oh, it's been so long since i've written!

Jun 09, 2011

June 9, 2011

It's been so long since I've written, but here I am -- still alive and still much smaller than I was just 10 months ago.  I think I stopped losing weight a couple of months ago.  I don't know; I am not as obsessive about weighing myself.  All I know is that last night I wore a size 10 jeans and got lots of complement.  

I still haven't bought a lot of new clothes, so when I wear something a little more snug on my body, I do get lot of comments.

I remember right before my surgery and right after my surgery I was on this website ALL THE TIME.  I wondered if I was going to die, what the hell was I doing, was I losing weight fast enough -- the whole thing.  And WHERE, I wondered, WERE ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAD HAD THE SURGERY?  

And the truth is, in my experience, that we become less obsessed with this website because we are off, indeed, living our lives.  The whole surgery things is not, as it turns out, as dramatic as we all think it will be.  We find out what we can eat, what we can't eat, and how much we can eat without feeling ill and then we move on.  We go about our lives because the only thing that has changed, really, is the size of our stomach and what we can eat and how much.  We're probaly more hyper-aware about food than we have ever been, but that's a good thing. 

I'm still thrilled (and I know I'm still in the "honey-moon" phase, that I had the surgery.  I can now catch up to my running kids: I can sit in chairs with confidence, I can do things like horseback ride or skydive or sleep on a bunk without too much fear of the weight limits... I can take pictures with my kids and not be so self-conscious about it.

it's all good. 

The only thing that I am still trying to figure out is my clothing size -- somewhere in between 10 and 14.  

I like eating healthier things and not being able to eat sugar.  And I like passing my knowledge of healthier eating onto my kids.  I think that's been the best part of the whole thing.















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