1 year post-op

Nov 16, 2009

I'm officially 1 year post-op. I weigh 144, and I am maintaining. I wear a Small, size 4 or 6 depending on how it's cut. I even have a couple of things that are Extra Small. LOL. My hair has finally come back in. I stopped losing it months ago, but it wasn't coming back. Now my stylist said I could probably start coloring it again next month. :-)

There are still things that I have to get used to. I don't see in the mirror what other people see, but I can see it in pictures. Isn't that strange? I have to get used to people being nice to me, complimenting me, checking me out, etc. I have to resist the urge to pull out my before picture and ask if they would have acted the same way to her. I have to resist the urge to buy things just because they fit. I have to really think about whether or not I need it and if I would truly wear it. I still get cravings that I have to resist. They operated on our stomachs, not our brains. But the thought of getting sick and dumping is enough motivation to resist.  I've found ways to distract myself from any emotional eating which was pretty easy to do when you have no appetite. I do need to get better about eating on schedule. I plan everything out, but if my schedule gets disrupted it can be easy for me to delay a meal or a snack. I've found that taking sugar free pudding with protein powder in it to work helps me stay on track (It's easy to swallow if a call comes in.).

There are so many things that I have been able to do that I never thought I would accomplish. I can go to Six Flags and White Water and actually participate instead of watching everyone else. I can go to the beach and enjoy time with my family instead of hiding. I don't worry about whether or not a chair can support me or if I will get stuck in it. I have more confidence and go after the things I want. I'm not afraid to speak up or be noticed. I can play with my kids. I can spend time with my husband. I'm not tired all the time anymore. I love working out at the gym now. I even enjoy crunches. LOL

This is still the best thing that I ever did for myself, and I would encourage anyone to learn more about it.

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