Hi my name is Jennifer.  I am a 34 yr old engaged mom of 3 beautiful children. My whole life before I graduated from high school, I was always tiny. I had the body that a lot of people wanted to have. I was a size 5 when I graduated in 1995. Then I moved out of my parents' home, and realized that there is more to life than eating a balanced meal. I discovered I loved JUNK food, McDonald's, Burger King, etc... I always thought that salads were for rabbits (Afterall, I'm not a rabbit right?). Well I was wrong. I also got raped on my 21st brithday (which contributed to the PTSD).  I ballooned up to 145 lbs when my oldest child was born, then got sick with my middle child (I weighted 175 when I got pregnant) and went down to 127lbs after all the pregnancy weight was off. Then I met Mr I thought was Right, and he took me out all the time to eat, and eat, and eat, and eat...Until I was 250lbs BEFORE I got pregnant with our son. I lost some weight during the pregnancy, then regained it toward the end.
I hated myself for being that heavy. I don't feel that I have any excuse for being like that. I felt like I was alone in all of this. My exhusband and friends didnt see me as needing this surgery. I did feel I needed it. I felt the weight in my bones, joints,lungs, feet, head, every inch of my body and being. I didnt even have the energy to get up and do the littlest things for myself. I have bipolar disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, chronic depression, generalized anxiety...Which I felt most would go away if I lost the weight.

I came on here looking for support..And hopefully make some new friends along this journey of a lifetime...I just want to be me again..a healthier, more "together" ME!! The kind of ME that runs with the kids, looks good to her husband to be, and feels good about herself again..

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