My hands Are Tied......
Jan 20, 2007
I Don't Know What To Do....
Jan 03, 2007
It's Almost Over.....
Dec 31, 2006
Dec 18, 2006
Nov 25, 2006
Lord, please let the insurance company make a swift decision, and the right decision for me. Amen!!
Busy, Busy, Busy!!
Nov 13, 2006
So, the past week or so I have been BUSY! Running around digging up records and such forthe surgeons office. The bariatric coordinator did not seem to optimistic of my chances with the insurance company, but with the extra things I sent, it's looking better. She is supposed to call me today or tomorrow with an appointment for a consult FINALLY!! They won't even give you a consult at this office now unless you've already jumped through the hoops. I don't know why, shouldn't be any skin off their teeth if I want to pay for a consult. I guess that with all the requirements changing, and insurance companies getting tougher about approving, they figure to save some grief. I don't think that they are helping by not giving a patient a consult with a surgeon. I might be feeling alot better at this point had I already recieved a consult. Kinda makes me feel like they don't want to fool with it, you know?
So, on the home front, things are going OK. Dusten is working, and I'm just waiting for my job to play out. I may have found some under the table work to tie me over while looking for a job. Not sure on that one yet. I REALLY hate coming to work these days. I have NOTHING to do, and time drags by.
They have alotted all my duties to other people here now, so I pretty much play on the net all day now. It just sucks to be here! I know I'm getting paid to sit here, but I'd rather not. I think they thought if they did it this way, I'd just quit and they wouldn't have to pay severance. Whatever! I'll sleep at this desk before I'll quit! They'll never be able to say that!!
Tomorrow is Another Day!
Nov 01, 2006
I woke up this morning in a great mood. He heard!! I felt at peace with everything, actually felt better than I have in a long time. I decided before I even got out of bed that I will do this! I will get approved and I will have this surgery!!
So today, I have been on the phone with my mom and my friends. I have them thinking hard about anything I may have missed as far as records, diets pictures, etc. I took a form to my PCP that Michelle at Cahaba Valley recommended I have in the packet they submit to my insurance. I have been productive!
I'm not letting this get me down. I won't let it get the best of me. I WILL BE APPROVED!!!!
5 years of Medical History???
Oct 31, 2006
I'm so upset and frustrated and disappointed! I can't even get a consult! The scheduler at the dr I have chosen doesn't think I have done enough to get my surgery approved, so she won't even schedule a consult. I guess it's a waste of their time to give me consult. I have done as much as I can do. The problem? I don't have 5 years of MEDICALLY documented morbid obesity. I have been morbidly obese since I was 30 years old, and bese ALL my life. I can provide a picture for every year of my life to prove it. But because I haven't had any health problems before now, I can't have the surgery. There were times when I should have seen a dr, but guess what? I didn't have insurance and I'm a single mom. I'm the sole provider in my household. I could not afford to be sick. If I was, I suffered through it with whatever I could get cheap over the counter. I had my PAPs done at the county health department, but tere was 2 years taht I missed them. Stupid, I know. But I wasn't taking care of me, I was raising my child. I still am, but I'm at a point where I need some care. I can't just go on a diet and lose weight. I've tried. I'm just so down right now, I'm almost ready to give up. But I'm losing my job, and do you know how hard it is for an obese person to find a job? No matter how qualified, or how many good references, people still look at you and see a fat lazy person. What am I to do? I just don't know anymore.
I've racked my brain all day today trying to think of something I may have missed that might help. I'm drawing a blank!
Happy Birthday to me?
Oct 22, 2006
She informed me that it was already planned and everyone knew and that I should bring "that salad you make, you know that one I like". Crap and double crap! Of course I had to give in, she's my grandmother after all. I did refuse to make "that salad", and I pulled the "it's my birthday" card to get out of it. And I did.
So I got up and rushed around in order to drive 30 mins to my dads' (which happens to be the ONLY reason I caved) for the birthday party I didn't want. And then I let everyone have it. I went on a tirade that would have made my mom proud(she and my dad are divorced). I really shouldn't have I know. They meant well. But the point is, NO ONE asked ME what I wanted to do for MY birthday. They just assumed, and we all know what happens when you assume! I didn't apolodize and I'm not going to.
So, after Dusten and I came home, his dad calls me and starts in on how he's grounding Dusten because someone sai he was cutting donuts in his wifes' moms' car. Well, since the only place Dusten went yesterday was to school to get on the bus to go to competion, AND he went in my car, he couldn't have done what he was accused of. So I let the ex have it too! It was MY day to tell eveyone off. And I feel better now.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!
P.S. I just noticed that I've been a member for exactly 1 year today! I didn't realize that I joined on my birthday, but I did know that I'd made my mind up more than a year ago!
I Don't Think I'm Crazy...........
Oct 18, 2006
I have been so excited by the thought of being thin for the first time in my life. Not even thin, just normal. I'd love to know what it's like to say "I have got to lose 20 pounds!" instead of 120. Normal. Wow. I do wonder though, will the effects of this disease last forever? Will I always be tugging on my shirt to hide my belly? Will I make sure no one's looking when I have to tie my shoes? Will I ever wear a sleeveless shirt?
I think my Mom is as excited as I am She has a friend that works with her who had WLS 2 years ago. The friend is doing just great and has lost a lot of weight. That's why my mom has been so supportive. She's not scared of the surgery because she's already been around it. She's been great and I thank God for her everyday. She will be by my side through every step. She is my rock.