Dissapointment ...discouraged

Jun 20, 2015

So it's ben quite a while since I posted, I am now 8 years out and maintained am eight of 140-145 since surgery once I leveled out, however just over a year ago March , 2014 . I underwent 3 surgerys to try to remove cervical cancer. I was on Mirena which had horemones, at the time. However after 3 unsuccessful attempts the cancer was still there. This was devistating. I then had to choose to be alive for my kids who would be parent less without me, or say screw it. Obviously I've raised them on my own and their dads don't know them or never bothered. So I did what any mother would do I only had one option , and it really put me through a mental loop, as somedayI wanted another child maybe.. That was taken from me , when my only option was a hysterectomy. They left my ovaries, but took out iud of course no where to keep it now which means less horemones, but now, I feel I have failed somehow as since my hysterectomy at age 35 at the time.. I am now at 170-173, and my primary says I'm overweight. I did not change my diet really if anything my diet got better... So now how do I lose it? I'm scared to be heavy again. I even got a fit bit to make sure I'm doing as much as I can and that's pretty much 4-5 miles a day. I stay away from all fats as they make me sick, I don't eat sugar it makes me sick. I stick mostly with crystal light or another sugar free packet. I don't eat much red meat as that makes me sick to. And I am limited to what I can eat as I get sick with most things, except veggies. Anyways sorry for the rant but it's an update and I'm just not sure why since my surgery have I gained is, and being told I'm obese? When clearly I am not, granted my ass has appeared to grow, and well my chest went from being huge to empty sandbags to huge,is this wheres lo the weight is gained ? But I don't want sag tummy again, or sag ass, or sag arms, or sag boobs again! But hate I feel huge.... Anyways any suggestions or what nots would be nice... Sadly.written ...Nicole p.s I am still on b12 injections , no iron in quite some time, but severely vitamin d deficient now.

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