13 months out

Dec 20, 2008

Haven't posted in a while. So long that I had no idea OH had changed it's site. Kinda cool. More contemporary. I like it. Still finding my way around.  If they could just make putting an avatar up a little easier I'd be thrilled.

Well this week was amazing. I hit 170lbs.  That means about 115lbs of weight loss for me in 13 months. Whoa. When I write it it seems amazing.  I took some pics of me this week at my son's Christmas program and couldn't believe what I saw. I am thin. People at work cannot believe how I look. They keep asking me if I am still losing.  I haven't FELT this good in over 15 years.  I finally feel in control of my body and my food choices. It's such a blessing.

We are going through a lot of stress, family, financial and other.  Don't need to go into details but considering all the stress I am under I find myself quite happy. I couldn't really put my finger on why. Then it hit me. This is the first Christmas where I have felt good physically and can really keep up with life and my kids. My house is still a mess but I can keep going day to day. I am not wracked with pain, I can breathe.  I have energy. I am not consumed by my cravings or compulsion to eat. That's why I'm so happy.  I have my body back.

Now with that realization and the contentment that I feel with my new body is the very real fear that it might come back. Cuz, it always did in the past. There are things I could be doing better, including more exercise.  Whenever I do walk, I lose. It's pretty cool.  But it's a challenge with a 3 yr old in tow every day.  But I do make an effort and hubby is really supportive.  I have good habits, but the sugar demons are around all the time.  I need to eat more fruits and veggies. I need to slow down a lot still. But overall this surgery has been a major gift to myself. I am so happy I did it. 

Merry Christmas everyone.  If you are reading this and want to ask me anything about the surgery feel free to email me.

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