Time for some real changes

Aug 23, 2009

I think I must be the only person on this site that has not lost any weight with this darn bann. December will be 2 years and I am still around 300 lbs. I lost my insurance when I was laid off last november and so I don't have the funds to go to have fills or unfills, and Nothing is seeming to work. I get sick often because I think I am too tight, but then somedays I could eat a horse, cow, chicken and the pigs in one setting.  I am so sick of being heavy, and I am now doing the weight watcher program in order to try to get back on track. It is the only method that I have ever lost weight with and I really need to get this weight off.

I am back to working as a Stylist here again and I am loving it, but it takes a while to build you clientel to a managable size for a set income. I have been wanting to get out of a relationship that I am in that is no good for me, but with the finances in the place that they are I have to be patient even though I just want to say "GET OUT NOW"!!!!! This is not what I was hoping for in anyway. This is NOT the man of my dreams, and I am getting to the point that I don't even think we will be able to part as friends because I feel like an emotional hostage in this relationship, because there is a child involved, who has horrible parents, mother and father. I really need to get out of this because it is affecting the way I am able to focus on anything, especially the weight loss, and finances.

I am in sore need of true friends that understand the struggle of weight loss issues, and I am really feeling I am in this by myself. I have got to get this on track and any encouragement is welcome.

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