Darla S.
You've GOT to be kidding me!
Sep 21, 2011
I haven't posted anything here since APRIL??? Huh. I would have sworn I had. I guess life just keeps movin' on, and I've hardly noticed the time passing.So since April... (seriously???) My son has been confirmed, my daughter graduated from high school. For whatever reason I can't explain (except, perhaps, for a lack of $$), I haven't gone to ValleyFair ONCE this summer! Part of me finds that disturbing, part of me just really never felt the urge to go.
My weight - I have gained about 20 pounds from my lowest (not just since April, but overall). Not happy about that, but I'm not beating myself up, either. I'm still in 14's, although I also wear some 16's just so I don't have to buy more clothes. The thing is, it's never over. I've been bouncing around in the same 10 pound range for about a year. Much as I still want to lose more, I guess I've essentially been maintaining. I KNOW if I get serious, I can get back on the losing train, and I know at some point, I will do just that. If the stress ever lets up a bit.
I've been struggling with my daughter - she's got another loser boyfriend that I just can NOT warm up to, HER weight problem is getting worse, and she's so sensitive it scares me out of saying anything. Hell, it took ME to the age of 45 to do something about MY weight, because it had to come from within. If/when she's ready to get serious, I'll be all over it. Because I KNOW how much better life is in a normal body! I want that for her. I want her to feel that this ISN'T as good as it gets, she CAN have a better guy in her life, and she DESERVES that - and more! My inner control freak is just having a hard time with it all.
After being laid off for more than 2 years, my husband FINALLY has a job with a painting company - not the greatest pay, but steady, and that's worth quite a bit in itself. At about the same time he got hired, I took on a part time job at a local grocery store. Oddly enough, I really enjoy it! But they have had me working quite a bit more than I signed on for... I told them I was looking for two, maybe three shifts/week, and they've had me on a LOT more than that. Yes, they asked, because they've lost a number of college students this time of year and need to hire/train a few more people. But damn - last week I worked 30 hours there IN ADDITION to my full time job! 70 hours in 7 days. I'm damn near 50 years old, that was a bit much. I'll have to gently remind them that I'm hoping for only 15-20 hours/week, tops. But the 'extra' $ has been nice - not that it's EXTRA money, but it sure helps get the bills paid! It has made eating decent rather challenging, tho. When I work an evening shift, I have to drive straight from my full time job to that one, leaving no time for a meal. And I only get a 15 minute break around 7-7:30, so yeah - dinner is challenging. I usually eat something when I get home after 10pm, just because I know I need to. But I hate eating so close to bed time.
** sigh ** Oh well, that's my life in a nutshell. Still hanging in there, and I guess I should be thankful for that. Although I'd much rather win the lottery and not have to work all the time just to make ends meet. I envy those who don't.
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Maple Grove, MN
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26.5
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Surgery
04/27/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 12, 2007
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