mimi4
November 2009
Nov 20, 2009
11/20/09Today is my 3 year bandiversary. Wow!! Its a great time to reflect. 3 years ago, I weighed 193 pounds. I wore a size 18 and XL (some XXL) tops. I was miserable, unhappy and wanted to hide from the world. I never looked at myself. I didn't want pictures taken of me. I felt terrible about myself and shut myself off from friends. I have 3 kids and I was afraid they were embarrassed by me. My beautiful sisters, niece and sister in law had WLS and I was watching them transform their bodies and soul. I wanted what they had so badly...not jealousy....ENVY. I was able to do it too! It has NOT been easy. I struggle almost every single day...STILL. It got easier but never easy. I continue to want to over eat. I continue to want to eat bad foods. I continue to be critical of myself. I know that I have come a long way. This journey will NEVER be over. I have exceeded my weight loss goal of 120-125 pounds by weighing 116 but I am not finished. Sure, I am finished losing weight... I am not finished in controlling my weight. I never will be. This is acceptance. Weight loss and eating right is a life long commitment. I used to just want to get to the finish line... I don't think that Finish line exists. Once I realized this and accepted it, it got easier somehow.
I looked over my original goals... and this is what I found:
Get rid of back fat, Have visible collar bones
Comfortable wearing a tank
Wear bathing suit without fear
Cross my legs comfortably
Bend over and time my shoes
Walk steps without being winded
Flip on the trampoline
Do a cartwheel
Take a family picture
Have my husband pick me up without grunting
See people from high school and not hide
Take a bubble bath
These goals seem so simple now. I just wanted to be NORMAL. I realize that these were not earth shattering goals but things that I was not able to do...things I wouldn't DREAM of doing. Needless to say, these goals have been met. I am now setting new goals for myself. Its amazing to me how we can take such simple things for granted when we have them and can do them but these simple things are HUGE when you can't.
Whether you are just beginning, in the middle or maintaining.... You can do it!! You really can! Take it one day at a time. Heck, sometimes it is one minute at a time... Everyone CAN be successful at this. I'm living proof. Good luck!!
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About Me
Florence, KY
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20.4
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Surgery
11/20/2006
Surgery Date
May 07, 2006
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