MissJae
♥♥Miss Jae aka Chunky Brown aka Mizz Glam♥♥
Before GB
~ Big girl since childhood and always did my best to wear in well! Always tried to be as fashionable as possible and keep up with the trends. Always wearing a smile, even when I'm down and out. In my early 20's I weighed 366 (my heaviest) and tried to have surgery and my insurance was denied. I forgot about it and went into a bit of a depression. I stayed home a lot because when I was out people that I haven't seen would say "damn girl, you got so big". After a while I didn't care, I just tried to make the best of it and embrace my weight. Again I started to get depressed. I couldn't find nice clothing and because of my weight I was getting these marks on my legs from them swelling all the time. I had to do something!!! I re applied for surgery with my new job insurance and was approved. 352 lbs on date of surgery...
After GB- The Real Skinny (pun intended...LOL!)
~ Well people say I look good but damn if I always feel good. I had to stay in the hospital 3 extra days b/c I just could not get that little 4 ounces to stay down. I had to drink disgusting dye fluid to see if things were traveling correctly. Things seemed OK and I was released after 5 days. Liquid diet was okay no problems there... Well I couldn't keep down protein shakes (major Problem!!!) I tried at least 20 different kinds and my body just rejects them all. My Bestie started calling me Vomit Girl or VG...LOL! That huge ass Calcium pill just gets stuck every time I tried to take it. Then I'd taste it for like 4 hours... Iron, oh boy... the worst!!! You taste it all day and you can't take a $#it!!! So Puree didn't go so well for me... Baby food is disgusting and something about the consistency that just makes me puke! So basically for the last 6 months I just ate mashed potatoes from every restaurant in NY. My entire food list that will actually stay down is Mashed Potatoes, cheese and Muchos Potato chips, grits (on occasion)... That's it!!! I chew stuff and spit it out just for the flavor (sad :( I found a cute way to throw up... I get a cup that you can't see through and put it to my mouth like I'm drinking but instead I'm throwing up... Mastered that technique! What they say about about your hair falling out is definitely true... Talk about bald??? I lost so much hair! And it falls out all patchy and in area where you just can't cover it! Luckily I'm a female and I can just where wigs and weaves... Guys will be okay they can just get a baldy! I've been hospitalized twice for dehydration and had to be hooked up to IV's... I hate needles! My Potassium levels dropped to 1.5 and its suppose to be 4-5... Eat your bananas ( I eat the baby food ones now cuz the real ones get stuck) guys cause that $#it (potassium) burns like hell going through your veins!!! (crying like a baby in the hospital). I will be having the Endoscopy Procedure on 6/19/09 to see if the opening between my Stomach and intestines is too small. Doctors say I should be able to eat more by now. Hopefully things are OK, if I have the Stricture they will have to expand my opening with a balloon... and its back to the drawing board starting from liquids :( Everyone is different and some people adjust quicker than others. All your GB friends will compare themselves to you and make comments but the doctor is who you listen to! I'm not the biggest fan of this surgery... It is really hard for me and I wish I could have achieve weight loss another way... I really miss food too! I guess it has improved my confidence levels as so many people are now attracted to me. I can walk into a store and pick up something and it fits!!! :) Sounds simple but I feel good about it!!! I still have issues with the way things look because of the flab (my arms and thighs gross me out!!!) Fortunately I have a supportive Girlfriend (yes I am a Lesbian...lol) and Friends who love me no matter what size I am... It is important to have a strong support system! You'll also see that people who were your friends before may start to drift away now because they were use to you being "The Fat Friend" now that you are in the spotlight, they won't know how to react. I get sarcastic compliments from some "friends" like " Damn Bitch, you get skinnier everytime I see you, next week you'll be invisible"... i just laugh it off but it makes you think??? Bottom line is I was all that and a bag of chips (literally) then and I'm gonna continue to stay on top of the game!!!
Just me Fat or Skinny
~ Love Glamour♥- Mac Cosmetics, Eyeshadow Whore, Love Shoes♥ , Pocketbooks and clothes
~ Lesbian- I've been a lesbian for 13 years... I don't think it had to do with weight I never really had a problem finding a companion male of female... I just love girls♥!!! I prefer AG's, studs, butches, dykes... you get the point! LOL!
~ Besties- Carla and Nyah are my 2 besties in the world... They love♥ me big or small and share my passion for Glamour!
Well that's me in a Nutshell, always looking to make new friends!!! if you wanna know more or have GB question or suggestions please feel free to add me! ♥Muah♥ Miss Jae♥
