Minayun
I'm on my way to slimming down but what about my kids?
Aug 30, 2011
My whole weighloss journey is actually going pretty well and I'm starting to get into this new rhythm of eating. I'm curious to see what my weight will be next at my next appt with my surgeon which is 2 months ago. I won't be weighing myself before then unless I have to go to the doctor for anything else.So, the reason I'm feeling down today is because I was trying some clothes on my 6 year old daughter, for school and hardly any of the clothes fit her anymore. Last year they were all big on her. She is only 6 and she wears a 10/12 size. The worst part is that these are school uniforms and she HAS to wear them. School uniforms don't really look good on a thin child, much less someone who is over weight. I hate that my kids have to wear these uniforms. For my 9 year old son, it's so much easier with him wearing the uniforms but then again he's not over weight like his sister. I feel so sad inside because I love my daughter so much and I don't want to see her having a horrible childhood because she is constantly being made fun of or just for the fact that she could have all kinds of medical problems. Diabetes runs in both sides of the family and so does being overweight. I have to do something to help her before it's too late. When any of my kids ask for something to eat I always say yes and that's totally my fault. When I was young, my mom never bought food for the house. During summers we would be starving all day, just waiting for her to get off of work so we could go get our 1 meal a day, fast food. We were so damn hungry that eating that 1 meal felt like nothing. During school year, it was the same thing and we didn't get lunch money so we didn't eat all day. Not because she didn't have the money. I'll never know why that happened. But i'm not trying to make this post to be all about my past. What I was getting at is that my sister and I were constantly hungry and I hated that feeling. I told myself I would never deprive my kids from food. That I would always have food in the house, keeping it stocked at all time. I never want my kids to feel hunger. That's why it's so hard to tell my kids no. Especially when they cry. I feel like the most horrible mom in the world. My kids both told me before i got the surgery that they love me just the way I am and I definitely love my kids just the way they are but I had to change my life with this surgery so i can be healhier. I need to do the same with my kids. I need to help them be healhier and get more exercise. Please God, show me the way and give me the strenght to say no when it needs to be no. Please don't let my kids think I love them any less. It has to be tough love time.
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NC
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31.0
BMI
Surgery
07/26/2011
Surgery Date
Mar 03, 2011
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