Scary 12 Days to go so much stress!

Jul 07, 2010

I am convinced this pre-op diet is killing me. I am battling some major head hunger. All I can think about is food and its tastes and textures! I was thrilled yesterday when I juiced 3 sticks of celery, 1/4 of a beet added some onion salt and pepper then heated it up. You would have thought it was the most delicious thing on earth! I can't make food for my family otherwise I take a bite, chew it up then spit it out. I am sure you still get calories from it because I haven't lost any weight. That's right I am stuck at 309. But I also know that I am not getting in enough calories. I am hitting somewhere in the 700's when I need to be between 800 and 1000. I am sooooo sick of sweet protein drinks! We need to start making sugar free jello's that taste like real food without the calories, fats or carbs! I also need to find a tasteless protein powder that I can add to broth. NO MORE SWEETS!!! I was not a big sweets fan in the first place and now having it 5 to 6 meals out of my day ugh! Although I did come up with a real good smoothie tasting protein drink, but you can only have so many in a day! Another thing about this diet that is driving me nuts, I can't go, well you know... Yes I am taking my Benefiber and still nada and I swear it is part of my stall! I am ready to take a laxative.

I can't wait until my therapy appointment, but don't know if I'll be able to make it since we put all our money into this surgery so we are very behind on our bills. My brother in-law is probably going to be pissed when he gets here... We make his house payment and are a month behind. I feel guilty for wanting to take care of myself first for once and I keep wondering if I should just stop this whole thing and get caught up on the bills instead. I know my husband is stressed out but he to wants me healthy again. I think I am going to ask him again if we should go through with this and give him the option to back out... But will I if he does? I know our medical savings account will pay us back $1200 but when is the question... 

OK, OK so I have some major grammatical errors rather than my normally minimal mistakes, but I am rambling to get everything out so don't stress yourself out correcting it because I already know...LOL Ok so I couldn't help myself with the emiticon!

20 oz cup of crushed ice
Use a Blender/bullet to mix the ingredients below
8 oz of pomegranate Crystal light already made
1/4 tsp banana extract
1/4 tsp orange extract
1 rounded scoop of 100% Whey vanilla protein powder
You can also add your Benefiber to the ingredients if you want, I do!
Pour mix into 20oz cup and enjoy!

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