Dissapointment ...discouraged

Jun 20, 2015

So it's ben quite a while since I posted, I am now 8 years out and maintained am eight of 140-145 since surgery once I leveled out, however just over a year ago March , 2014 . I underwent 3 surgerys to try to remove cervical cancer. I was on Mirena which had horemones, at the time. However after 3 unsuccessful attempts the cancer was still there. This was devistating. I then had to choose to be alive for my kids who would be parent less without me, or say screw it. Obviously I've raised them on my own and their dads don't know them or never bothered. So I did what any mother would do I only had one option , and it really put me through a mental loop, as somedayI wanted another child maybe.. That was taken from me , when my only option was a hysterectomy. They left my ovaries, but took out iud of course no where to keep it now which means less horemones, but now, I feel I have failed somehow as since my hysterectomy at age 35 at the time.. I am now at 170-173, and my primary says I'm overweight. I did not change my diet really if anything my diet got better... So now how do I lose it? I'm scared to be heavy again. I even got a fit bit to make sure I'm doing as much as I can and that's pretty much 4-5 miles a day. I stay away from all fats as they make me sick, I don't eat sugar it makes me sick. I stick mostly with crystal light or another sugar free packet. I don't eat much red meat as that makes me sick to. And I am limited to what I can eat as I get sick with most things, except veggies. Anyways sorry for the rant but it's an update and I'm just not sure why since my surgery have I gained is, and being told I'm obese? When clearly I am not, granted my ass has appeared to grow, and well my chest went from being huge to empty sandbags to huge,is this wheres lo the weight is gained ? But I don't want sag tummy again, or sag ass, or sag arms, or sag boobs again! But hate I feel huge.... Anyways any suggestions or what nots would be nice... Sadly.written ...Nicole p.s I am still on b12 injections , no iron in quite some time, but severely vitamin d deficient now.

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5 years out

Apr 26, 2012

I havent written in a while, but I was reminded today it has been 5 years since my surgery and, I have gained some back but for that I am thankful I was to skinny, I now fluctuate between 145 and 150 every month, but i actually look healthy not anorexic like I used to. I am happy to say I have and am still learning some foods I cannot digest. Still learning to this day with new things I never tried before. I was running for a while but it pittered out over the last year as I was so busy with my 2 kids and maintaining a house, had no time for me one of my goals this year is to get back exersizing and toning more than anything else. I have also had progress being on iv infusions for iron since my surgery, I am finally steady the last almost year not needing them I still give myself my b12 injections, I have to admit one of the hardest things I have struggled with and still do it taking my meds, it just seems to never happen. Anyways things are well with me. Just wanted to update, maybe you all can share your 5 year surgery date annaversary stories with me!! would love to know how your doing? Maybe suggestions for me or maybe you need advice, just write me! best wishes! 
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My goal and more!!

Jun 06, 2009

Well it has been quite sometime since i wrote in here, I have reached my goal and have been maintaining it for over a year. I am 2 years post op! looking and feeling great. I went from a size 22-24 to a size 5. I couldnt be happier. I feel great about myself, and Love the lifestyle I choose. I have 2 beautiful boys. I have plans in the future to have my breast done due to all the weight loss i need them to be filled back up, I miss them terribly, my stomach isnt to bad, but maybe eventually get that done, other than that my inner thighs sag a little, and my bum sags a little, i went from weighing 265 at my heaviest to 129-134.. it fluctuates. If anyone ever wants to talk or anything has questions feel free to ask, Id be more than happy to talk with you and who knows maybe a friendship would develop out of it! and afterall who doesnt need friends! I do now have to get iv infusions for iron every 3 weeks, along with b12 shot. due to poor absorbsion of my vitamins, but other than that all is great. Talk to you all soon!!
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almost at goal

Jun 04, 2008

Well lets see here I am past my year post op, I am 7 pounds shy of my goal weight. I weigh 142, my goal was 135. When I entered the weight loss program at St Elizabeth Caritas, the center for weight control in Brighton Massachusetts, I had made my mind up I wanted to be happier, healthier, and be around for years to come. I was told you can do it on your own... the fact was I tryed for years and couldnt, this was the tool i needed to be sucessful. So finally the day is here where i can look back and say.. It was a hard road but well worth it. Anyone who thinks surgery is the easy way out it is not.. it requires strict dicipline and dedication, i cant even eat anything without looking at a label, but i eat healthy now, and no more sleep apnea, and i can actually go up a flight of stairs without being out of breath.I do have to say one of the disapointing things is, and this will sound funny but. I miss my voluptious chest... its all gone. and sure i have a little loose skin, but it can eventually be fixed. I have gone from a size 22-24 to a size 7.. WOW!! and between this surgery and getting pregnant right away after the surgery , my body was very worn out..I had a healthy pregnancy, and a healthy baby. If anyone has any questions feel free to contact me, Id love to talk with you. To all of you who are post op, its great to be on the loosing side..and to those of you considering it its well worth it join the loosing side, the benifits far outweigh the risks , and your family will thank you for it.

Doing great

Nov 13, 2007

Hi everyone Well I am now down 72 lbs! I am pregnant 5 months with a lil baby boy. I am still loosing weight but im sure that will stop soon. they say it will pck back up after i have the baby, My goal weight was 130 -135 I hope that after all is said and done I can still reach that goal. So far my pregnancy is Great and the baby is helthy there are no problems. I am engaged now and getting married in May!! How exciting is that. Well not much else is newbut if you want to chat just message me im always looking for good conversation.

YAY

Aug 09, 2007

Well its been a while since i update, I am down 56 lbs and gone from a size 20 to a size 12. Im so happy and feel great! I have not gotten sick, I have only had a kidney infection but that was not from anything surgery related. Ok so now some news..They advise you not to get pregnant till after a year n your weight has stabilized, well after surgery my doctors think i wasnt absorbing all of the birth control, and... well guess what. Yes i am pregnant. i am just over my 3 month post op and bam I find this out. I will tell you I was scared and shocked. Cause it wasnt planned. My surgeon informed me this is a high risk pregnancy cause i am malabsorbing, but i need to concentrate on nutrition and eating and no longer weight loss. Cross your fingers for me!!

April 23rd 2007

Apr 28, 2007

Hi Everyone today I had my lapriscopic gastric bypass, the surgery was supposed to be around 2 hours, but ended up being 4 1/2 hours due to complications, they said i had small insides. Upon waking up i was placed into intensive care, due to my sleep apnea. i believe the next day i went into the step down unit which is basically like intensive care. I had to stay in there for 2 1/2 days because of some problems with my heart sky rocketing when ever i was active. The hardest part i think was all the time with no food or water.... seemed like i was waitng forever... finally they came to me with a little medicine cup filled with blue water, and said to drink that, i was allowed 1every 2 hours. this was to check and see if i had leaks. If i did it would come out the tube they placed into my abdomen into a little collection clear ball on the outside.. I had no leaks YAY! so they moved me onto the next diet stage.. jello, and bullion soup, and apple juice.. At this point i was happy just to not be sucking on swabs for moisture in my mouth. I was on morphine self controled for 3 days. then they took me off and started with percocet. my iv was left in the hole time it had to be moved to my other had at one point. due to my heart issue i had to wear a battery pack/ wireless monoter connected to leads all over my chest, so i could be monotered 24/7. I was very active from teh begining noone had to tell me to get out of bed and walk or anything i was up even when i didnt need to be!! I knew it would make me better faster.I was moved to my own room on the 3rd day, and it was so peacefull. but i was up walking around all the time. the halls got boring. i wasnt allowed to shower the hole time, but i was allowed to wash from a sink. last but not least the day i was leaving ... my iv came out, and then i waited for this plastic drain to be removed from my stomach..I dreaded the actual feeling of it. so the nurse comes in and trys to cut the stitch with scissors and stabs my new incision a few times and i yell.finally she gets the suture out thats holding the tubing and pulls ont he tubing.. low and behold she forgot to release the suction valve... so she was like oops.. so she does that and pulls a little and was like omg i cant get this out of you.. and ran out of the room.. i started freaking out, im like what! she gets a docor he comes in and yanks it out.. it felt like there was a loose garden snake inside my stomach unwinding through all my organs as it was being pulled out! I almost got sick!!!

APPROVED

Dec 13, 2006

Yay I got my approval letter today I cant wait its been 2 years in the making!! They denied my application for Lapband, but approved GB. I wanted to have the Lapband done but. Due to insurance circumstances I will be having the gastric bypass.

Insurance info

Dec 02, 2005

MASSHEALTH
Pre Authorization request sent on 11/14/05 Denial Letter recieved 11/29/05 ~Reason for Denial~ Masshealth has denied your request for prior authorization. Will reconsider in 6 months, after patient had undercone suggested cholecystectomy(gall bladder removal) and demonstrates adequet social support network, which is essential to her long term success. Appeal Letter sent to Masshealth 12/3/05 I was unable to go to my appeal, however, almost exactly 1 year later my pre auth.. is being sent . Approval recieved 12-10-06

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