Emilie J.

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But, I am happy to say that even though I didn't follow my experiment to a T, I am minus 5 lbs :). I upped the protien (not enough) I drank water (not enough) and.....I did NOT exercise (poop). I got my labs back, and my vit B12 was low. Low. Low. 250. I was having symptoms (foggy brain, tingling hands, fatigue) and I have had about 5 days worth of B12 shots, and I really feel it!! I really do. I just feel better. Hard to pinpoint how exactly, but I just feel better. I had a long talk with Jackie, who listened to me whining about my weight loss compared to other peeps, got a nice, kind voice of reason (I'm only 7 months out, quit comparing myself to others, I'm not worried about you so why are you worried about you, et...) I felt alot better after crying on her shoulder. I feel good right now. I'm down to 285, haven't been there since Nursing School, for a total loss of 89lbs. Still finding wows and stuff to feel happy about :)

Okay peeps, feel free to follow my progress and comment, send prayers, kick me in the butt, whatever makes you happy :) Here's the scoop. I am unhappy with my progress. I feel like I am failing my surgery, I know I am doing things wrong, being a carbacholic, excuse me, is hostess pie part of my eating plan? No. Do I eat them anyways? Yup....So, today is day one of my experiment, which will last a week. These are the things I will be doing.

1. Keep the carbs very minimal, and ONLY complex carbs
2. Drink at least a gallon of water
3. Exercise every day for half an hour
4. Drink 3 protien shakes a day (which is almost 90 grams of protien)

I want to see first of all, how it will effect the scale, and second how I feel fatigue wise. Hopefully, in the meantime, I will get my lab results back, and know if I have an iron deficiency and/or b12, which I am really thinking I do. I will report every day, and at the end of the week, I will report how I feel physically, as well as my weight. Weight this morning was 290.8. Grrrrrr...the other day I was minus the 8oz, but I think that can be contributed to wearing my glasses and underwear. So, wish me luck!!!! Off I go :)

I have to post some wows, because I have been in a slump, and not losing weight very quickly at all. I know I have some more, so I will make a list, if only to make me feel better :)

1. My ribs. I have ribs. I am ticklish, because there is no longer a 12 inch thick layer of blubber around them. My hubby tickles me constantly, which is very entertaining for him, and I put it up with it because....I have ribs!!

2. Um, I would like a BOOTH please. Yes, any booth, anywhere, no tables with hard uncomfy chairs for me!

3. Can we say 2X? Yeah baby. That's my shirt size.

4. Did I already put that I can cross my legs? Guess what? I can cross my legs.

5. I need new shoes, because I am flappin around in my old ones, maybe won't have to get size 10 E, but normal human size would be nice.

6. People are looking at me, stating "you've lost weight" Yup. sure have :)

I think that's all for now, that boosted my spirits. I am a big believer in listing your wows if you feel kind of sucky along the way :)

1. My hubby can put his arms all the way around me, I feel so small and cute!!!
2. I feel cute in my clothes for the first time in years.
3. People keep asking me if I got a haircut lol
4. One of the guys at work said "you are not as chubby, but you are still very cute" (he told me before he liked chubby girls)
5. All 3 of my boys can sit in the recliner with me, albeit a tight fit
6. I have FUN playing with my kids, and don't sit down after 2 minutes.
7. Got on top....if you know what I mean ;)
8. My hands are so pretty, I can see bones, not dimples
9. My seatbelt fits without stretching it to the max.
10. I have self confidence!! I feel good about myself!! I feel cute!!!

I had so much fun, for the first time in years. I went down a size in EVERYthing. Got the cutest chocolate suede coat with fur lining, new jeans, shirt, vest with a fur hood. Stuff my sister would wear. I'm so sick of looking like a warmed over house wife, frumpy and 40. I am 27, and I am going to start looking that way. I wear make up, I am getting some cute clothes, everyone is commenting how "skinny" I am looking. I am excited.

As far as how post op life is going, I am getting my vites in, but not enough protien. My hair is coming out quite a bit, but I have TONS of hair. I need to get my dang butt out there and exercise in the mornings. Being on the internet at midnight probably isn't helping. I need to drink more water. I just need to be more strict with myself, and that way I can get faster results, though I really do feel alot better :)

I have no regrets so far.

Not much to say other than that. It just cheers me up. And knowing I have a big ole box coming from vitalady with lots of protien samples also cheers me up, I am so stinkin tired of chocolate. This really gave me motivation. Go me lol.

I was 3 months out a few days ago, but oh well. I last weighed myself a couple of weeks ago, and had only lost 1 lb from the previous couple of weeks, so I was mad, and haven't weighed since then. Total weight loss since surgery is 51 lbs

I am a bit dissappointed and depressed. This has been difficult, handling my food addiction, and my carb craze. I need to do better, and I know I am not doing my best, and I am tired of being dissappointed in myself.

Last night I got my hair done, bought a LOT of makeup (when you are starting over, it costs alot!!), and a couple cute shirts. I am having some wows, I have more people telling me they can see the loss. I can fit into pants that I havent' fit into since 2007. I have lots more energy (though not as much as I would like). My fingers and face are noticeably skinnier.

I still feel like this is all surreal, I will be that one DS'r that will stop losing @ the 51 lb mark, and than gain it all back.

I have so many issues I am struggling with. Regret, guilt, shame......I know I will feel better soon, but right now I am just not feeling real good about myself.

Well, I lost 22 lbs in a 2 1/2 weeks, and than was readmitted 3 days after my first post op appt for kidney stones in both kidneys. It was one of the worst things I have ever been through. No wonder I have felt like melted crap on a hot sidewalk. I actually feel better now, even though I just surgery yesterday. Peeps, drink enough water. If you have more weight to lose, drink more than 8 glasses. Our fluffy selves need more watah.

Well, I had surgery 2 1/2 weeks ago. I went in today for my first check up. I have lost 22 lbs. I'm really thrilled about that. I wish my incision would close all of the way so I could go swimming, and I can't wait to have more energy, and to be able to eat again. I go back to work part time on Monday, nervous about that. All in all, can't complain, things have gone fairly well, and I am here.

Man. It has been a rough couple of weeks. After my decison at the beginning of June to change my surgery from a RNY to a DS, it has been non stop stress. Reading the boards like a mad woman, doing research like a mad woman, analyzing every single thing everyone said.....at the end of it all, there was no doubt in my mind that I made the right decision in choosing to have the DS. I was dreading the RNY the closer to my surgery it got, and I just felt this huge burden lift when I made up my mind to do the DS. After 3 consults, and 3 phone consultations I finally decided on Dr. Hares in Madison Heights MI. He is very well known, and only does DS, and revisions. I was so impressed by the caring, compassionate treatment I got. I really felt that they cared about ME, and who I was. I wasn't just another number for them to collect a copay and call it a day. Wow. I am so thrilled right now. My surgery is scheduled for July 20th. I have 4 Mondays to go!! Please, if you are the praying sort, prayers, I am very scared of leaving behind my husband and sweet little boys, and if you are not the praying type, send peaceful thoughts :)

Emilie