February and self love is here! BUT I need a lil Help!

Feb 12, 2010

Hey everyone ,

Its Michelle--feeling like its time again to jot down my feelings for the month...time to check in!!  Hope you guyz are enjoying your New Year thus far..so far I am.........somewhat.  You see I am happy with my weight loss...I am hovering around 242-244, at my 3 month stall right now.  I was so happy to hit 240 at the end of  January, I just KNEW that February I would be knocking out the 230's -- NOT!!  Sigh,  so here's the stall , at the end of the month I had my (monthly--excuse me) which led me back to my old habits of u no it CHOCOLATE!  So that just put me back in Carb hell!  So here it is the second week of Feb and Im just NOW weaning myself off of them and refocusing again.  Back on the protein BANDWAGON!     All the while , I never stopped exercising!  Thank goodness!  BUT if I had kept eating right I know I would have met my goal of 235 by my sons birthday on 2/19/10!  LIFE!  Trying not to be hard on myself and look forward...but boy is it frustrating sometimes, ...and I am the most positive person I know!! LOL :) 

SO guys ,, please send some love and encouragement my way.... I am reaching out because I need it. ... I do keep in touch with my 3 sleeve sistas  and I am going to ask them to make me MORE accountable.  I feel like I shouldnt feel its ok to eat carbs when I havent met my goal yet...am I being too hard on myself...?  Im halfway to goal and pray to be at 170 by my birthday in August.  I know this is realistic and doable...I don't want to be skinny, I like my curves!  Just trimmer and healthier!

Feel free to share...I need something or someone to help me see the big picture again...all and all I am enjoying the journey , I Have more SELF LOVE THAN EVER BEFORE and have even begun to somewhat date again.  It feels nice.....

One love,
Michelle  

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