I ran across the this posted on a blog today and thought it was great.  Reading this makes me want to go for a run right now.    Hey, Fat Girl Posted on 2013-06-11 by ellepribro Stumbled across this post in a blog that I had to share with you..   Hey, Fat Girl.    Yes, you. The one feigning to not see me when we cross paths on the running track. The one not even wearing sports gear, breathing heavy. You’re slow, you breathe hard and your efforts at moving forward make you cringe.    You cling shyly to the furthest corridor, sometimes making larger loops on the gravel ring by the track just so you’re not on it. You sweat so much that your hair is all wet. You rarely stay for more than 20 minutes at a time, and you look exhausted when you leave to go back home. You never talk to anyone. I’ve got something I’d like to say to you.    You are awesome.    If you’d look me in the eye only for an instant, you would notice the reverence and respect I have for you. The adventure you have started is tremendous; it leads to a better health, to renewed confidence and to a brand new kind of freedom. The gifts you will receive from running will far exceed the gigantic effort it takes you to show up here, to face your fears and to bravely set yourself in motion, in front of others.    You have already begun your transformation. You no longer accept this physical state of numbness and passivity. You have taken a difficult decision, but one that holds so much promise. Every hard breath you take is actually a tad easier than the one before, and every step is ever so slightly lighter. Each push forward leaves the former person you were in your wake, creating room for an improved version, one that is stronger, healthier and forward-looking, one who knows that anything is possible.    You’re a hero to me. And, if you’d take off the blaring headphones and put your head up for more than a second or two, you would notice that the other runners you cross, the ones that probably make you feel so inadequate, stare in awe at your determination. They, of all people, know best where you are coming from. They heard the resolutions of so many others, who vowed to pick up running and improve their health, “starting next week”. Yet, it is YOU who runs alongside, who digs from deep inside to find the strength to come here, and to come back again.    You are a runner, and no one can take that away from you. You are relentlessly moving forward. You are stronger than even you think, and you are about to be amazed by what you can do. One day, very soon, maybe tomorrow, you’ll step outside and marvel at your capabilities. You will not believe your own body, you will realize that you can do this. And a new horizon will open up for you. You are a true inspiration.    I bow to you.

 

Not happy...ate food that did not agree with the tummy...threw up...not fun.  Saturday I ate 2 meatballs and they did not agree with me at all.  They did not agree so much that I threw up, while not fun, throwing up made did make me feel better.  I think I have issues with eating too fast.  I try and chew a lot and go slow, but I still think I am going to fast.  As the weeks go on I am able to eat more and more.  This is causing me a ton of anxiety.  I feel like my belly is getting bigger and I am gaining weight.  I am still afraid of the scale so I have not confirmed my fears.  What if I did gain weight and I had this surgery all for nothing.  I think I would be devastated... I am trying to come from a place of positivity.     

Ugh! I ate too much or too fast or something.  I am finally eating real food and I just had some chili...it is sitting in my stomach like a ton of bricks.  poop...opps I can't do that either.    No but really I have to remember to eat slowly.  Slow and steady will win the race not these hot shot NASCAR moves.

My energy is coming back and I am really feeling like a real person again and I am super happy about it.  I even have plans this weekend, go me.  

Peace and Love!

T. 

I am thinking what the hell have I done.  Okay first things first, I had the Lapband done years ago with no trouble at all.  Fast forward to March 2013 and I have the VSG, ugh I am really thinking what have I done. With the gas and the constant nausea and the in ability to eat or drink more then a sip at a time,  I am wondering if I made a good decision.  I am really scared.  I just keep thinking will I never be able to eat more then a bite in a sitting?  If I would have thought that I would have never done this in a million years.  At this point what is done is done and I have to just hope and pray that it will get better.

 

Okay Okay, I know it has been a long time...to long in fact.  Let's just say March 5 is the first day of the rest of my life.  I have had a rough few years, but am happy to state that I landed on my @$$ but got up on my feet. Sometimes life hand you lemons and you gotta make something awesome out of the sour fruit.  So lets just say I lost a ton of weight like 90lbs with the band and gained it all back.   Around my house we don't cry over spilled milk we clean it up and get another glass.  Fast forward to 3/5/2013 and I decided to have my band removed and have the surgery for the sleeve.  So here I am 2 weeks out of surgery thinking what can I do different this time?  Well I will:

1.  Go to support group meetings, when I stopped going last time I really did see a change after a while

2.  Plan my meals, I really have to be on point with this, lack of planning and options leads to bad choices

3.  Exercise, Exercise, Exercise, my real turning point was when I stopped exercising

notes on surgery - not painful at all, but the gas was horrible.  Thank God I made it through with few complications to start this journey again. This time my success will be permanent.

T.

wow it has been a long time.  I really appreciated all the support I got from all of you in LaLa land, I don't even know what kept me away so long.  I think I am just a slacker, shame on me.  I just had a visit at the doctors yesterday and I am happy to report that I am down 113lbs.  Wow can you believe it?  I lost a whole person and I have to admit that I really don't miss her (that is if it is a chick, it may be a man since it felt like a monkey on my back all those years).  I have to be honest with y'all, I feel a little uneasy when people mention the weight loss.  I feel like I liked myself before and everyone keeps saying you look so amazing or you look so much better, I am inclined to think that the world thought I looked like crap before.  Kind of a double edged sword I think, and I have to say I think it is giving me a complex.  I really missed y'all.

Talk at y'all soon

T.
 

Hello any and all that are reading. Hope all is well out there. It has been a few weeks since I decided to put some thoughts out there. Well what I am finding now is that I must be patient with my weight loss. I am guessing I am out of the honeymoon phase. I have made a commitment to myself to workout three days a week and make good choices. The food thing is actually okay, I don't crave the same things that I use to. My taste have definitely changed. 2008 will be my year. Yeah 2008, here I come!! Remember we are not trying to win the battle we are out to win the war!  Happy New Year and Merry Christmas!!

Hope all is well out there in LaLa land.  I see on the message boards that there are great things happening for all of you.  I am so excited for you all.  I am actual doing really well and am happy that I got the band.  I think that my weight is starting to level off, so I hope that I don't stall, I know that I will 

Plateau, but I don't want to, at least not this early in the game.  Truth be told my biggest fear is that this doesn't work.  I just know that it has to, I think I may just be a little parinoid.  I have been okayed to pick up the pace on my workouts, so maybe that will help.  I think I have been making good food choices, sushi is good for you right?  It seemed to have a lot of carbs, but healthy.  I went for a checkup at the doctors and they told me I was not eating enough and I should follow-up with the nutritionist.  I need to make an appointment.  I just don't have that much intrest in food.  I tend to be hungriest during lunch and tend not to eat dinner.  I don't know what to do.  Have a great thankgiving everyone!!                                   

T.

P.S.  Failure is not an option!  Good Luck to everyone!
 

Hey y'all!  I am doing great, I feel good and if I do say so myself, I am looking good too.  I went to the Dr. today and I have lost 38.9lbs. I am so excited.  The down side is that I am not getting all my protein in and I am not eating enough.  I have been told that I need to see the nutritionist regarding my food intake.  I hope all of you are doing great out there.  I am really happy that I decided to do this! Yeah me!

I am feeling fine!  I am so happy to be almost back to normal!  I consider 100% when I can eat big kid foods!!  Just kidding.  I do feel good, not 100%, but really, really good.  I am amazed that I am not a lot more grumpy about the food stages.  I thought I would be dying, but I am doing okay.  When I feel hungry I grab something in the approved list and keep trucking.  I hope all y'all are doing well too.  I can't wait to see the progress on everyone.  talk at y'all soon!!

 

T