Michelle Ma Belle
Hi All ~
My name is Michelle and I am 26 years old (will be 27 on 9/11/05). I have struggled with obesity my entire life. I was put on a diet at 2 years of age. I, like many others on this site, have had to endure jokes, remarks, comments, laughs, and stares my entire life. At this point in the game, I just want to be healthy. I don't care if I end up a size 2 or a size 12, just as long as I'm healthy. Currently, I suffer from sleep apnea (very mild, but I still have it!), lower back pain, foot and heal pain, depression and social phobia (self diagnosed, of course). I have become a hermit just over the past year. It's all I can do to get to work everyday. I hate meeting new people, I hate being somewhere where teenagers might be (they can be SO CRUEL, can't they???), and I don't like to go somewhere with someone that can out-walk me. I just don't want to hold anyone up.
I don't feel like I'm 26, I feel like I'm 96 and I'm ready to feel 18 again! Seriously, I just want to feel good about myself...so, here I am on this journey. I was able to quit smoking on 7/10/05 and still want a cigarette, but haven't had one. I need to lose 20 pounds pre-op, but it's really hard. I'm low-carbing it, but I don't know if it's working. Maybe 10 pounds in 2 months...I really don't know because I don't own a scale. Perhaps I wouldn't be this heavy if I DID own one?????
I have a loving boyfriend of 2 years and a beautiful pug-chihuahua mix, Maggie that are BOTH very supportive...although Maggie is supportive of anything as long as she's getting treats and belly rubs! Well, my boyfriend too, for that matter!!! :)
Anyway, I have tried to journal some of the "important" days below. I'm not very good with keeping up with my profile. But, I am on the message boards a lot. It is such a blessing. I wouldn't be as confident in my decision if I didn't have the OH website. What a great group of people!!
Thank you for the support...
Michelle
