2 months post op

May 25, 2009

Last week I finally started to feel better.  Partly because I received a lot of 'new' clothes from friends closets.  It is so nice to wear things that fit, that are different, a new girl kind of thing.  Another reason I feel better is that I actually DO feel....better.  I have energy.  I'm sleeping well.  My bowels move.  I don't feel so fragile.  It seems like for the longest time, I feel like I'm going to break apart.  Now  I feel strong. 
Eating and drinking are still an issue, I think.  I have been trying to log everything, but it is not an easy chore for me.  Don't get me wrong- I'm not overeating.  I'm UNDER eating.  I put protein first, but fill up so fast.  And drinking water is a lot of work.  I'm not starving, but it is hard to get it all in. 
I haven't been weighing myself at home, because my scale is old and weird, but also because I don't want to become weight obsessed.  I read a lot of posts here where people get very caught up in the scale.  Everybody is different, and I know that farther out I will monitor more closely, but right now, I know that I had weight loss surgery.  I am going to lose weight.  Those are two facts.  As long as I don't graze, or eat bad things, this will happen.
I am lucky that my surgeon is good for me mentally.  His advice has kept me grounded.  He wants his patients to live a normal live, to go on with living, not be tied down to a bunch of WLS regimens.  As long as I take my supplements and follow his directions, I think I will get there.
This has been not fun at all.  But maybe next post I will be peppier!  Right now I'm getting ready to move, and worried about money...that makes everything gloomier. 
But all in all...life is good!

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