Melissa20
My name is Melissa I'am 25 years I 'am happly married, My husband and I have been together for 8 whole year and married for all most 2 years lets just say we took our time. I have two kids a husky named baby and a min pin named ray. I'am new at this, but not new at being fat I'am 5'3 and 368 I guess I've always been fatter than any of my friends but that never really made a differance to any of us. Time has change now that I'am older I don't have very many friends, I belive it's due to my weight, my husband and I spend most our time together, it's nice but sometimes it would be nice to get away. There is so much that I would love to do but my weight holds me back but I know one day I will be out in the world and not home alone. I'am working on getting the insurance that I need to have the surgry I 'am hopeing to have the lap band. I have heard that it is just as good as the gastric bypass.
1/11/07
Getting out of bed sometimes is the hardest thing to do at times I just wanna lay there and waller in my pitty. Do I really have anything to look forward to today. I have truly tried to lose weight but having people stare at you when you go to work out our laugh behind your back just makes you wanna get a gallon of ice cream and and pig out.. I belive that things will get better but not without the lap band. It makes me mad that I have come to depend on this lap band. Why coulnt I have just stoped eating and start walking, there are so many things that I have done or didnt do that I dont understand. I will never give up on myself and my family will never give up on me. I WILL FIGHT BACK....
1/13/07
It's the weekend and like every weekend I'am at home. I 'am really missing home witch is in Oregon I lived there for 11 years that's where my home is that's where my friends are thats where my life is. I' am trying to find a support group to start but not sure where to find on at. Today is wounderful becouse I'am alive..
1/15/07
Today has started pretty good I'am still waiting to hear from the insurance company. I went through this about a year ago. I went in to see about the surgry and ended up finding that I had a 15 pound ovarien(bad speller) cyst the doctor wanted to do both surgrys at once but the cyst began to twist cutting off blood to it and I was in sooooo much pain I went from walking to a wheelchair in a week and the pain meds they gave me did nothing so they went in and took the cyst out. By the time I recovered from that the insurance told me they had just changed there coverage and no longer offered the gastric bypass so I have been on a quest to find the right insurance and I hope I did...
1/16/07
Today has been pretty good. I just found out that my brother John has to have the gastric bypass, he has a problem with his knee and the dr told him they would not do surgry on his knee intill he had the gastric bypass he really dosnt wont the surgry but he is very overweight and needs it. As for me well still waiting on my letter. Hope everyone is good and god bless.
1/17/07
I have been busy today trying to help my brother find a insurance that will take him so far nothing but we will keep trying. I really hope he can get this done he needs it just as bad as I do. I've been in a good mood today, well I slept really good last night and latly I havn't been slepping well at all so last night was nice. I 'am still waiting I hope all is good for everyone.. Have a good day.
1/18/07
Not much going on just working. I have been trying to stay away from fast food so far I have done ok. Just wanted to say hope all is well.
1/19/07
I put some pitchers on here hope u like. Just a lazy day.
1/22/07
It's been a few days. I had a some what of a busy weekend. I got my insurance papers back, I forgot to fill out a part of the applacation so I faxed it back to them this morning. Lets pray they say yesssssssss...Hope ya'll have a great day.
1/29/07
Well I now have insuransce, Next step is to get all my paper work in and see if they will aprove me for the lap band, they do cover the surgry lets hope it's my turn..
1/31/07
I'am not sure if I'am aproved yet I have to do my paper work, If I 'am aproved then I might have to wait six months before I can have the surgry but waiting six months compared to the time I have waited so far is nothing. I'am nerves about the whole thing but I know that the good lord is hear for me.
2/2/07
The last few days have not been good for me I think I'am depresed I have had a hard time sleeping and I have been in a bad/sad mood. I just think that with everything my mind is going crazy. I will try to be happy and not think about the bad... I will be ok.
2/5/07
I found out that I have to wait 6 months before I can even start seeing my dr's Really 6 months will go by so fast it's just that I waited so long as it is. I dont know how much longer I can wait.This sucks!!!
2/14/07
Happy V day everyone. It's been awhile but I have had a lot going on, I went and took myt test for college and I past yayaaaa for me. I'am going for medical billing and coading. Well I cancelled my health insurance becouse they tried to charge me $650 fo one month and I can't affored that. Well have a nice day.
2/22/07
I know it has been awhile but things arnt going my way, I had to cancell my insurance becouse they tried to srew me over and I'am not made out of $$$$ I don't know what to do I need help and don't know what to do are if there is anything that I can do.. I was told a week ago that if I did'nt lose my weight that I would never have babys, and I have allways wanted to be a mom I dream about it all the time. I hate myself and what I have become.. I tryed cleaning my kitchen a couple of day ago and my chest started hurting me I dont know what was going on but I ended up stoping. What do I do. Is there hope for me. I hate myself, how could I do this to myself..
2/28/07
I'am still having trouble, I still have no insurance and I will never have the $ to pay for it my self. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. If anyone has any idea please let me know. I'am stuck and can't go any where.. I'am tired of crying and being mad...... HELP
5/20/07
It's been awhile, i have yet to get insurance but i will have it in aug, yahhhhh let's just hope that thay cover the lap band I just wanted to say hello...
5/28/07
HAY TODAY IS A WOUNDERFUL DAY, WE SHOULD ALL BE PROUD OF OUR TROOPS, AND EVERYONE THAT HAS EVER FOUGHT FOR US, I THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND GOD BLESS...
7/1/07
I know it's been awhile, things are ok. I'am still waiting for my husbands new insurance to kick in, i'm not sure what it will cover but i pray that it's good..
