Darla S.
My 4 year surgiversary
Apr 27, 2011
4 years ago today, Dr. Jones gave me the best gift ever, my WLS.I've lost enough weight to create a 'plus-sized' supermodel, and my life has improved in ways I never dreamed of. I'm not going to list them all here, I've posted many of them before. My profile has 4 years worth of entries chronicling much of my journey for anyone who cares to read any of it...
I've also had more struggles in the past 2+ years than ever before, although none of it has been related to my weight loss - getting healthy doesn't automatically mean life will be happy all the way around, chit happens. But I believe that had I continued down the super ginormous morbidly obese road I was on, I could very well have killed myself by now. Stress eating has been my BIGGEST WLS-related challenge throughout it all.
Sometimes I'm good, sometimes I'm not. I have yet to see ONEDERLAND, but I'm a big girl - 5'11" - maybe I'll get there, maybe I won't. I refuse to beat myself up over a number. I made it down to size 14's from 34's and 36's, and I'm still IN those 14's. Some days they feel loose, some days they feel snug. I celebrate the fact that I can actually tell when there's a 3-5 pound fluctuation in my weight either way, because pre-op, I couldn't have noticed such a tiny difference.
I'm thankful to know I will always have my tool to help me, to be mindful of the fact that WLS is never 'over'. I feel sad when I think about all the people that have disappeared from OH and my beloved MG coffee group over the past several years, many of them because they harbor so much shame over having re-gained some of their weight. If you can't come here or to coffee to kick yourself in the butt and/or beg for support and encouragement, well, that's very sad, because there's no better place for such things. WE ALL GET IT.
I hope that each of you, no matter where you are in your journey, never lose touch with your tool, never forget the gift your surgeon gave you. No one said it would be easy, but it sure as hell is worth it.
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About Me
Maple Grove, MN
Location
26.5
BMI
Surgery
04/27/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 12, 2007
Member Since
