Trying to get me started right

Jan 04, 2010

Today is 01/04/2010 Monday

I have so much on my plate right now. I am currently still in a relationship. It is going better but still not quite up to where it should have been in the 1st place. I am however hopeful that somethings will get on track soon. I have recently had my god-daughter to move in with me and am helping her with getting to and from work, on top of all the other things I already had to be doing. I know she can't help the hours they give her so I am not mad at her about it, but it is just another person depending on me for transportation in my house. No one in my house drives other than me, and there are currently 4 driving aged people living here including me. Only one person is under the age of 16, so it makes for a really hectic schedule everyday for me.

Tomorrow is my first day back to school and for the kids but I am hardly excited about it. I get extremely stressed at school because I don't feel I am being utilized in a productive way. I am wasting time that I could be at the salon doing what I need to be doing to bring more income into my home.

I AM GOING TO get my work out in today. NO MATTER WHAT, EVEN IF IT HAS TO BE AT MIDNIGHT..... I have a client today this afternoon, and that is after having an appointment with a housing specialist to see if I can find something more affordable. I have been moving into a larger apartment for the last 2 weeks and still am not through getting everything situated, because of how others in my home are not taking any initative to help get it finished. It is only across the hall and you would think we have moved across the city for all the help that is being given at getting it finished.

I am also trying to get my schedule set up for when and what I am eating, I still have a paper to finish in order to start the other chapters in  my classes for my teachers licence. Talk about a busy schedule. I need to do laundry and no one seems to be helping get things together to get them done....

Yesterday I sat up and ate over half of a pint of ice cream and I know enough about me to know that when I start eating junk it is because I am HIGHLY stressed about something or everything. I am glad that I stopped myself from finishing the whole thing, but I still ate waaayyyy too much of it in one setting. In the past I would have finished it off...

Anyway pray for me, as I intend to try to make this my source of journaling what I am doing, how I am feeling and what it is I am trying to get off of my back in order to make healthier decisions about how to go about getting to my goal of 100lbs lost by my 40th birthday, which is December 23,2010. That equates to only 2lbs per week which is doable if I stick to my guns... later I will post all my stats and starting photos so that I  and you can see the progress or the lack there of....

Pray for me and good luck to all of you....
Nycky

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