July 27th, 2009

Jul 27, 2009

Just a quick update.  I don't know if I'll ever hit my goal of 150.  I bounced around at 155 for a week or so but now am maintaining at 157 or 158.  Seems to be the weight my body likes.  I continuously excercise and have re-introduced some carbs back into my diet.  That appears to be what works for me, keeping an even distribution of carbs/fat/protein.  Still live with the daily fear that I will wake up fat again.  No one seems to understand that this is a very real fear for me.  They laugh at it like I'm crazy.  I know I can't gain back 120 lbs over night but much like I never really saw the fat person in the mirror, I don't see the skinny one all the time now. 

Enough about downers.  I feel great.  I feel better then ever and will continue on my loss quest but have resigned to the fact that until my plastics, I will be this weight.  I'm thinking about getting a tummy tuck, lipo on my hips and lower back and breast implants.  That will be about another year out.  We need to get our home built first. 

On ward!  Life is good.

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