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Weigh in Day...
Oct 22, 2008
Well, had an appt today and weighed in - and I have been telling myself all along that as long as I am losing or maintaining I am doing what is right for me. I lost 2lbs in two weeks and while I think that is pretty good - I know my Dr. office feels differently. It is a bit discouraging but at the same time - something is better than nothing - AND - it brings me to 51lbs lost since May 27thish. So that is roughly 10lbs a month - I think that is good - but they want more - which really mentally bothers me. I know a few things I could do to improve - so I am going to do them and see - Have another appt in two weeks and we will see where I am by then.
Feeling Blah again...Day 138
Oct 21, 2008
Well, I promised I would post and I haven't - so I am a bad poster - but I have good news and blah news. Good news is that as of October 8th - I am officially down 49lbs. The blah news is that I am feeling so blah
lately - If I eat one bite too many (even though I don't realize it is one bite too many) I am usually left throwing that one bite too many back up. I currently am on my cycle and maybe I am more bloated than normal this time - not sure - but I am miserable. Doing a liquid/soft food diet today cause I am just miserable and tired of throwing up. I have an appt tomorrow with the Nurse Practitioner in my Dr.'s office so I hope I can get some answers on what I might be doing wrong. UGH!Back on a track....
Oct 03, 2008
I went to my first support group meeting last night (since having surgery in June)...it was very inspiring and very energetic. I love the group I have online and was able to meet most of them in person. I started logging my food again today - and staying loyal to it. I have to control the carbs - and that (for me) is the true way to do it.
I have come to the realization that everyone elses struggles look so different through our own eyes and yet it helps to keep things orgainzed inside. I left there ready to start my journey over - Not that I have gained anything - but last month maintained. I still have about 59lbs til I reach my own goal - if I get that far I will be happy - if I get further (to the Dr.'s goal) then I would say that is an added bonus...
thanks my friendly flowers - all of you are awesome!
I have come to the realization that everyone elses struggles look so different through our own eyes and yet it helps to keep things orgainzed inside. I left there ready to start my journey over - Not that I have gained anything - but last month maintained. I still have about 59lbs til I reach my own goal - if I get that far I will be happy - if I get further (to the Dr.'s goal) then I would say that is an added bonus...
thanks my friendly flowers - all of you are awesome!
It's been WAY too long....
Oct 01, 2008
Okay - I am almost 4 months post op and have been learning from my local "flowers" that I need to be journaling and note everything that goes on to keep better track of what my life is like post-op. So, even though I am 4 months late - I am starting now! I had a really rough beginning. After surgery - I was allergic to the tape and had a terrible rash for WEEKS. Once that cleared up - I was feeling much better and quickly (by 9/9/08) got down 42 pounds. I went last week because I started to realize I could eat more than my doctor wanted me eating AND I had thrown up a few times - thought maybe my band had slipped - so I went in on 9/25/08. Hadn't lost another pound - maintained (talk about major depression). So I got a fill and went on my merry way. By Saturday I was throwing up again...By Monday - still throwing up anything I ate and felt miserable - so I called the dr. office. Had a good conversation and then when we hung up - had a good mental breakdown on the floor at my office. I realized I had sorta jumped off the bandwagon (literally). I think that part of my problem is that my husband is also a lapbander and his doctor does things differently - therefore he has had major success doing the total opposite of what my doctor expects. So, I tend to think that I can just ride his train.....but that doesn't work. I am "officially" starting over as though I just had surgery. I go back next week and hope that all is better (at least down a few pounds) and I picked back up on walking (I know that is so so so important!) I thank my local "flowers" group for being such a great support system. I will continue to journal/blog/whatever you want to call it - as I know it will help me on this journey.
2 weeks post-op
Jun 19, 2008
Well, I am 2 weeks post-op and feeling a bunch of mixed emotions and reactions. I had a terrible reaction to the surgical tape/bandages. I also had a hiatal hernia repaired during the procedure so I am just 'overall' not feeling up to par - but I am still at work and doing good considering. Doctor says life gets better and easier - I trust him but just waiting for that day/moment is a bit too long for me. I am still on a liquid diet because it is hard for me to get anything down with all the swelling and tightness - but I am a survivor. I am down over 20lbs and waiting for more to drop - but my focus right now is to just start feeling better!
