molls
HiiiYA!!
My name is Molly. I am 25 years old...and I am about to embark on the most challenging, most incredible journey in my life. I am having BARIATRIC Bypass Surgery. Hopefully at the end of August, if all my ducks are in a row.
Little bit about me...like I said 25, I work at a Hospital here in Michigan. for the past 4 years I have SEVERLY gained weight, all throw Junior year of High School till i was about 21 I was around 220, yes I know, still obese, but I was content, I kept telling myself, if I lose 50lbs I would be happy with myself. Butttt that didnt happen instead of losing the 50lbs I gainedddd 50lbs. Then went through a break up, moved out of an apartment, took to eatting all the wrong foods. No longer active. I WAS A MESS. I enjoy swimming, rollerblading, being outside and exploring and I gave that all up to be secluded in my bedroom. Than I gained 100lbs...miserable and not happy, but still trying to have a life, I continued to go out and eat, party with friends. I ate out alot. Just had some bad habits...at that point I was 23 and about 300lbs. BAD, but I was some how convinced that if I took to a weight loss plan I could lose 100lbs and be 200lbs and then work slowly to get that weight off. Well I didnt after failed attempts at Weight Watchers, Curves, Alli, Healthytrim, some chinese remedy tea. I gained weight. Sooo fustrating, its like a yo-yo lose some gain a lil lose some gain a little. The only time I was successful was in High School i was 240 and lost 40lbs on Atkins. That was awesome...but the two monthes it took me to lose 40lbs it only took me a month to put it back on. SUCK SUCK SUCK!!!
On November 24th 2007, I lose my dad. I was so sad, my world came crashing, thats when emotional eatting came into play. I was miserable, lost, and extrememly OVERWEIGHT a sad 360lbs. my knees hurt me, my back hurts, I can no longer take the stairs...ummm at 25 im dying fast! TODAY sadly, I weigh 394 lbs, if your bad at math...thats 6lbs short of 400lbs. OMG...like OMFG!!! HOW,,,whyyyyyyy...WHENNNNNNN!! When did I let myself go? When did I lose the battle of my life?
How did things get this way?
I mean I can come up with lots of excuses...lots of explainations, but I dont want to.
I know I made bad choices...i know I didnt always eat the right things...but with a BMI of 69. THINGS have got to change. I need to fight for my life...regain control I had 25 years of a free for all and its not going good...I need to get control back and do something about this.
So with that said, im excited for surgery...excited for this journey...i know its gonna be rough, but I got my walking shoes, and my big girl panties on ;)
LETS DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
