Meganlnewton
So, it's been a while.
Dec 22, 2010
I haven't been here in a while, things seemed to have gotten really crazy, but I have a calm morning, so I thought I'd update. Things with my weight loss have been going wonderful. I thought that losing 100lbs in a year would be amazing and I've lost 80lbs so far and it's been 6months since surgery.
Can i get a W.O.W. ?
That's how I felt anyway...shocked that I was able to do that when in the past, I've lost 10, 15, 20 lbs and then regained it all plus some... you all know the story and lived it too.
Anyways, I've had lots of wow moments and am really trying to focus on the wonderful assets of this. It's easy to get caught up in the "that person is losing so much more....waaaahhh" but I'm over half way to my goal and I'm able to run up my stairs - granted, I still get out of breathe, but i can *do* it, I could never do that before.
I always had to hold on the the railing and pull myself up basically.
I can now sit comfortably on the floor with my 2 year old and my legs don't fall sleep right away. I can get up with ease and crawl around on the floor.
I can sit in the drivers seat of the car without my belly hitting the steering wheel.
The seat beat doesn't cut into my neck and belly anymore.
I can cross my legs!
I can sit *Indian style*
I can carry my 35lbs 2 year old (he's tall and total muscle man) with EASE!
I can feel my hip bones
I can see *and* feel my neck ..what are they called? .. neck vanes? I don't know..those neck things... This is actually a big thing for me...strange you may think...and maybe, but I never felt/saw mine and now that I can it's amazing. See what thin people take for granted?
Granted my pants never seem to fit and always seem to fall off when I walk upstairs...heehee.. but with more weight loss and maybe even a little..dare i say "plastic surgery" ... clothes will fit better and even if they never do, it's a small price to pay.
I still fear that I will regain ... does that fear ever go away? Maybe it shouldn't? Maybe it's a healthy fear that will keep me going and working at being healthy. Who knows.
I've already gained alot more confidence in myself and I know that will only improve. Losing the weight is really only one step in the whole process of taking care of yourself, getting to know who you really are as a person, and being happy with that person in the end. :)
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Can i get a W.O.W. ?
That's how I felt anyway...shocked that I was able to do that when in the past, I've lost 10, 15, 20 lbs and then regained it all plus some... you all know the story and lived it too.
Anyways, I've had lots of wow moments and am really trying to focus on the wonderful assets of this. It's easy to get caught up in the "that person is losing so much more....waaaahhh" but I'm over half way to my goal and I'm able to run up my stairs - granted, I still get out of breathe, but i can *do* it, I could never do that before.
I always had to hold on the the railing and pull myself up basically.
I can now sit comfortably on the floor with my 2 year old and my legs don't fall sleep right away. I can get up with ease and crawl around on the floor.
I can sit in the drivers seat of the car without my belly hitting the steering wheel.
The seat beat doesn't cut into my neck and belly anymore.
I can cross my legs!
I can sit *Indian style*
I can carry my 35lbs 2 year old (he's tall and total muscle man) with EASE!
I can feel my hip bones
I can see *and* feel my neck ..what are they called? .. neck vanes? I don't know..those neck things... This is actually a big thing for me...strange you may think...and maybe, but I never felt/saw mine and now that I can it's amazing. See what thin people take for granted?
Granted my pants never seem to fit and always seem to fall off when I walk upstairs...heehee.. but with more weight loss and maybe even a little..dare i say "plastic surgery" ... clothes will fit better and even if they never do, it's a small price to pay.
I still fear that I will regain ... does that fear ever go away? Maybe it shouldn't? Maybe it's a healthy fear that will keep me going and working at being healthy. Who knows.
I've already gained alot more confidence in myself and I know that will only improve. Losing the weight is really only one step in the whole process of taking care of yourself, getting to know who you really are as a person, and being happy with that person in the end. :)
June 5th UpDate
Jun 05, 2010
Everything is going so great! I've got my surgery date (June 22nd) and I start my liquid diet on the up coming Friday. I'm really excited to get started and start feeling better and losing wieght.
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Sleep Study
Feb 24, 2010
Good Morning Everyone,
I'm up early this morning and feeling a little better than most mornings. I had my sleep study done Monday night and was able to get my Cpap yesterday. Last night when really well, but I think I need a different mask. I think it's to big for my face, it goes up into my eyes and hang down so far on my lip that it's like my lip is up in the mask too. Lip is red and sore this morning...But they said if I have any problems I can work it out with them until I find what works best, so I'm not worried and just very happy to have the cpap. I know I will be getting much better sleep from now on. In other news, I also had my 3rd nut. visit on Monday as well, so I have one more nutritional visit and one more visit with a nurse to go over details of my hospital stay & meal plan, and then I'm looking at a surgery date of early May...unless someone cancels and I get to *slide* in earlier...wouldn't that be heavenly...:)
I'm off to take hubby to the denist
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I'm up early this morning and feeling a little better than most mornings. I had my sleep study done Monday night and was able to get my Cpap yesterday. Last night when really well, but I think I need a different mask. I think it's to big for my face, it goes up into my eyes and hang down so far on my lip that it's like my lip is up in the mask too. Lip is red and sore this morning...But they said if I have any problems I can work it out with them until I find what works best, so I'm not worried and just very happy to have the cpap. I know I will be getting much better sleep from now on. In other news, I also had my 3rd nut. visit on Monday as well, so I have one more nutritional visit and one more visit with a nurse to go over details of my hospital stay & meal plan, and then I'm looking at a surgery date of early May...unless someone cancels and I get to *slide* in earlier...wouldn't that be heavenly...:)
I'm off to take hubby to the denist
Another Day Almost Gone
Feb 15, 2010
Okay, so today was alright. My hubby son and I went to Duluth for my therapy appointment and then did some awesome 2nd hand shopping and found some good deals. Therapy went okay. I really feel comfortable with her...I've been seeing her for a year now (this month) and I think I've made some progress - well okay - alot of progress. After a year we are finally getting into the thick of it with why I came to her in the first place. Which is because I was raped when I was a child and I started having flashbacks as an adult. I don't remember all of it yet, but I guess that will come with time. I trust her and when she tells me I'm ready for the next step, I believe her.
My weight problems are tied into my past. I've heard that alot of children who are abused, end up overweight. It's a protection - a way to hide - a way not to be the center of any kind of attention, but negative attention which is what you think you deserved.
These sessions are bittersweet, i feel better talking with someone who really listens and care and has SOLID tools to help me solve my everyday problems - but these sessions also bring up feelings that I buried so deep that I didn't even know I had them. It's uncomfortable to feel those thoughts and feelings. Uncomfortable. Sick. kinda like ... I'm going to throw up and all you want to do is sip water until the feeling goes away. But... Dr. Dee...darn her.... won't let that happen.... let the feelings go away... she says " You have to feel, to Heal" and she's right, but on this side of the desk - it's just really hard...BUT .. I'm working on it.
Having WLS is also part of my process of healing. Of taking care of myself. Of my body. Losing the - blanket I've hid myself under all these years. I want it off. I want to heal. I want to be the person I was meant to be. I want to be an AMAZING mom - not just the mom that is "later sweetie, mommy is tired" I want to be the fun and creative soul mate to my husband. I want to smile. I want Joy. I want to FEEL GREAT. Losing weight is a huge step in making all of that come true. Not a magic pill of course - but nothing is.
I'm working hard now, I'll work hard after RNY.
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My weight problems are tied into my past. I've heard that alot of children who are abused, end up overweight. It's a protection - a way to hide - a way not to be the center of any kind of attention, but negative attention which is what you think you deserved.
These sessions are bittersweet, i feel better talking with someone who really listens and care and has SOLID tools to help me solve my everyday problems - but these sessions also bring up feelings that I buried so deep that I didn't even know I had them. It's uncomfortable to feel those thoughts and feelings. Uncomfortable. Sick. kinda like ... I'm going to throw up and all you want to do is sip water until the feeling goes away. But... Dr. Dee...darn her.... won't let that happen.... let the feelings go away... she says " You have to feel, to Heal" and she's right, but on this side of the desk - it's just really hard...BUT .. I'm working on it.
Having WLS is also part of my process of healing. Of taking care of myself. Of my body. Losing the - blanket I've hid myself under all these years. I want it off. I want to heal. I want to be the person I was meant to be. I want to be an AMAZING mom - not just the mom that is "later sweetie, mommy is tired" I want to be the fun and creative soul mate to my husband. I want to smile. I want Joy. I want to FEEL GREAT. Losing weight is a huge step in making all of that come true. Not a magic pill of course - but nothing is.
I'm working hard now, I'll work hard after RNY.
Nothing to Do with WLS :)
Feb 12, 2010
Okay, so this has nothing to do with WLS but I had to share... I just put my little man to sleep and he's so adorable! :) I know i'm his mother so i have to say that, but i just love that little kiddo. He curls right up into my neck and gives me goodnight hugs and kisses and i'm so proud he's my son. My husband and I took him out to dinner with us tonight and he was a little fart and wouldn't eat...keep trying to climb on the table...all the time trying - flirting with all the ladies that came by our table. heehee.. then we headed over to target and he took off running away from daddy... (i slowly followed with the cart, trying not to laugh) Xavier dodged in and out of the check out lanes as my husbands tried his best to get him. Xavier giggling the whole time. Greg puts him in the cart about 5 mins later and Xavier is turning red cause the little 1 1/2 year old body of his is giggling so hard. He loves his daddy...:) anyways.....
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Quick Update
Feb 03, 2010
I"m really excited; I called my insurance lady to find out about whether or not i would be losing insurance April 1 and YAHOOooo - I'm not. I was so relived. I still have 2 more nutritional visits to finish up - one this month--one next month-- and then i should be done and we can send off for approval... I'm very excited to get all of this going. I hate the wait wait wait...but i guess it's all part of it.
Hope you all have a GREAT day
-M
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Hope you all have a GREAT day
-M
New Here
Jan 24, 2010
Thought I would start off by saying I'm new here and just trying to get my feet in the water. I'm in the process of getting approval for RNY. I've very excited and I just want my surgery date to be here!! :) I've got a lot of pounds to lose and I'm very ready to have this burden of extra wight off my shoulders.. literally. Feel free to send me a message and tell me your story. I love hearing how differnt ones have gotten here or how well they are doing after there surgeries
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