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Right now I am having 2 issues: depression and hairloss

I have suffered from depression since the age of 13. After the surgery I was not depressed and was able to cut down my meds, and go off one all together. Last week was my mother's birthday and mother's day. A very sad time for me. I became very tired and depressed. This usually happens around this time. However, the more I think about it, the more I realized I might need to increase my antidepressant. Being in the Mental Health field, I have talked to many dr's about depression and medication after WLS. The first few weeks after surgery I did increase my dose, and it helped. I increased it because I have Trichotillomania. The increase helped stop my symptoms. Then I decreased my dose and was still doing fine. But I think I have to go back to the increased dose now.
The other issue that has me freaking out is hair loss. As I mentioned before I have Trich, and so at one time in my life I had very little hair. I can not go thru the trauma of being bald again. I have increased my protein and am taking biotin. Today a handful of hair accumulated at the end of my shower. Not happy at all about that. Hoping this ends in a few months and I still have enough hair!

 I am dreading going clothes shopping bc I don't know what will fit. I am so use to just going to my size. Now I have no idea what that is. Even though I am thrilled I am losing weight, I still think about all the weight I still have to lose. Then I am dreading the loose skin. Instead i should be happy bc I look better now than I did before.

So I was right, my gallbladder needs to be removed. I have sludge and small stones. Who would think this would happen after 9 weeks! Wish they just took it out when they did the bypass. I hate having to be under, I hate how that feels afterwards. I also hate the expense, even with insurance. So I am not a happy camper. Also hate taking time off from work, using vacation time, for surgery. In my line of work, vacation is for relaxation and to recharge, so I can deal with my clients. Grrr

I only lost a pound this week. I was disappointed. I then realized that I have to think about it differently. I lost 1 lb this week! It is better than a gain. I also understand that I will lose less now  on a weekly basis since I am 2 months post-op. I just feel that since I am eating very little and not on solids that I should be losing more. I just have to be patient with my body and remind myself that my body will lose what it wants to on its own terms as long as I stick with the food plan, which I have been. The response I have gotten from people has also been great.

I am finally really excited that I did this surgery. I weighed myself today and since, Jan 12th, I have lost 58 lbs! I have never lost more than 25 lbs before, so this is huge! Still adjusting to the diet, and for the last few days my craving of carbs has come up again, but I have resisted. Mainly because I can't eat bread again. My mood has also improved since I cut carbs as well. I am getting a little sad that my weightloss has slowed to 3 or 4 lbs a week. However, I have never lost 3 or 4 lbs a week consistently in my life, so I should be happy! Going to focus on Happiness!