The new Me

Jan 13, 2009

Well, with the new look for OH I too have changed and was not succesfyl un changing my photo so I will take a few new ones and past it in when I can... I have been at 130 pounds for the past two months and I still can't believe that I am this low! It is very hard work, I would do it all over again even with all the disconfort that I had the first 5 months of this journey.

I fianally went through all my large size cloths and gave them all away even some shoes that got to be two sizes too big. I did go out and get lots of winter cloths just after Christmas and had a blast shopping. Even my daughters noticed I was enjoying the shopping, something they have never seen in their entire life.

I am having problems with my intestines and bacteria build up. Quit painful!  I walk on an average 4 times a week for about 30-45 minutes.

I love the new me and I know that this tool was the best 50th birthday gift I could have given myself and my famiy.
Off to slumber land... 
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Thing Change

Sep 08, 2008

Summer went by fast and I keep thinking about the past year and how a year ago I could not wait until I had my WLS and told myself that I will be thin next summer. Well I got my wish. I am now 145 and loving it!

I am shedding as bad as that 2 cats and 2 dogs. THank goodness that I have enough hair for two and a half head; so I have been told. I have lost about half a head full and it has not slowed down. I started loosing my hair in June and it has been two months so hopefully it will last one more month.

I wear a size 12 on the bottom and medium on top. I notice that I walk anywhere with ease, cross my legs all the time, have more energy to do more and my chest has dropped to small something. The girls are going to need some work next year.

This eating very little fat I have muscles that are showing up on my belly and arms.

I have to get all new winter clothing but not sure what size I will be.
Can't wait until we get rain and cold weather.

Have to run,
THank you for reading

It happened

Jun 03, 2008

Today has to be the very best day so far. I looked cute in my new cloths and this time I really did!!!! The 50 pounds that are gone really show. I did eat more this past weekend.

It just happened that I felt as good as I looked today. I will take it cause know one knows what tomorrow will feel like. I am getting myself ready for this weekend and what happens happens.

George and Sarah will run and get me something to eat if do not like what I brought. One day at a time is all I can ask of myself. But the 40 hour three day work marathon this weekend will be a tough one that I will do.

But it finally happened. I felt really and truly pretty.

WHen will it improve

May 14, 2008

I guess I am losing my patiance! It is six weeks yesterday. I am still very tired or I think I am. I suddenly get this burst of feeling good like I did yesterday. I got home from work, Layed down for awhile and then got up and watered the plants in the back yard. Worked on the fountain that was not running and working on drinking my water.

WATER, WATER, WATER.... I really have to work on getting in the amount of water needed each day. It had improved and I notice if I do not drink my water then I feel light headed and dizzy.

I went to our support group this past weekend and it was a big help. I heard that I am not the only one that has not been able to eat anything at this stage of the game and that I need to get the medication to help my tummy feel less "sick". I got the meds on Monday afternoon and took it for dinner..which was chicken noodle soup...I am not a soup eater at all... went to work on Tuesday and took them fighting the urge to fall asleep. Feeling even worse then I did the day before due to being exhausted.... Today, I went to work, took my tummy mediaction and just felt like I was going to fall asleep at my meeting. I told my boss; who is a great guy and hopefully will forgive me for doing this right before one of the biggest events the city has.. came home took the meds before I eat lunch and read what the tiny yellow lables said on the bottle.... this medication may make you drowsy!!!! MAY, hell this stuff nocks me out. I took a nap and feel sooo much more refreshed.

It is VERY hot here in northern CALI. I will have to water the flowers later on this evening. I also have to go and get some new cloths... One would think that I would be very excited to get new pants! One would also think that I would be happy that I have lost all this weight in such a short time... All is in the attitude and my has been sucky wucky!!! I want to feel as good as the others in my group did at this time post op! I don't Not sure how to change it. We give advice but we never follow what we preach... I guess I better start.

I am happy that I have lost lots of FAT, i can bend over easier then before, I feel the bones on my face when I wash it, my cloths are hanging off of me, I have a leg that has lost it's puffiness, my butt does have bones on the sides and I am sure there is more.

Family: The girls and George have been great. They are always worried about me and let me be. They want me to take care of myself so that I can get back to my old self. Maybe I like not cooking dinner... actually cooking is something I am not sure I really miss. I am not sure what I can eat and have to start trying food to keep going. I will try and do this with out the tummy meds that is a perscription by the way. I also think that my new contacts are not helping with the dizzy stuff.

It will take more time then others, I have to work on my water which is most important!!!!! and start to eat to get my vitamins in and feel better. Start small. Take a whole afternoon to finish a protein shake... just finish it!!!!!
Do stuff downstairs to be with the family etc...
love yourself like other love me.... and never regret what I did for me!!! There will be a better day before I know it.. take one day at a time and no more not even with work... ask for help at work they are there for me and will help gladly!
Love you!!!!

5 WEEKS

May 05, 2008

I am still having a hard time eating and getting in the protein needed daily. I have tried new ways to get the protein but the whey powder is not liked my my pouch. I have low energy and just a blah attitude. I did get some anti depressants this past week and it should start to help in a few more weeks.
I have bad gas and a tummy that is always in "morning sickness" mode. I have lost 25 pounds and that is cool. Everyone says I look great, just wish I felt as good as they say I look. I tried on a pair of pants at the store the other day and was between an 16 and 18.. did not want to buy anything yet....

Just want to feel "normal" and start to get the energy back...
That is all for now..

Week Three

Apr 14, 2008

Today is the 3 week anniversary of WLS. It has been a challange for sure! I am still trying to eat stuff that is on the list of stage three and so far non of it taste good to me. I really have never been a soup person and the fish did not work.

Last week I tried some of the stuff that was on the list that I could try and it did not like me. I really upset and irritated my pouch. Got over that and then I hurt my back!!! Very painful. Still went to work because I have soo much work to take care of. Saturday I came down with a head cold! I did go and get a new protein supplement and so far so good. It is the the one from Trader Joes.... Sits well. I also can eat cottage cheese with apple sauce and yogurt. I can eat saltine crackers with thin slice of turkey. I have tired ricotta and mozzarella and that stays well too.

I have only thrown up once...but I do have the runs...rather when I do go it is very runny. I will tell Nurse Scroggie this week at my appointment. I also want to tell her that I can not stomach soups or fish. I think about them and get a sour tummy. I have also sent one of the friends for some advise on what else to eat to make sure that i get all the protein that i need each day.

Water is a hard thing to get in all 64 ounces in one day. I am getting about three water bottles worth.... It is also the only thing that I drink. Back to the bowl movement... is it normal to be runny..or watery? And dark green? I feel good and not so run down. I have not been able to officially walk the past 5 days due to feeling so sick to my tummy and then my back and now this cold. But is have managed to get some exercise in. My back is on the mend and my cold will be better.

I can not wait till I am able to eat stuff that is some what normal. I saw that the frozen turkey meatballs is something that looks good... I miss a fresh salad. Pork and chicken. Flavor. But I know that I am starting my 4th week and things take time...

I have to take time to let things heal proper. That is all for now..

OH yeah..
I have broken the 200 pound make for the first time in a few years. I also noticed that bones on my face when I wash it... strange...

Monday is the Day

Mar 22, 2008

I went this past Thursday to do all the Pre-admit stuff at the hospital. I also had to do a final weigh-in and I lost what Dr. Asbun asked me to lose.. it was not easy as I was not home all weekend. Either way I made it and now I am getting things ready for the next few weeks. I want to thank the may people who have helped the past few weeks with nice words, good advise and being a new friend. We will have great times together in our support groups. Instead of lunch we will be able to go cloths shopping....

I will check in when I get home and let you all know how my surgery day went....

Have wonderful Bunny day and keep doing what you all do best...lose!!

Mindy Fawn

PI re-Op Appointment

Mar 10, 2008

I go see Dr. Asbun for my pre-op appointment. I am scared that something will make him not let me have surgery on the 24th. I have not gained any weight so that is OK.
I also have had this horrible pain in my right knee that I know needs to have it fixed. I do walk the dogs to get some type of exercise. I have not been able to dance at my Tahitian dance class and I really miss dancing.

I finally sent an e-mail to my daddy and bother letting them know what I was doing and they both are very happy for me.. I was thinking that they would be totally against the WLS.

I am also feeling that I am fighting something else in my throat. I just got over the tonsil thing and my glands feel swollen!

Took more vitamin C and hope it passes me by..

take care everyone..I will write soon...

I will soon be a loser

Feb 22, 2008

I called the insurance company, rather the company that looks over the reports and approves you or not. I called on Wednesday to make sure that the report got to the correct department and it did. The lady asked why I was calling and I told her to see if I was approved or not... I WAS APPROVED and got the authorization number!!!!!
I quickly sent an e-mail to Anne at John Muir with the good news.

I have my date on March 18th. One day before I celebrate my 20th wedding anniversary. A month after my oldest daughter turns 18 (which is today)

I am very excited to finally have a date. Scared at the same time like all of us who make the decision to have WLS. I even have second guested my thoughts to have it done. Am I doing the correct thing. Is this something that I may mess up as the years pass. Then I am reviewing the situation..(sound like the old Oliver movie). I have noticed that I am making an unconsciously effort not to eat to the point of being stuffed I have been leaving more food on my plate then ever before.

Back to Sarah's 18th birthday. Something that at times makes the anxiety rise to to the point that I really can make myself worse then I am.... We went to dinner in San Francisco, House of Prime Rib. A wonderful place to celebrate with family and friends... I ordered the kings cut and came home with more then half of what was on the plate. I even ordered a dessert and took three bite and left it...

many mile stones this week. Sarah 18, getting her permit to drive... legally... Sammie is a happy camper and is a joy to be around again. She has such a wonderful sense of humor...

Well folks,
I need to check on the 15 kids that ( other 18 year olds) that are downstairs to wish Sarah a happy birthday...

Insurance companies

Feb 11, 2008

Why is it that all insurance companies have a problem locating things on one system!!!!
I called last week and found out that they did get the 25 page report from Anne and that it was still being reviewed... OK... glad that they got it..

Called this morning and the lady on the other line was looking at my account and she could not find a thing about the 25 page report... nor that it had been received! I asked what was the correct number that Anne should re-send the report. She gave it to me and I forward it onto Anne and it was the same number that she used the first time. Anne resent the report. The report goes to one office in another state and I call the number on my card in a different state then the report was sent to! Go figure... The lady was very nice and she looked further then the one I spoke to in the morning and found that it was in the claims section, forwarded it to me and I was told that the report had to go to Interplan not the principal group. Got that number and sent it to anne, They were about to send her a letter informing her of this... That would have taken another 2 weeks or s fr her to find out the information. I know the lady that she will have to talk to and it will be a fast way to know. This was just a sucky day!!!!

Eat like shit all weekend and felt the pain late last night. Woke up wanting to throw up but could not.. Work is sooo busy with this and that..I am tired and really need a good vacation. That will happen if and when I get to have WLS.

Yjen my husband says well you may have to wait till next year for your WLS if the insurance does not approve it...I tolfd him I would get a medical loan and he told me no. We need to get our older daughter her used car and he can't add the payment to hsi stack of what we owe...Shall I bitch about the money we spent on his sisters wedding and the grooms side did not pay for his half...it was half of WLS.... Sometimes I wonder if he really cares.. but I know it is all about the money..

I am still mad and upset. Then our puppy is driving me nuts with the marking of her territory and getting into everything.

I NEED A VACATION!!!! Sleep...

About Me
Hercules, CA
Location
40.4
BMI
RNY
Surgery
01/23/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 25, 2007
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