When one part of your life goes good....

Apr 19, 2011

Okay everyone says it but now I believe it.  I absolutely love my new boss.  He is so nice and considerate and well completely opposite from the last guy.  Hallelujah and amen . 

On a closer to home note my marriage of 5 years is ending and my father has become the biggest a$$ in Maryland.  My home life is falling apart and I don't know what to do.  If you don't know my husband and I both had the surgery.  I thought the experience would bring us closer together but it didn't.  My father had a VAD installed to keep his heart pumping and all he does is complain and yell.  Instead of trying to make the last years of his life pleasant and spent with the ones he loves he is pushing everyone away.  So much so that I can't stand being around him.  My mom watches my son during the day and he is so upset to be there with them plus all the changes with me and my husband.  My son's little  is broken and I can't seem to console him.

I wonder how common divorce is after this surgery?  Who knows.....the only thing I do know is I seriously need to see a therapist.  I feel like a robot - no emotions - no feeling - numb.  I suppose everything will work out in the end but right now I am going through the motions of life with no feeling.

Sorry to depress everyone I just needed to vent.....

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