having a boy. Of course, we couldn't be any more excited! We're naming him Nicholas Lee. We picked out our nursery theme. It is the barnyard line found at Babies R Us... so cute. We have also hired a muralist to paint the room. We've got the furniture ordered and that should arrive Wednesday. I'm so excited things are starting to come together. Financially, I worry a lot especially since I have decided to stay home after the baby is born. I'm actually quiting my job at the end of December. I would actually be working to pay for daycare if I decided to stay at work...crazy huh?? So I'm just going to stay home and be a mommy! As far as pregnancy related stuff, I've gained about 20lbs, which I'm not thrilled with, but can't do anything about it right now....I figure, you gotta take the bad with the good, right? I haven't had any problems other than chronic fatigue and the urgent need to constantly use the bathroom. I am starting to suffer from boughts of insomnia though. I go to the doctor on tuesday and hopefully get some lab work done at the Center. We borrowed a fetal heart doppler from a co-worker of my husband's and I just love sitting and listening to Nick's heartbeat and hearing/feeling him moving around. That is something I can never get tired of, I say that now right?? lol Well, I guess I've rambled on long enough...I'm posting pictures in the picture section to share.

I had my baby's first picture taken today :-) Though mind you, she looked like a gray mass in the shape of a bean. It was very surreal. It was like wow, that is actually growing inside of me! I am 10 weeks and 6 days according the the ultrasound. My OB thought I would be almost 12-13 weeks by now. I was suppose to be able to have the 1st trimester screening done to detect for down's syndrome, but I am not far along enough yet. So I get to go back on August 13th for another ultrasound...which I don't mind at all :-) When I go back, I'll be 12 weeks and 3 days. My due date is Feburary 22nd. I've gained about 2-4 lbs so far. The scales bounce up and down horribly! My size 14s are really uncomfortable and have since pulled out my 16s and 18s. Thank goodness I held onto them! I don't have any work clothes in those sizes though so I had to go buy some things. This weekend is the tax free weekend so I might go get a couple more outfits that I feel comfortable wearing. I'm at the point where I can't stand anything to touch me. Thankfully the nauseous went away a few weeks ago, though since then, I have been eating everything in sight. All I have really been wanting is ceral with milk. Special K makes a protein plus cereal which is pretty good and probably the healthiest of all cereals and it has 10 grams of protein per 3/4 c. Which when you eat with milk, it goes straight through you. I usually add a banana. At any rate, I stay in a perpetual state of sleepiness. When I'm not at work, I'm usually asleep. I even come home on my lunch hour to take a 20-30 minute nap. Come home at the end of the day and sleep for 2-3 more hours and then sleep all night with the exception of getting up every 2 hours to pee. I'm hoping that I'll get my energy back in the next couple of weeks and start exercising again. I feel like the biggest sloth ever b/c I'm too tired to exercise. But then I think, I'm growing a human being and I go into this state of wonderment and amazement and giddiness almost and feel better instantly. I think of the love I feel already for her. I'm really wanting a girl so maybe if I go ahead and give it a gender, it will be what I want hahaha. Darren and I have already decided on names too... Madeline Marie if she is a girl and Nicholas Lee if she is a boy lol. We decided to stick with the first names that we both liked and agreed upon instead of just dwelling on it for the next 6 + months. Well.... I think that is it as for an update. As soon as I can figure out a way to get the ultrasound pics online, I'll post those.

Long time, no update......shame on me!

Well...I surpassed my year mark and have lost 178lbs. I met my goal to be below 200lbs and now weigh 188lbs! Wow, I've lost almost as much as I weigh! However, the weightloss has certainly slowed down. I've only lost 8lbs since March 29th. I guess it is just as well because of the biggest wow moment I have yet to experience - I'm PREGNANT! Holy Moly is all I can say! I just found out yesterday...what a great Father's Day gift huh? Nothing has been medically confirmed yet...but 3 positive preggy tests must mean something right?...surely they aren't false positives?? At any rate, I'm really excited, scared, nervous, and still astonished really...I'm gonna be a mommy! Who'da thunk it!?! I'm so worried that I'm going to gain a ton of weight. I can eat so much more than what I was...which I just noticed these past couple of weeks. I don't know if it could be related to pregnancy horomones or if I've stretched out my stomach??? This pregnancy was certainly a surprise. My husband and I "tried" in March to no avail, but I got a new job in April so I decided to put it off until the end of the summer (August/September) so that I could get my FMLA benefits....well it looks like God had a different plan! I don't know what I'm going to do without those benefits...but that is something to worry about later on down the road I suppose.  I know it is way early in the pregnancy and anything can happen, heaven forbid. I have told everyone I know and everyone is so happy and excited...everyone wants me to have a girl... lol  I guess we'll find out in 9 months!

188lbs...

oh my freakin' goodness is all I can say! My BMI is in the 20's!! -barely, but there lol

Monday evening, after my workout at the gym, I hopped on the gym's scales.. the dang thing said 190lbs!!!! I was like what the heck?? They're always off, but usually weighs you more than your actual weight (I have been teetering b/w 193-195 since the end of March) I had just weighed myself that morning and the scale at home said 194. So I go home to see what MY scale says (yes, I'm pretty obsessive with weighing myself, I know I know... I drive myself batty with it!).... 189.. and this is in the evening.. so I actually LOST a pound throughout the day... that has NEVER happened ... that I have known of at least lol So, yesterday morning, I hop on the scale thinking that yesterday I was probably just wanting and wishing so hard, to weigh less than 190lbs that I actually saw what I wanted on the scale (silly huh?).... well NOPE, the scale said 188lbs! I never imagined in a million years that I'd see the 180s...I was ecstatic to be less than 200. I don't understand it ... because I have had a horrible time with food choices and getting water in for the past week and a half. But I'm getting back into a routine...at least I'm trying to establish a new one. I just started a new job and it has been hard finding my routine of doing things. Oh well... I'm a little frustrated right now with my class I'm taking for my Master's. I was only taking classes because I was really bored at my other job and used my off time at work (which was a lot) for homework and such. It is an online class so it is very convenient. Now that I have the other job that keeps me busier, I have no time to really devote to the class now. Secondly, the field I chose to study does not appeal to me in the least! I'm just not interested; therefore, I'm not motivated to do the work. I do the work...but it isn't my 100% best effort. Now , my professor just emailed me and the last test I just took last week wasn't submitted properly due to technical difficulties. It was even graded through the computer (I made a 45 out of 50) So tonight, that is what I will be doing.. taking another test (I hope it is the same questions) and then completing the weekly assignment for the course... urgh!!!

These wow moments happened last week, almost a year after RNY - I think these have been the most significant of all in the past year.

wow moment 1 - I hadn't seen my mother in a about two months (even though we live just 2 miles from each other!). She works 3rd shift at a local pharmacy which the shift makes it difficult to spend time with her. Anyways, April 5th was her birthday so I wanted to get her bday gift to her. So, I decided to take it to her at work. I didn't see her in the store so I asked her to be paged. As she was walking from the back of the store to the front, I started waving to her....she was squinting to see who it was and had this look of "who the heck are you" on her face. She did this until she got about 10 feet from me and said "OH MY GOD" and had the most shocked expression on her face. Her reaction to seeing me was absolutely priceless. My own mother didn't even recognize me! The whole transformation is truly amazing. I remember pre-weight loss surgery, when I lost 10-15lbs... no one could even tell. I had only lost maybe 10-15lbs in those two months I didn't see her...and she didn't recognize me! Also, I suppose this goes to show you that even though you may not be losing pounds, you're probably losing inches!

Wow moment 2 - Not really a wow moment, but I have to share! The next morning, after wow moment 1, my husband came home from work (He works third shift too) to find me standing in the kitchen getting my vitamins and protein drink for the morning. Of course, I am still in my pajamas which are incredibly baggy....so he is looking at me, eyeing my cheek bones jutting out and my super defined collar bones and how my pjs are just haning on me and exclaims "You're so scrawny!!" I laughed so hard! Me???....scrawny???? (definitely an oxymoron there!) I am just now kinda sorta getting accustomed to the word "skinny" now.... scrawny!! HA!

Wow moment 3 - The NEXT day after I was called scrawny by my DH, I decided to go shopping. Plus I needed some nice pants for my new job. Well, I was in Dillard's looking through the clearance racks in the "Woman's" department and a sales lady approached me and asked me if there was anything she could help me with. I politely said no thanks and told her I was just looking for some business attire. She looked at me like I was a little crazy and then asked me if I realized I was in the Plus Sizes.... I was kind of taken aback and a little confused, because I've had the same situation happen to me in the "skinny peoples" section and I thought maybe they had rearranged or something LOL so anyways,  I thought she was kidding with me. But I told her yes I realized that and told her I've always shopped in the Plus Sizes. Her eyes got big and she said, you LOOK too small to be shopping in Plus Sizes...and went on to say that she just wanted to make sure I was in the right department. OH MY GOODNESS, I almost started bawling right there in Dillard's. I did get tears in my eyes, but I didn't want to look like an idiot crying in the middle of Dillard's LOL But this moment has meant more to me than any other wow moment... I felt I finally accomplished the biggest task I have ever had in my ENTIRE life. It was a feeling of "I did it!" The best feeling EVER!

went fantastic!!!

Dr. Houston was really happy for me and kept telling me that I had done an excellent job losing weight. I asked if I should keep an "official" goal in mind. He said that it could be whatever I want it to be... that he wouldn't give me an exact number. My jaw hit the floor. At first he said 150 and I gave him the "are you out of your mind" look. He said that if I continued to do what I'm doing that I would easily lose 20-25 more pounds though. (easily??? yeah right! lol) Anyways, he said if I didn't lose another pound that he considered me a success. Again, my jaw hit the floor. That just really made my day, week, year, life! I have been morbidly obese all my life (I still am though.. just obese) and I am... just at a loss for words. From 366 to 196.....wow is all I can say. AND I'm not even officially a year out!! How crazy is that??!!

I asked about pregnancy... he said it would be ok to do so now if I wanted but advised waiting 3-6 months to be sure my weight stablilizes... so I am VERY excited to hear that. I'm going to give myself 3 months to lose 20lbs and then start lots of baby dancing

There is a recent picture of me in my profile - taken this past Saturday. I hardly recognize myself.

Yayy!! No more commuting to Nashville, no more sitting in traffic, no more road rage... I've gotten what I've been wanting. A job in Springfield. I'll be a CSR (customer service) at a local bank. The pay is about the same, I'll be saving money on gas and wear and tear on my pretty new car. Plus, I will have more opportunities for raises and I will act as a floater so I will be able to learn more than just my position. I'll miss the park, but it is time for me to move on. Plus, I will still have my state holidays off and two more hours of daylight in the evenings. Also, this means I have to wear nice, professional looking clothes...which I don't have! So....another shopping trip for me!

The scale is sitting at 197 while naked. The elusive onderland has been achieved. It was first noted by my gyno on March 14th... I haven't lost a pound since! I've gotten a lot more comments on how small I am.. me.. small?? Sounds like a contradiction to me! Because of the new job, I had to change my one year appointment. I didn't feel right taking off a half of day during my first week. So my one year appointment is now March 29th. Two weeks before my actual one year mark..which is okay with me because I haven't seen my surgeon since December 7th for my post gallbladder checkup.

from the bathroom scale

My ultimate weight loss goal.... to weigh less than 200lbs. Onderland. The scale has been teasing and taunting me with this for a couple of days now...the needle idly sitting on the 200 mark....UGH. I'll get there though!!

Well, it is finally Friday! The weather is gorgeous which I'm absolutely lovin' but by golly my booty hurts! I don't know what I've done this past week, but I can hardly stand up without flinching in pain. It has been like this for days! The weather has been so nice this past week that I've spent my lunch hour walking around the park and up to the capitol building TWICE...That is a little over two miles. Maybe it is all the steps up to the capitol building??? I should probably count them while on my walk today. At any rate, the scale finally moved for me a few days ago... down to 203-204 (I can't ever tell because I have a dial scale and the needle bounces a lot between the two) Just a few more pounds to onderland. My one year surgiversary March 8th appointment was rescheduled to April 12th which is my actual one year surgiversary. I think I had been stressing myself to reach the goal I wanted to be at my one year appointment (under 200)...which then was March 8th and would have put me actually a few days before my 11 month mark. So.... I was stressing about making my one year goal by 11 month surgiversary.... am I nut or what?? Sunday I will be taking my 11 month pictures and will post my "official" weight and measurements then. I doubt I'll see much of a difference in the photo...my clothes fit the same...maybe a tad bit looser. Well, I guess that is all for now. Until next time...skinny wishes to you all :-)

Well....my stupid weight loss isn't going anywhere and I'm way too close to my doc appointment to be experiencing a stall....  very frustrating. The weight has been bouncing back and forth too..between 207 and 210...but that is my fault, too many carbs these last few weeks, but I've been back "on track" for the past week or so and working out faithfully...still no budge on the scale. I took a couple days off from working out thinking it might trick my body... I don't know if it will work or not. It worked in the past. I go back to the gym tonight. I'm very anxious to break the 200 lb mark by March 8th... that is 3 weeks away!